The paradox is that every time I think someone else is unreal, I subconsciously think that I am real.

But in fact, the role of Yuan Changwen, like other characters, is fake. Moreover, the thinking of the character of Yuan Changwen is tapping the fingers of the text, which is also a set program.

If you remove the time, then you don't know the so-called picture at all. Hold on to past memories and then maintain the integrity of your character. Without time, it becomes ridiculous to act on memory.

Because I remember the kindness of my mother to me, and I remember the vow between me and my mother, according to the content of this memory, I must do something to continue to maintain the emotional connection of this memory. Or I choose to interrupt the emotion because there are many unhappy things in my memory.

On the other hand, I was afraid that I would not find a better girl, or that the next girl would treat me like I did to my lady, and would abandon me easily. So, preach a responsibility, preach a baseless distortion to force out of this fear.

Unfortunately, this method can't get rid of the fear at all, and the only thing you can do is divert your attention from the fear. Once someone touches this red line and breaks this artificial distortion, they will face illogical accusations and abuse.

What are you human or not, what can you do like this, what do you have a conscience......

The character of Yuan Changwen is not real, and I am just simulating the thinking of "that awareness", so I am not real either. Others are equally unreal, so what is there to communicate between two NPCs with fixed programs?

All the dialogues are set up, all the languages are like line scripts, what is there to chat about?

Any judgment I make about others belongs to the category of "I think", is there any point in interacting with the virtual data in my own head? Whether I imagine someone or something, or see someone or something, I still interact with the virtual data in my head.

There is never a way to get in touch with someone else's truth, because the character itself is fake. Even if I touch the truth, the character of Yuan Changwen is still fake, and it can only be said that this thinking simulation "that awareness" is simulated quite perfectly, but it is still false.

Just like cinematic lighting simulates a movie screen, no matter how realistic the simulation is, it can't change its essence as just cinematic light, not that movie screen.

And, even if there is a real person, how can I communicate with that real person? Even if it is face-to-face, the interaction is still the virtual data in my head. The meaning of the phrase "I think" the other party, the meaning of the other party's action, and the insinuation of the other party "I think".

So, how do I know that the virtual data in my brain is the real appearance of others? Even if the virtual data in my brain perfectly reproduces the appearance of others, it is still interacting with the virtual data in my head!

Am I an idiot? I don't understand such a simple thing, what have I been living for so many years? Am I really alive? Has my life begun?

Yuan Changwen was very uncomfortable, but he was not painful and did not feel the anger and heat in his heart, but a deep emptiness. It was as if I was falling into a lake, and let the dark unknown gradually swallow me.

Nothing is scary about the unknown, anything is more lovely than a twist in the mind. Even if it's a devil, even if it's a youkai, it's more cute than the twist in your head.

I feel like someone on the edge of a cliff preparing to jump, so many chapters have passed, and I haven't jumped. The first is to stand on the edge of the cliff, constantly reasoning about what will happen in the process of falling off the cliff, and constantly thinking about what will happen after the fall. Then before I knew it, a group of people gathered around me, and then listened to my fall reasoning meeting.

Later, I found out that I didn't move forward at all, and I was still in a safe place discussing how to fall off the cliff and 36 tricks and other bullshit stuff. Now, I finally stood honestly on the edge of the cliff, but I still didn't dare to jump off.

Keep writing to see the distortion in your head, keep making yourself understand the existence of falsehood, keep letting yourself increase your hatred of the distortion in your head, in order to resist the unknown of jumping off a cliff.

Shake your hands and sway your body back and forth. One moment I want to jump, the other I want to swing my hands vigorously to the edge of the cliff with the fear of the unknown. Just shake it like that, there will always be a moment when you will shake it down, there will always be a time when you will never be able to pull back your center of gravity.

This is the first step.

Who knows if I'll be able to take that first step? As I thought before, it doesn't matter if I can take this first step, and who cares if a fake character can break free from the script?

The character cares, but the character itself is fake, so what's the importance of that concern? And, even if it touches the truth, the character of Yuan Changwen is still false, the words he says are still lines, and the words he writes are still limitations and lies.

Those so-called true words are not of much help to those who are on the path of killing. For example, "Tao begets one, one begets two, two begets three, three begets all things", "non-two", "that awareness is everything", "truth is endless", "thou shalt beget other", ......

And those tirades that seem helpful are all false in nature. For example, "time exists at the same time", "those distortions in the mind control themselves", "why should we be moral", etc., etc., are just used to solve the current problem, and after using it, it must be discarded.

It's like a sign, if you use it, you lose it. If you keep holding on to the signs, you will either stay put, or you will not be able to move forward at the next intersection. Because there is no such thing as going wrong, go ahead or not. Therefore, holding on to the previous signage and not letting go will inevitably lead to the inability to move forward.

It's ridiculous, once the time is removed, all the discussion comes to an abrupt end. However, simply removing time does not reduce the existence of the problem, nor does reading the text left by the person who touches the real person. You have to come and go to the side yourself, otherwise it's useless at all.

Because the distortion in my head is so powerful, and it is a carefully planned dream, how can it be so easily seen?

If you don't know, why do you have to discuss any knowledge with NPCs?

Why do you want to sit with an NPC called a friend and don't know what to do?

Why put that NPC called Parents in a different position?

What is the point of this interaction with NPCs, and what is the purpose of this kind of dialogue based on fixed programs?

Yuan Changwen found that he didn't seem to have a reason to go home at all.

It's okay to die like this.