"Tired and Loved" - 2014.10.31

So soon, it's already the tail of October.

Counting up, I have been with her for almost half a month, and we get along quite well.

When I confessed to her for the first time, although she rejected me and I was disappointed for a while, I still had the urge to confess to her for the second time. With a hesitant heart, I bravely allowed myself to try again, even if I was still rejected, because I at least dared to fight for the happiness I wanted.

As a result, the second confession, Cupid's arrow seemed to shoot through my heart and her, so there was a rare "together".

If you ask me what I really like about her, I can name several reasons. Some people say that you don't need a reason to really like someone. If so, is my liking for her a real liking?

On the first day of our relationship, I woke up early and started to feel like I had breakfast again. However, when I met her, there was no romance at all. She just told me to sweep the floor and do a very monotonous thing for a whole day. We didn't say anything, as if we were looking at each other. Even though she was so cold, I also admired her beauty. Not many people will see her beauty, because it needs to be seen with the heart, and the tired soul with her eyes can't see it. I was one of those people who lost my soul because of her beauty......

At the end of the day, I was exhausted. Maybe it's because I've been free for too long, and I haven't regained the feeling of not being free. She didn't say anything about caring or anything like that, still, coldly.

The next day, I also woke up early and continued to eat breakfast. She didn't make me feel any warmer either. I began to wonder why she was so cold to me, and why I had to be with her? Is it reluctant? I continued to get along with her with questions.

At the end of the second day, I didn't feel as tired as the first day, as if I could get used to that feeling. At that time, her coldness didn't seem to be so cold. Is it my delusion?

Then, on the third day, the fourth day, the fifth day, it continued......

Today, I seem to understand that in fact, I am so tired every day, but because of her, I can slowly transform that tiredness into a faint happiness. Why can she influence me like that?

I'm used to being with her, yes, with her, I really don't feel free, but I want to. Moreover, it is not without freedom, the freedom she gave me is a moderate amount of freedom, which can make me learn to cherish it. In this regard, there is really no one who can give me this feeling before. I feel that I have become more and more fond of her, but I don't want to stay at the level of "liking", I hope it is "love"!

To borrow Ying's words, I wish she was my regular girlfriend!

Although I am a Sagittarius and can't tell the line between liking and love, I think that as long as you are willing to give up things that you can't give up for someone, and make a lot of changes for it, to some extent, it is already love.

There is still a long way to go, even if I love her and have to pay a lot of hard work, I am willing to continue to love her. I don't want an accident, and even if there is, it has to be a beautiful accident.

Who is she? Huhu, don't think about it, she's not a character, it's the company I work for now.

In her heart, I am tired and loved!

"No Nonsense" - 2014.11.9

Lately, I've been thinking about this dialogue:

"Pretty girl, your dish. ”

"It's your dish. She smiled back, leaving a word.

However, I can't imagine what kind of picture this dialogue should go with.

Recently, recently, recently, very close, very close, very close, anyway, it's so close these days, I'm a little bit abnormal. That doesn't seem right. I'm a little out of the right place. Well, that's normal!

Back to the topic of "like", what kind of liking is what I like? I don't like that I'm always silently liking, I especially want to be known by people I like to like him. However, I've always been doing things that I don't really like. Then, I deceived myself that those who have fate will always be together. If you don't have fate, no matter how close you are, you will never be able to touch it.

Slowly, I began to look inside myself again. What is my like? Go back to my memory and search, and get an answer: I like two people to slowly get closer together, and naturally, without any sense of disobedience, the two are happy.

This answer is a bit of a beautiful feeling. I just like it, though.

One heart approaches, the other dodges, and then, the heart that is close keeps chasing the heart that is evading. Or, after the heart that is close to it turns away, the heart that is avoiding it moves closer to the past without any explanation. In the end, whether these two hearts are together or not, I feel that there is a little less natural attraction between these two hearts. So, I don't yearn for such a relationship.

It's good anyway, at least it's better than not having a relationship for a long time. But then again, it's better to have less than to overuse.

Now I don't seem to go to the dining hall for dinner, but for what? You know.

In winter, at noon, I have two palates.

First, lunchtime. In order to eat meat, it must be accompanied by chili peppers. Why are the talents from other provinces always so strong in numbers? There are too many people who eat chili peppers. There are very few kinds of meat that don't have chili peppers, and even if I pick them off, the spiciness has already seeped into the meat. At the end of a meal, it is full of spicy feeling! At this time, when you take a sip of the soup, you feel that the soup is even hotter! This is the spicy and hot taste.

The second is the time to go to work after a nap. After a 10-minute nap and getting up, I usually chew on Yida and ride the "Flash" to work. After arriving at the workshop, you will generally drink some cold water. Originally, the cold water was not very cold, but Yida's mint flavor made my mouth so cool. So, drinking cold water feels like drinking ice water!

Whew, I sat by the window for a long time after dinner, and found that not every time I sat by the window, I could see a good view. Sometimes, while I was enjoying the delicious eggs, some of the older brothers who washed their hands after work would make some very appetizing sounds - spitting, snorting very hard. For these situations, I can only exercise my ability not to see and not to hear.

The most exciting part of a winter night is taking a cold shower!

There is no hot water and I don't plan to get hot water. Therefore, the wolf howl is always tragic at some point in the evening. It's good to get used to it, and I usually start with my feet when taking a cold shower. Because the cold is born from the feet, when the feet adapt to the cold of the water, the body temperature of the whole body will instantly adjust and take defensive measures. In that case, it feels better than the sudden cold from top to bottom. After all, the human body is amazing.

There are too many thoughts that can't be sorted out, and the direction is a little chaotic, but it doesn't matter, it proves that I am about to usher in the next growth point. Before dawn, it's a little dark!

Whew, in the end, the "ribs" on my body are the reason why I want to gain weight.

Nonsense is not nonsense, my nonsense, no lungs.