There is no meaning in life, only the meaning added by yourself. However, the character must grasp a certain meaning, even if it is a game in this life.

Not knowing why you are alive is an honest state.

All the things that fight for something all their lives, who must be how they are, are all false nonsense. I can do that, but these things are no more advanced than the thing.

Why, why eat, why live and not die?

Is it really just that there happens to be a toilet, there happens to be food, and it happens to be alive?

I only need one step to jump from the upper floor. Or with a kitchen knife, you can gently cut your wrist.

Why not?

Because I have a family, a wife, and an unfinished business...... Is it?

But where are these things? None of them are out there, at least I can't prove that there is actually a family wife or something. Everything is in my head, and all I can deal with is the virtual data in my head.

So, the so-called family wives and the like are just their own imagination.

In circles!

Answer me, why not die?

There must be something that the character is worth remembering, and there must be something that is tightly grasped by the character, so he is unwilling to die.

If that awareness is everything, the character's survival doesn't matter at all. I don't believe that awareness is only through the character of Yuan Changwen to perceive the whole world, even so, anyway, I am that awareness, and after the character of Yuan Changwen dies, I will change it.

Like Mario's Death and Save.

I don't believe like "I only have one life" or "this is my only life".

If you don't know, you have to have an attitude of not knowing.

Even if the Grim Reaper is waiting for me to go home, even if I wish I could go home with the Grim Reaper cutie, the character still won't take the initiative to commit suicide. Then, there must be something reluctant, there must be something to cling to.

Is the slash not over yet? Am I not done yet?

That's why you don't want to commit suicide because of this?

No, the killing thing is not as important as I thought, and my words and actions also show that the killing thing doesn't seem to be as important as anything else.

I'll fantasize about the scene, I'll do other things, and if slashing really matters, I'll completely discard everything else. But in fact, I still cling to a lot of these self-definitions. I can't see it because I'm not honest enough, not because there's no way out or something.

Yuan Changwen tensed his body, and a wave of sadness hit, even in the depths of the lake, he could feel this wave of sadness. It seems that the pull of emotions ignores space and time, and always follows oneself closely.

Closer than skin, closer than heartbeat, at least I can change my skin and heart, but I can never actively control my emotions. Not to mention, what is easy to change emotions and so on.

However, the slash itself is not important. What's so important about everything about the character? I'm just aware of it, and even if I'm thinking about it now, it's the character, so it doesn't matter at all.

The character can succeed in slashing, or always fail, and it can't affect that awareness at all.

The paradox is that I know that, but I can't do it when it comes to other things. For example, money, career, family, etc., it doesn't matter if you can't do anything at all. On the contrary, it doesn't matter if you kill it.

Isn't this a character's means of survival?

Further!

If I'm really struggling with this, it's just to stop moving forward.

Yes, I am the awareness, the awareness that is always supreme. But now, the character is on a suicide mission, and this thinking is also a weapon for the character's suicide. Well, at this moment, the character decides to continue slashing.

Is there anything wrong with this?

Depend on!

There is no difference between killing and the pursuit of money. Both are the actions of the characters, both are the thoughts of the characters, and both are the decisions made by the characters.

None of the characters' actions can affect that awareness. In other words, no matter how the character chooses, it is a level of awareness for that awareness.

False.

Killing self-definition, this thing is not more advanced than the pursuit of money, nor is it more advanced than, all of them are one level at a time. It's just that the characters themselves divide everything into hierarchies, separate importances, and cause a series of distortions.

I've always been subtle, as if I'm better than others, and it's a proud thing that I've come to this point.

Shit!

If you can kill it, it's awesome? If you can touch the truth, it's awesome? If you know the so-called distortion and understand the only truth, you can run rampant?

It's all all false as well, so what else is there to tell the difference?

I'm not done yet, so any act is fake. Even if I did, any act would be false. Because the character can never reach the "real", even if the "real" is manipulating the character, it can only show falsehood.

If the character exists, it must be false.

Why don't you die? 'Cause I still have a kill yet, I'm not done yet.

This is the same as the pursuit of money, the pursuit of career, the pursuit of success, the pursuit of joy in life, the pursuit of happiness in life, and the pursuit of chic...... And so on and so forth, all of which are all the same false.

Some people don't die because of their families, some people don't die because of money, some people don't die because they don't die because they don't die, and I don't die because I haven't finished it yet.

The reason why I don't admit this is because I've always held slashing high, thinking that slashing is more advanced than anything else. So, of course, I don't think it's the killing itself that is stopping me.

Unlike other pursuits, slashing is for the purpose of reducing the character, while others are for the purpose of enriching the character. Judging from that awareness, in this well-planned dream, the killing was undoubtedly an extremely stupid act. Even if the killing can reach the "real", what is the point?

Besides, the killing is nothing but a false act, so what is there to show off?

Look down on others, look down on those who don't know "I exist". Watching them trapped in the characters and not knowing it, seems to feel sorry for them.

Sorry fart!

What right do I have to feel sorry for others? Do other people exist? I'm just talking to the virtual data in my head, what's there to regret?

Even if someone else is real, even if someone else is trapped in fear and can't extricate themselves, so what?

Who says you have to kill? Who says you have to smash template characters? Who says you have to be a custom character? You have to go "real"?

I killed so many chapters just to cut off the distortion in my head. Unexpectedly, I quietly set more distortions again.

It's really hard to prevent!

Yuan Changwen found that this is the same purpose as the fantasy scene, that is, to enrich the character, to make the character a different existence. Whether it's winning in a fantasy scenario or a superior kill now, it's such a goal.

I'm garbage.