Chapter 773: The First Step 173
No one walks in this world, my hands are not my hands, my thoughts are not my thoughts.
Although I can keep my eyes on and seem to use these hands, it does not mean that they belong to me. I can be aware of this thinking constantly, but it doesn't mean that this thinking belongs to me.
If there is no awareness, just the role of Yuan Changwen and his thinking activities, then the role will be like a machine that keeps running unknowingly. All actions and thoughts are meaningless strokes, and the characters are unaware.
Because they don't have that awareness, the character won't know they're thinking about slashing, or they're looking at a tree.
And now, if I look at a tree, I can know that I'm looking at the tree, and even, I can know that I'm looking at the tree. ”
A lot of times, I don't pay attention to that awareness. Even though I know that awareness is the only reality, I still think of myself as what "that awareness" perceives.
In fact, that awareness is everywhere.
For example, I'm in a fantasy scene, and it's because of that awareness that I can connect the storylines of the fantasy scenes. Without that awareness, the character won't know what was thinking in the last second, or what they're thinking at the moment.
It's a subtle feeling, it seems like that's it, but it's not like that.
However, once the time is removed, any discussion pales in and is absurd.
However, to be able to create a sense of continuous time, and to hide the subtlety of that awareness, this orchestrated dream is no sleat.
Why do I always think that I am that thinking? Maybe it's because I can stand in that position of awareness, albeit only in a phantom position.
For example, if I'm looking at a tree, it's so easy that I know exactly I'm looking at the tree. This position is where the awareness used to stand, but when I stood there, the awareness had already run to the back position.
Will you never be able to catch up with that awareness?
No, after all the unreality is removed, there must be only that awareness left. And the thinking is not real, so it must not be this thinking that touches the truth when the time comes. Besides, I'm not that kind of thinking myself. It's just that I believe that I am the character, and that I am the thinking of the character.
Now those who type the keyboard and think about the problem are all characters.
And where is that awareness?
What's holding me back?
Yuan Changwen felt as if his body was about to collapse, but it was not the pressure brought by the lake, but an uncomfortable feeling from the inside out, like a demon's blade constantly cutting his body. I want to catch the demon and stop this discomfort, but I can't stop it from happening.
I just need to make sure that the thinking is not real, and it doesn't matter how that awareness becomes a false thought or how the memory is transmitted to the character.
The key is to keep moving.
This thinking belongs to the false, it belongs to the character, I just feel that the thinking is killing the false, the character is committing suicide. No matter how much you think, you can only simulate that awareness, is there a way to just throw away the thinking and make the "awareness" aware of the "awareness" itself?
The unreal does not exist, and when I lose all the unreal things, that awareness can only be perceived itself. So, what else is there that is false that I have not thrown away?
If it's not me, then who's thinking? Is the character thinking? Or is it an inexplicable thought that just happens to be in the same frame as the character?
Not only is this thinking programmed, and there is no free will at all, but now it is impossible to determine who this thinking belongs to. Really, what else? Is it still going to turn the sky upside down? Isn't it enough?
In other words, I just happened to be aware of the life of a character named Yuan Changwen, or did that awareness transform into a human named Yuan Changwen, so I played with myself for a lifetime?
Sure enough, I didn't know anything, it was all speculation.
Completely stuck!
Yuan Changwen sank alone in the lake, as if he found that he could not continue sinking, but he did not touch the bottom of the lake under him.
Are you in too much of a hurry?
Ha!
I'm just that awareness, and thinking belongs to the character, so how do I know when thinking can kill thinking? How do I know when thinking can kill the end? How do I know when the character is going to die?
Right, I don't know anything. If you don't know, why panic?
Like, if I don't finish the killing at this moment, it will be a bad phenomenon. Yes, I didn't finish it, but the full story should be that I didn't realize the character was done at this moment.
I don't know if the character will continue to kill or give up. Only then, when I become aware of the specifics, will I know what is really going on.
The character is in a hurry, and I just sense that the character is in a hurry at the moment. Then, I realized that the character figured out that he was in a hurry at the moment, so I persuaded myself not to be in a hurry.
In fact, even if the character can never be completed, so what?
I'm still that awareness, still the only truth. Regardless of whether the role is completed or not, whether the role is brilliant or not, it can't affect that awareness in the slightest. Nothing can affect that awareness in the slightest, not even God.
It's a weird feeling, it's clear that thinking is false, it's obviously thinking to kill the distortion in the brain, and now thinking is pretending to be "that awareness" and saying that there is no need to worry. And what doesn't need to be anxious is not the truth, not the awareness, but the false thinking.
In other words, no matter what time or time the character is in, that awareness will not disappear, nor will it be restrained. What can restrain that awareness? I think that I am the character of Yuan Changwen, so I can restrain that awareness?
Without that awareness, how do I know that I am a qualified role for Yuan Changwen? How can I know the activity of the mind?
It seems that something is in the way, but in fact, it is just a deliberate diversion of his gaze. I will always be that awareness, even when I think I am the character of Yuan Changwen, I am still that awareness.
The paradox is that the character always thinks that the character can touch the truth, as if killing the false is like completing the job, which is something that the character can do by thinking by words and deeds. Naturally, then, the character will be in a hurry when he is not finished, just as he is in a hurry when he is not done.
However, in reality, it is the character who must die to complete it.