Maybe it was because I wanted to shine so much that Heaven fulfilled my hopes and brought me to the dark trough. The greater the hope in the heart, the deeper and darker the trough, for the darker it is, the more visible the light emitted, albeit faintly......

On the evening of April 5, 2017, my aunt made a phone call from her hometown to talk to me......

About love, about the vision of the future, about the helplessness of fate, about everything that is afraid of being too late......

The countdown seems to be getting closer and closer, and as a child, what I was most worried about at that time was Uncle's physical health and his state of mind......

Actually, I'm so scared......

I'm so afraid to hear my aunt say that my uncle is scared, and I'm afraid that my aunt will say that my uncle is sad and sad. I said that as long as Uncle is not afraid, I am not afraid. But if Uncle is scared, I will feel so distressed......

Before that phone call, I asked my aunt to ask my uncle if there was anything else that had not been fulfilled......

So, Auntie is ready to give me an answer.

Auntie choked up a little and said, "I asked your uncle what other wishes he wants to fulfill, and your uncle said that I really hope that Jinlong can have three sons and two girls, and that is enough."

Then, he said, if only God could give me another ten years to live, or just three more years, but ......

I said to him in tears, yes, you can live for more than ten or twenty years!

He also tearfully said that he was going on a trip......

I grabbed his hand and said, if you're going to travel, take me with you! I'm going to follow you for the rest of my life, and I'm going to go wherever you go!

He shook his head and said, "No, you can't go yet." You will have to help Jinlong take care of the children in the future, at least take them out of junior high school.

I ......"

As she spoke, Auntie's mood became even lower, and I was already a tearful person......

Uncle's wish is just the wish that many parents wish to have, but I can't do it......

I have forgotten how to end the call, that night, so dark......

On the evening of April 7, 2017, the three sisters asked me on the buckle: "Have you thought of how to hold a wedding?"

I replied blankly, "I don't know." ”

She suggested: "Or, you and Xiaoshi can try to travel to get married, it's very popular now." ”

I was a little surprised: "Travel to get married?"

She replied: "Yes, you can not only see the scenery, but also take beautiful wedding photos." ”

I was a little excited: "It feels good." ”

After that, I also talked to Xiaoshi about traveling and getting married.

She feels good, and she's still looking forward to it!

However, life doesn't always go as it should......

She also has a lot of troubles, from family, career, love, and the future......

Her cousin had the idea of opening a bakery, but her cousin didn't know much about the operation of a bakery, while Xiaoshi was more experienced in this industry. Therefore, her cousin discussed that if the store was opened, Xiao Shi would be in charge of the operation details of the bakery.

However, Xiaoshi will marry me soon. If you marry me, you will naturally live on my side. If we open a store, then we will gather less and leave more.

At the same time, she was not confident enough in her graphic design, she was confused, she didn't know if it was suitable for her, and she was afraid that she would not be able to find a job after completing her studies.

On the other hand, her previous manager often asked her to go back to be a store manager on WeChat, because she opened a new store, there were not enough people, and ordinary employees were not capable of being store managers. Therefore, I asked Xiaoshi to go back to be the store manager, the salary can be increased, and the benefits can be increased.

Also, she can't help her uncle and aunt in her hometown. I was depressed, and she blamed herself for not being able to be there for me.

When it all came together, she was very lost.

Actually, if she hadn't chosen to be with me in the first place, or if she had already lived out the strong woman she liked in her career. Because of me, she gave up what she was best at......

So, how much should I love her to make up for her abandonment?

I've thought about giving her a very romantic wedding, putting a ring full of meaning, and taking her on a trip to play......

However, the pain of reality overwhelmed all this......

At noon on April 10, 2017, my aunt called me and told me that my uncle needed to go to a big hospital to have his lungs drained......

At the time, no news was good news. When there is news, it is mostly bad news......

I immediately went into the workshop to write a leave note and ask the cold noodle boss to ask for leave, and when he saw me asking for leave, his first reaction was to refuse to approve it.

However, this leave must be requested.

moved with affection and reason, he still approved it.

In the face of the supervisor, in the same way, move with emotion and know with reason. He also approved it clearly.

Therefore, I became the only person in the workshop who took the most leave and had to approve it. What I didn't expect was that this was the last time I took time off work at DSX......

Because Uncle's physical condition is becoming less and less optimistic, my marriage date with Xiaoshi can only change.

I hope that Uncle will be healthy, but Uncle A's body is getting worse day by day;I hope to give Xiaoshi a romantic wedding, but various factors are constantly changing and I lose the initial touch;I hope to improve myself in DSX......

The light I hoped for was raging into the darkness I feared......

I fell deeper and deeper, deeper and darker......

Gradually, I couldn't see myself anymore and even forgot that I was meant to shine......