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To make the future self, thank you now.

The present me is the future me in the past. Although I missed a lot in the past, those are the price of growth, and I don't blame him. And, I'm so grateful to him!

He did something very important -- he wrote about it.

Now, after a period of depression, I finally see clearly what is not mine and what is mine.

When I don't have a job, the most vivid material wealth - money, it will continue to decrease, it will be lost, it will not want to stay, there will not be too many memories.

Even if I used to work hard day and night for it, in the end, when I was tired and wanted to rest, it would still turn its face and leave without the slightest hesitation.

Looking at it, although there is a hint of excitement, there is no sense of security at all. It seems that in the blink of an eye, it is all passing by the clouds.

When it seems like a lot, the whole person feels that the world is their own, and even forgets the way life is. When there is only a trace of it left, it feels that the whole world is about to collapse, and even fears to face the life that has been forgotten by itself.

If I am the king of a country in my heart, then it is a red face and a curse, and a smile can captivate the country and the city. The country is easy to change, but the nature is difficult to change. I don't love the country, but I love the beauty. In the end, the whole heart fell......

If you think you have it, you really have it. It turned out that it was just his own wishful thinking.

And many times after I lost my job, I fell into a trough and couldn't extricate myself, but what gave me motivation and let me see a little hope was my spiritual wealth - Dongdong who wrote for a few years.

After losing my job, I was in a state of confusion and desolation, and I didn't know what I could do. No direction, no guidance, no presence.

However, when I look at what I have been writing for a few years, I will have a special touch. It's the crystallization of my upbringing. Even if the money goes away, it won't go, no matter how worrying my situation is......

It's mine, it's mine. Although it does not bring me material wealth now, it will feel very safe in my heart! because it will not lie to me, it will not trick me, it will not leave me......

Its existence is my hope! It seems that it can also make me feel that I exist.

I'm confused, it can give me direction;

I'm scared, it can give me courage;

I am lost, and it can give me comfort;

I give up, it can give me support;

I persevered, and it cheered me up;

I'm rebellious, and it can give me trust.

When I feel that the world doesn't trust me anymore, it will still coax me quietly next to my heart......

Therefore, now I am very grateful to my past self for writing more than 600,000 words to today. Every time I feel the more than 600,000 words, I really feel that my world is still my world.

Recently, I read a very good book called "When Your Talent Can't Support Your Dreams".

There is a passage in the book that Bonnie Bai said that we must find something that will make us stand strong on our feet other than love. Today I suddenly understood that we also need to find something that can make us feel our existence in addition to work, this thing may be a hobby, it may be a habit, it can be anything. But whatever it is, it must be something that soothes you when you feel sad and lost after eight hours at work, or even when you lose your job, and that thinking about it in the dark of night can make you fall asleep with tears in your eyes and wake up the next day with "it's okay" to yourself.

I think that's what I'm writing for me.

I don't know if my future self will hate me now. Because, now I am also gambling for my future self. Whether we lose or win, we can only let time give us the answer.

But at least, now I don't regret my choice. Despite the lack of approval from my family and the rebellion I derived, I still have to bet on it.

I'm not afraid of my future self and hate why I bet on this now, I'm afraid of my future self regretting why I don't bet on this now.

So, I'm selfish......

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