Can I follow the path of others?

I don't know, but the teacher never gave me any paths, and I found all the roads by myself by looking through books. Perhaps, following the path of others, even if I have already gotten rid of the character, does not necessarily mean that I will get rid of the character.

For example, the teacher has gotten rid of the role, but I can't follow the path of the teacher. Because the teacher didn't give me the way at all, in retrospect, the teacher's teachings almost made me see and think for myself.

The trivial things around me constantly affect me, like a rubber band, life pulls me in this direction. But when life is gone, or I'm alone, the devouring feeling of slashing the character will take me to the other side.

Life distracts me, or rather, I allow life to help me distract. Only when a person is in the dead of night, the feeling of devouring will slowly float up, like falling into a swamp of devouring.

Nothing is important, life is not important, family is not important, morality is not important, love is not important. Nothing makes sense, and the so-called meaning is nothing but artificial. What reason should I follow the meanings that others have made up?

So, does my killing make sense? It's also pointless, it's the most pointless thing to do, messing up my life and preventing me from enjoying any of the pleasures I once had. character, you are the murderer.

Damn it!

My opinions and opinions are still in my head, and I can't help but want to say something, and I can't help but fantasize about scenarios to express my opinions and opinions. Of course, it is not the content of the opinion that matters, but the way to gain the admiration of others.

To be precise, it is through expression to gain the admiration that "I think" others will have. It's just self-amusement in my head, but I still like it very much, isn't it sadness?

I don't want to abandon my character, the character who once stood at the head of the empire, the character who once went from a small person to a big man, the character who dared to summon the courage to leave the empire alone, the character who had countless insights.

There are many more, the character who is filial to the mother, the character who is full of love, the character who dedicates himself to cultivating the descendants of the family, the character who is compassionate in the eyes of the world, and the character who has many disciples who have advanced cultivation.

I also want to explore how to kill a character and still keep it. I still want to stand at the peak of the empire, and I want to return to the empire with a domineering posture. This is the block, can't you see it?

It's not that you can't see it, it's that you see it and don't want to kill it. This obstacle is not an obstacle, but a beautiful and alluring expectation, a hope that people are unwilling to give up. But no matter how sweet it is, it's also a block.

Anything that stops me is a block, an existence that must be killed. Maybe I'm a small person, so even if I become the first person in the empire, I still want to continue to climb to the top of the empire, I still don't have any sense of security.

That's the block, and I have to keep reminding myself not to fall into the illusion of being cool. Don't be complacent about your opinion, even if it's just a simple theory. But any theory is speculation, and what is there to brag about?

Before I knew it, I was showing off my knowledge. When others don't know why, but I can easily explain the principle, my heart is happy and full of glory. However, these are all falsehoods and must be killed.

What advice is there to give to others? What opinion I think is based on so many years of memory and cognition, and it is not the truth. In this world, the only truth is "I exist", and the rest is speculation.

Thinking, "I'm doing this to be good for others," and a self-righteous "good," and a false self-definition that judges these things to be "good," so I have to act like this. It's ridiculous, there are some "good" that everyone agrees on, such as at least having enough to eat, at least having a place to shelter from the rain.

Are there any great men who have not experienced "bad"? If all those great men have experienced "good" and have been experiencing "good", can they still become great men? How do I know that what I "think" is good is really good?

Here we go again!

I'm trying to convince people again, I'm trying to reason again. Get out, talk about your sister's reasoning, those people and things in my head, get out of here!

I had to monitor my mind, or I would be manipulated by the characters and use fantasy coolness to create a self-defined victory. It's ridiculous to think about it, what is there to convince? How many thousands of years will the drama of "I'm right" be played?

I'm not done yet, what stands in my way are those views and opinions, always wanting to express, always wanting victory, always wanting the adoration of others.

There are too many people and things in my head, and I feel that I have completely drained all my life force, and I am constantly in confrontation. The most ridiculous thing is that all confrontations come from the brain, and there are no real people and things at all.

Even if something happens, I am still fighting against the people and things in my head, and I am still an army of lies led by self-definition, weaving all kinds of weaving in my head.

This is the real enemy I am fighting against.

Will I be able to go to the real place?

Yuan Changwen looked out of the dark window, as if he was facing his own road, it was pitch black and he couldn't find the direction, and he didn't even know if there was an exit. In other words, I only theoretically know that there will be an end of the day, but I can't be sure of it.

Maybe you can only be sure if you do it yourself.

Really, why do you think so much? Is there no end to this road, can I just stop walking? I can't see clearly, there's no turning back. Thinking about the previous things, maybe you will be distracted, maybe you will procrastinate, but as long as you are alone and let go of the block, the feeling of devouring has never stopped.

I've always been taught to have a positive heart and to try to get out of the mood as quickly as possible when faced with a low ebb. There has never been a moment when I would look forward to my low ebb and flow, my anger and hatred.

You are also taught to be grateful for the care of others, even if you don't appreciate it in your heart, to keep smiling, so that you don't hurt the people who care about you. Why do you do such a thing? Why pretend to thank the other person for your concern? What is there to maintain in a relationship?

Does anyone care about me? That's just caring about the character of Yuan Changwen, just like me, I don't care about anyone at all. Because all people exist only in my head, I care about the person in my head, the sum of the information about who "I think".

Moreover, I would care about the other person, just because in my head I thought that the person I "think" needed to care, and I didn't know if that person actually needed to care.

Isn't it ridiculous to construct data about the other person in your head, and judge according to that data, "Oh, he's uncomfortable right now, he needs to care", and then care about the other person according to this false self-definition?

Not to mention, other self-definitions mixed with care, "Look, I'm so kind, I make time to care about you", "Hey, I'm everyone's warm man, you can find me if you have any questions", "I care about you, you have to give me face when I have something in the future." ”

Disgusting!