When you come to this world, you will eventually experience it, and there is nowhere to hide......

I vaguely remember that when I was a child, when I worshipped God, my most wishing for God's blessing was to bless my uncle and aunt with good health......

I also remember that when I was a child, when I saw some TV episodes in which the protagonist's parents died, I would think of what I would do if my uncle and aunt were old and were leaving......

When I was a child, I was so afraid that my aunt and uncle would leave my world, and I was so reluctant......

However, since 2013, when my uncle entered a major hospital for major surgery, what I was afraid of seemed to have happened in advance, and the countdown accelerated. Term, three years.

From 2013 to 2016, every time my uncle had a cold, our whole family would be worried because my uncle's immunity had become very poor after several major surgeries. If you don't pay attention to the treatment, a minor illness is likely to deteriorate into a major illness.

The more scared you are, the easier it is to come true. God, I just like this routine.

It was the morning of March 14, 2017, and I was on a bus to Gozhou.

Looking out the window at the gray sky, my gray heartbeat is rendered, depicting my gray mood......

It seemed like it was very soon, it seemed like it was a long time, I arrived at Gaozhou Station, and then took a tricycle to Gaozhou Hospital.

Well, the closer I got to Gaozhou Hospital, the more noisy many people were talking, and the more hesitant my heart became.

After getting out of the car, I saw a lively scene. However, this excitement is not festive excitement. More often than not, the face is full of worry and sadness. Many family members of patients are busy cooking, and the people who open the shop are constantly recruiting customers at the door, which can be said to be like a cloud of customers. If you look at it, almost every restaurant is about to fill up.

Walk to the gate of the hospital and look up, for the first time. Well, it's the first time I've seen such a tall hospital entrance, and it's really one of the top 10 hospitals in the country. Come to think of it, my university really can't compare to it. Or may it give me the illusion that I'm going to a university or a hospital?

I came out to pick me up from the three sisters, she came to Gaozhou from Dongguan a day or two ago to take care of my uncle, and my aunt had a bad headache because of a cold accidentally, and the doctor had no effect, so she took the car home to see the doctor in the town first. Sometimes, the doctors in the big hospitals are not as good as the doctors in the small towns. Perhaps, it's because there are too many viruses in big hospitals.

The three sisters first took me to familiarize myself with the environment outside the hospital, took me to eat by the way, and pointed out where to buy the white porridge that my uncle ate.

The restaurant outside the hospital is messy and dirty. I'm not a very picky person when it comes to eating. However, eating at those restaurants, I was unnaturally picky. Because, it's really unhygienic. Whether it is disposable chopsticks that have been recycled and reused four or five times (the mark on the end of disposable chopsticks represents the number of times they have been recycled, and one notch represents once. Or the black oil stains on the ground and a lot of Xiaoqiang running back and forth......

However, the three sisters, who have always been very picky in my heart, eat naturally. Moreover, he calmly said to me, "Let's make do with it." ”

This special calmness makes me think, well, yes, what is this? As long as Uncle can be healthy, what is this?

After eating and packing the porridge for my uncle, we went to the hospital.

Well, the hospital is like another world.

When I arrived at the ward where Uncle was located, I saw Uncle sleeping on the hospital bed again, and I felt uncomfortable in my heart. However, he still shouted with a smile: "Uncle, I'm here." ”

Uncle would still look at me with a smile, just like when he was healthy.

The ward is not big, but it is bigger than my "heart world", with two beds. One is lying down, and the other is a patient who comes to the hospital to lie down when he gets an injection. There are also separate toilets and hallways. Well, that's it.

After the three sisters fed Uncle and drank the porridge, they took me to make medicine. Tell me where I can buy the powder and where I can make it.

In the vicinity of this large hospital, there are several shops that specialize in providing clay pots for those who need to make soup or medicine, and cook them for a few dollars at a time. It turns out that there is still this kind of business, and I have gained knowledge.

While cooking the medicine, the three sisters told me all the details to pay attention to, how much water to put in, which medicine to put first, which medicine to put later, how long to boil, and so on.

I take it very seriously, just like I have to write down what I want to write down before an exam.

It was early afternoon, and our two siblings talked a lot about Uncle. Still, we'll take a few photos by the river outside the hospital.

It's not that we don't have the leisure to take pictures or anything, we are all people who like to hide our heartache with happiness, and we all hope that Uncle is as healthy as before he got sick, just like we are still taking pictures with our hearts......

Hope, hope, hope, but hope, can it be heard?

That night, the three sisters were going to take a car to Dongguan to work, and they handed over the task of taking care of my uncle to me.

Well, we father and son are alone in the same room. Chat with Uncle and watch TV. Whatever Uncle needs, I'll get it.

That day was the first time in my life that I took a shower in the hospital and slept in the hospital for the first time.

I slept on a rented backrest bench, sore and dazed. I really hope that when I open my eyes, I find that it was a dream. My uncle came back from grocery shopping and woke me up with a smile on the bedside, just like those days when I was a child......

But what woke me up was the sound of the nurse opening the door and the glare of the lights in the room. Unconsciously, my eyes were wet in disappointment.

After washing, I bought white porridge for my uncle. Also, I talked to my aunt on the phone. The aunt said that if the uncle recovers well and can go home to recuperate, he will be discharged from the hospital.

I feel that the hospital is not the place where Uncle should stay, and it is better for Uncle to go home.

I went back to the ward and discussed these things with my uncle while feeding him breakfast. Uncle looked at the bag of fluid in the lungs hanging next to the bed, and felt that he should be able to go home.

So, the next thing is for me to ask my uncle's attending doctor to find out about my uncle's physical condition and go through the discharge procedures.

The doctor told me that Uncle had a lot of problems in his body that needed attention, and he couldn't guarantee how long he could live. It was also the first time in my life that I was alone under the psychological pressure of a doctor: I didn't know how long he would live......

I think I've grown up and become an adult. As Uncle's only son, I can make decisions.

I still asked the doctor to issue a certificate of my uncle's discharge from the hospital, and signed my name vigorously.

The doctor also prescribed some medicine for me to take back to my uncle when he needed it. Well, as long as you can be discharged from the hospital and go home.

I don't like hospitals, and I don't think being in a hospital is necessarily better than being at home. I want to take my uncle home, home is the warmest home.

After that, I took the discharge certificate and went to the toll office to pay the money. Because of the reimbursement for rural cooperative medical care, the money I paid was not unexpected.

Then, wait for the name to get the medicine. Queuing is a frustrating phenomenon, but it is inevitable.

After taking the medicine, I have to go to get a picture of Uncle to do a chest X-ray.

Running back and forth between the two buildings, but as long as Uncle can be discharged from the hospital and go home, he feels comfortable no matter how tired he is.

After returning to the ward, the doctor had already removed all the tubes on Uncle's body. I started packing my bags and getting everything ready.

On the other hand, my sister called and asked a driver to pick us up at the side entrance of the hospital.

Before leaving the ward, Uncle said that he would find the cleaning aunt who rented a chair for us, and he would give the money for renting the chair, so he couldn't just leave.

So, we waited until two o'clock in the afternoon, and after the cleaning aunt came, I paid the bill.

Before leaving, Uncle said happily to the cleaning aunt: "Auntie, I'm leaving, thank you for taking care of me during this time." ”

Aunt Cleaning also replied with a smile: "Okay, okay, I wish you a speedy recovery and peace and security." Don't come back again. Bye-bye!"

Uncle still happily replied: "Okay, thank you, thank you!"

At that moment, when I saw my uncle who was smiling so happily and thought that he was really healthy, my heart was extremely sad......

yes, don't come back.

Indeed, whether healthy or not, never go there again......

We slowly walked through the building to the intersection of the side entrance of the hospital, and after waiting for several minutes, a white off-road car came.

The driver was a middle-aged man with a little tactful speech.

Uncle sat in the passenger seat, and the driver helped him fasten his seat belt. I get prone to motion sickness, so I put on headphones and listen to songs.

Along the way, the driver chatted with my uncle, and I was only responsible for quiet. In the quiet time, I deeply imprinted the back of my uncle sitting in the passenger seat......

The car, driving a little fast. But, I don't care.

Because, Uncle can go home.

Gaozhou is actually quite far from my home, but it feels like we are back home very quickly.

I paid the fare, left a card, and the car left.

After returning home, Uncle only had one feeling, tired.

So, I helped Uncle up to the second floor and went back to his room to sleep. Then, go downstairs and talk to my aunt about my uncle.

Actually, Auntie knows it in her own heart. But how about that? You can only see one step and take one step. One step is one step......

The next day, my aunt bought chicken and asked me to learn how to chop chicken.

In the past, when Uncle was healthy, Uncle Chopped Chicken. However, Uncle is not healthy. Auntie wants me to learn to chop, after all, in the future, I will also be the head of the family.

So, for the first time in my life, I put on an apron and cut chicken.

Uncle sat on the side and taught me which part of the chicken to chop first, and then which part to chop, is this a kind of inheritance? While chopping, I asked Uncle to help me take a few photos as a souvenir.

The chicken after chopping is not pretentious at all, but it is expensive because it is my first time.

In the process of cooking the chicken, my aunt and I discussed why we had to kill or chop the chicken ourselves.

Auntie said that it has always been like this.

I wondered, "Shall we go buy the chicken that has already been chopped?"

Auntie always thinks it's not very good.

I expressed one of my opinions: "I read a Buddhist book before, which says that it is better for us not to kill living animals with our own hands, such as chickens, ducks, pigs, etc. In particular, it is very sinful to kill it with your own hands and then eat it again. If you really want to eat meat, buy meat that has already been killed, and don't kill it yourself. ”

After listening to it, Auntie felt very reasonable. said that in the future, try not to kill chickens by yourself, and buy good chickens.

I'm very happy that my aunt can agree with me. However, there are many things that are not as simple as I think......

Because the world is complicated, and so is the human heart......

After taking care of my uncle at home for a few days, it was time for me to take the bus to Shenzhen to work......

Before parting, Uncle still asked me if I had any money......

I...... I...... It's true......

In fact, as long as my uncle is healthy, I am already very rich......

Auntie told me to go to work with confidence, as long as Uncle can walk, she can take care of Uncle A, and will take good care of Uncle A.

Yes, with the woman who loves Uncle the most in the world guarding Uncle, Uncle will definitely be fine.

So, I set off for Shenzhen with hesitation......

No one knows how much of the countdown is left, but I just hope that the day will come slowly, or even forget to come......