For me, the hardest part of my cultivation is to be myself. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

The world will still turn without me. But my world will stop turning without me.

The world is so big that I often can't find myself. The world is small, and I often can't find the world. Finding it, it's just a dream.

To be yourself, you have to endure a lot of different pressures. There are rules that have existed in the world for a long time, and if you break them, you will inevitably be attacked a lot.

The pace of work remains the same, only my mood has changed. I'm still listless.

There are many skills that need to be learned and practiced on the job. It includes memorizing product knowledge, understanding the pathology of some common diseases, analyzing customer information, practicing speeches, etc.

There are so many skills, but I can't learn any of them.

In the West Park store, I was the least capable one. Speech, guts, and execution are not good. I'm starting to weaken myself.

Sister Zhen talked to me a lot, but I still couldn't change my mentality. I can't let go.

Time began to pass quickly, compressing my memories into a small memory.

In that short compressed memory, there are many of my mental journeys, however, I have forgotten a lot......

Sister Jane asked me to go with a customer. That's when I had my first feeling of excitement. Because, I can finally have my own customers to follow, and I used to be familiar with the customers who come to the store and some regular customers who buy products regularly.

At that time, I called and asked the customer if I could go to his house to take his blood pressure. He agreed! It was an opportunity.

In fact, taking my blood pressure is just a reason for me to go to the customer's house, and the real purpose is to get to know the customer better so that I can sell it later. These are all taught by Sister Zhen and Brother Yong, and they are a kind of sales skills.

I told Yong the news and hoped that he would let me go.

However, he said that the customer's home was far away from our store, and it was far away to ride an electric car, so he had to take a ride. He asked Sister Zhen again, and as a result, Sister Zhen asked Brother Yong to go with me.

My enthusiasm faded all at once. I just want to go alone, after all, that's the customer I'm talking to. It doesn't matter if I succeed or not, as long as it's me. However, Brother Yong's help made me unmotivated.

After that, Brother Yong took me to take a ride, find my way, and finally arrived at the customer's house.

The customer lived on the top floor of a six-story building, and had a very fierce dog watching the door. I also saw the slogan "Don't get close to the living!" written on the aisle of the stairs. Feeling, there is a weird horror!

After entering the customer's house, Brother Yong quickly chatted with the customer. He's just so good at communicating. And I, just smiling, quietly listened to their conversation.

From their conversations, it became clear that the customer was the landlord of the building and had a lot of financial resources. The point is that the customer eats a variety of health supplements. Some health products may be fake, such as black propolis.

And we want to return customers to buy our golden pure propolis. It's not that easy to get customers to buy our products, because in the eyes of customers, we are no different from other people who sell health supplements, it's all about money.

Therefore, we want customers to buy our character. Only by believing in our character will we believe in our products. That's what I think. Therefore, I plan to slowly develop a relationship with the customer so that we can get to know each other.

However, Brother Yong did not communicate as I imagined. Brother Yong is a professional, he talks about the advantages of our products from many aspects, and analyzes how our products may bring benefits to customers.

It's nice and professional. In my words, I really can't speak properly. However, this is really too rushed.

The reason I came to the door was just to help the customer take his blood pressure. However, Brother Yong has quickly come to the sales of our products. It's easy to give the bad impression that you're just here to sell!

Seeing Brother Yong chatting endlessly, my heart was completely out of confidence. Even the customers I followed myself couldn't follow up on my own, which was really another blow to my weakness.

Later, when we were about to leave, the customer's wife returned. I found out that the customer's wife had come to our store a few times. Another opportunity!

The couple wanted us to stay for a meal before leaving, and I would love to stay and eat. It's not because you're hungry, but it's easy to get closer to each other when eating and chatting. However, Brother Yong said that we should go back to the dining hall to eat.

When I left the customer's house, I felt a lot of discomfort in my heart. I don't understand sales, and sales aren't for me.

After that home visit, I never had a special desire to sell again, not at all.

In addition to my customers, I sometimes visit their customers at home with Xiaomei, Pauline, and Jane. However, I didn't know how to talk next to them, I just smiled. This kind of me is not conducive to sales.

Although I don't have the heart to sell, I can still get in touch with a lot of new things. For example, mountain biking, visiting the villas of rich people, learning to use some tips to improve their lives, etc. These will have an impact on me in the future, because I will have it too.

On the 10th anniversary of the establishment of RY, Guangdong comedian Huang Junying was invited to perform. I'm still quite happy, when I was a child, I just saw him on TV, and I was very excited to see a real person! I feel that when I entered the ry, I really came into contact with a new world. Am I really going to stay with it and continue into the future, though?

I started to get tangled, and I felt less and less happy.

Although there is a lot of fun living with Sister Jane and them, that fun can't be my faith and let me keep going. That's not what I want.

Practising speeches, I run away, I am weak. Practising sales jargon, I'm scared, I'm restless. I practiced and practiced, but I couldn't see myself clearly. All the energy in my body, no motivation can give me.

I always suspected that I wasn't suitable for sales, and I couldn't sleep well every night since I started sales. As soon as the alarm clock rings in the morning, my heart will be hesitant, and my mood will be painful. I feel that people are so haggard......

I remembered some of the things that Mr. Zhong had said to me.

He said that some people are very good at sales, and they can make hundreds of thousands of orders at once, but they are not necessarily suitable for management. It's like, some soldiers are good at fighting, but once they become generals, they can't do it. This shows that everyone has their own position, and finding that position is the most important thing.

Think about it, what about my location? Is it really sales?

I also tried to tell my aunt on the phone, and my aunt still thought that it would be better for me to decide my choice, but if I didn't sell health supplements, she still agreed.

I still don't know, I still go to work with confusion.

During work, I found that Xiaomei was also weird. It turned out that she was going to resign. Because, she also felt that it was not suitable. She also talked to me a lot, and after listening to her say so much, my resignation began to begin.

When I was practicing dispatching, I didn't practice well, so Sister Zhen came to talk about me. She knew the situation of my family at that time, and she said, "If you don't work hard, how can you carry your family? You must know that you are already an adult! Your father is recuperating again, and your mother is old again, and your family is now dependent on you as a man!"

What she said does make sense. However, I don't want to sell for money. But I couldn't speak, so the tears fell.

Sister Jane also asked me why I was crying. I couldn't help but say, "I don't know if I'm suitable for sales." ”

At this time, Sister Zhen said something that I had always disagreed with her: "If you don't do sales, what else can you do?!"

This sentence really pierced my heart at the time! I had no words. Because I had just come out of the workforce, I didn't have any skills, so I really didn't know what I could do other than sales. I was sad, but I was helpless......

During the working days, there are many meetings and frequent changes of location. Sometimes in meetings, I can meet them who come in with me.

Looking forward to it is Shanshan and Ying. Because, they are girls. The point is, the two of them are also the girls I silently like in my heart.

Really, once in a meeting, I rode so fast that when I arrived at the meeting place, my clothes were soaked with sweat.

However, when Shanshan saw me, she unexpectedly ran to me with a sunny smile on her face and hugged me, and said, "Arowana, I miss you so much!"

At that time, all eyes were on him. I'm really, really, unexpectedly, and more so sweet!

The first time a girl took the initiative to run over and hug me, and she didn't mind the sweat on my body. As I said, her smile really gives people a warm feeling. I love her smile so much!

I really wanted to hug her, but I was afraid that the sweat on my hands would stain her clothes, so I didn't hug her. Whew, what a waste!

When Ying saw it, she also came over and said, "I want to hug too." ”

So, I also happily hugged Ying.

That feeling brought me a lot of good happiness when I was lost at that time. The two of them are the two girls I liked more during my internship, but they can only like them. After all, our paths are not the same.

There are also occasional activities at work, such as singing competitions.

For the first time in the singing contest qualifiers, I sang my own song "The Lonely" on the podium.

They sang festive songs, and when it was my turn, I said I wanted to sing the songs I had written. They are more excited and looking forward to feeling happier. But I didn't know that I was singing sadly, and the audience was so quiet.

At that time, a voice spoke in the depths of my soul. "That's what I want," he said. ”

So, the idea of resignation has another thrust.

Soon, the Mid-Autumn Festival arrived. In order to prepare for the Mid-Autumn Festival party, Sister Zhen taught us to dance Luo Zhixiang's waist dance. It was the first time I learned to dance, and although I didn't learn it, it felt like it was there!

At the party, I didn't dance very well, but I had a good feeling. The voice appeared again in the depths of my soul: "This is the feeling I want." ”

The idea of resigning is getting bigger and bigger.

Once, when we went to a meeting in a distant area, because of the large number of people and the small size of the car, we were reduced to a small empty space behind the last seat of the car by myself.

At that time, the other people in the car were talking and laughing. And I, the lonely one, was in the end, almost no one paid attention. What a superfluous feeling......

After arriving, colleagues from the two districts rarely met and shouted and hugged warmly, but it was theirs, not mine. I'm still walking around by myself.

Suddenly, Sister Hua of the company bumped into me very hard, accompanied by a sentence: "Go away!"

I was shocked, and when I came back to my senses, I realized that she was going to take a picture of her colleague over there, and I happened to be standing at the most suitable spot to take pictures. So, she was very excited and bumped into me. I know, she didn't mean to, she was just carried away by the excitement. However, my heart was exhausted.

It turned out that I didn't fit into the big family. I, like the superfluous one. Growing up, as soon as I had a thought that I felt like I was superfluous, I would reject the group or place that caused me to have that thought.

I heard that Shanshan especially likes to chat with a male colleague named Xin, which makes me feel that Shanshan likes Xinshan very much.

I was looking for Shanshan, and I wanted to talk to her or something, but I saw her chatting happily with Xin. It seems that there is really an illusion of intimacy.

Ying, I've always felt that she likes Wei. Because, when we first joined the company, I saw that they had a good conversation. In the same way, there seems to be an illusion of intimacy.

The idea of resignation already smells of gunpowder and will explode soon!

Later, Xiaomei resigned and left the big family. I also sent her to the car and took care of herself.

Before that, I went to the customer's house and tried to communicate in my own way. However, he looked for various reasons to avoid me, such as not being home yet, in fact, being home all along.

It doesn't matter, I'll wait. I didn't eat lunch either, so I waited. Waiting and waiting, I went to the nearby Dafu Mountain Park for a walk and took a lot of scenic photos.

At that time, I was so emotional, how long had it been since I had taken a good look at the scenery. Why do you have to live so tired?

After that, it was time to wait. The customer also let me see him, and of course I had to get him to agree. Don't forget, that dog.

I started talking to him, too, but I couldn't talk to him as naturally as Brother Yong.

I really needed to see hope, and if I could get an order, maybe I would stay. Another reason why I quit my job was that I wouldn't be hired if I didn't get an offer during the three-month probationary period. So, as soon as I thought that the time was almost up, but I still hadn't made an order, I felt that there was no reason to stay.

In order to make an order, I even told the customer about my family situation at that time, hoping to win sympathy. It's not my favorite way to sell at all, but I'm in a hurry, in a mess, and in a hurry to make an order. That's why I don't like myself so much.

However, instead of being emotional, the customer began to tell me how good the products he was eating were and even advised me not to do the job, and that there were good jobs nearby that he could introduce me.

I was speechless, really speechless. Doing sales, reduced to this point, what else is there to say?

After leaving the customer's house, I felt extremely inferior.

I was in a bad mood until one morning at work, Brother Yong asked me to write a phone terminology. I just can't write it. I was so tired that I couldn't feel the vitality at all.

So, I wrote down the words of resignation on a note and showed it to Brother Yong. The moment the note was handed to Brother Yong, my tears suddenly couldn't help but run out and kiss my face, and I couldn't stop it.

Actually, I'm still very reluctant to resign. However, I really can't find the right mood, I can't find the right reason.

After reading it, Brother Yong said: "I asked you to write telephone terms, but you wrote these words to me." ”

I said I couldn't do it anymore.

Later, Sister Jane came back. Sister Jane agreed. Because for Xiaomei's resignation, she has thought that everyone has a suitable path for everyone, and she can't stop herself.

Okay, then I have to go to the company to resign from Manager Zhang, who interviewed me before.

When he heard me say that he resigned, his face was expressionless for a minute, and he said coldly: "Okay! You will be able to do it yourself in the future! Everything that happens to you after that has nothing to do with the company!"

I nodded, turned around and left. At that time, I seemed to see his face clearly, and his usual smile was all disguised. He wasn't as good as I thought he was, just like on the day of the interview, he misjudged me.

Luckily, I resigned.

After I resigned, I didn't leave immediately, and I still had a few days to finish.

For the rest of the few days, I had a good chat with the customers who were more likely to talk, and of course, I wouldn't let them know that I was quitting. All sorts of factors didn't allow me to let them know that I had resigned.

The most memorable thing for me is Doudou. Cute weird uncle, versatile weird uncle. I also asked Pauline to help me and Doudou make a film. As a memento, this is my first job.

Pauline also has a lot of things to say to me, and I also know that she is also confused in her heart, but she is just holding on. However, Xiaomei and I both resigned, leaving her with a new employee in the West Garden store, a little lonely. Sooner or later, though, she'll find her way.

The remaining days passed more naturally. I also wrote a song to commemorate our time in the past few months. It's short, but it's a really valuable experience – an experience of laughter and tears.

On the morning of the day I left the apartment, I wrote some heartfelt words and wishes to Sister Zhen, Brother Yong, and Baolian in small notes. While writing, I shed tears. Even if you don't give up, you have to leave.

Leaving the keys, I dragged my luggage and set out on the road to Shenzhen.

In the car, watching the scenery on the side of the road hurried by, and our fate also passed by. The music is quiet in the ears, and the heart, beats back to a new rhythm.

Bye-bye, my ry time.

The cultivation journey began to change directions. Although the direction is different, the growth will continue.

Another way, slowly approaching......

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