Do you know what the taboo of writing is true?

One word: afraid.

I'm afraid that I can't write well, I'm afraid that I can't write the feeling I want, and I'm afraid that the imaginary monster in my head will eat me......

Because I was afraid, I didn't write it for a long time.

In other words, fear limits all your possibilities, and even the courage to start or continue is stifled.

This is a taboo that I often commit, so many times it is sad that the imagination is too rich and not used for the key points.

Fear is a chronic poison, don't let it go, don't get used to it, otherwise, you will become addicted, you will sink, and you will drown out the light that could have been emitted from you.

On June 6, 2017, Xiaoshi found a new job, which is a new job in her life, and it is related to the learning content of the training class she enrolled.

Before I became lovers with her, she was the manager of a cake shop. She told me at the time that she wanted to enroll in a training course to learn something new and live another life.

However, she was afraid.

She was afraid that she would not be able to learn, and she always felt that she had only studied in the first year of high school, and her education was so low, it was difficult for her to learn those knowledge. Moreover, as a store manager, she is already very busy, so she doesn't have much time to go to class and study.

Until, after we became lovers, I encouraged her to follow the direction of her heart and not care too much about external factors. I will always support her!

So, she quit that job and got a job as a waitress so that she could have time to go to class. She wanted to study accounting the most, but in the end she accidentally learned Taobao art.

In the months when she was studying Taobao art, she was often confused, had low self-esteem, and always felt that she couldn't learn. Because she has no computer foundation, she uses pinyin to type, and she can't remember the pinyin of many words, after all, she doesn't like Chinese just like I don't like math.

However, she still gritted her teeth and continued to learn, learning computer five-stroke typing, learning computer office software, and learning key software that art must understand.

It's not easy to think about. Because, I play the computer with pinyin typing, I don't know the computer Wubi, the thought of having to memorize so many complex roots, instantly had an idea - not something I can control.

And she got through all of this.

In the process of looking for a job, she was also quite confused, and she was nervous and scared.

However, Aries does have a drive that I admire.

After getting my resume done, as soon as I got on the job search network, I submitted more than a dozen resumes at once.

I was curious: "Honey, don't you take a serious look at those companies?"

She smiled and shook her head: "Don't look, when I see which company has notified me to go for an interview, I'll see." ”

I admire her husband so much that I stick to the ground......

As a result, several companies really notified her to go for an interview.

After various comparative analysis, I accompanied her to the corresponding company for an interview near and far.

The first company seems to be making navigators. What she had to do when she went to the interview was to use PS to design a poster to sell the navigator, because she was used to typing with five strokes, and the computer used for the interview did not have five strokes of typing, which affected her speed. Of course, the rustiness of the technique and the nervous state of mind are also important factors. As a result, I was not hired because it took too long.

She smiled when she told me that she hadn't been hired. However, I could feel a hint of loss hidden in her smile. After all, who likes to be rejected?

I smiled comforting and encouraging her that there would always be a company for her.

I don't know what the second company does, but it is rooted in a newly renovated office building, and looking at the outside world from the inside of the office building, I feel that the decoration is quite tall, and there is an illusion of becoming a "white-collar worker" in an instant.

She went for an interview, and I was reading a book outside the hallway to pass the boring time.

After an hour or two, the result of the interview is waiting for notification.

She smiled and described the situation here to me, and said that the personnel here are curious about who I am and who she is, whether I have a job, if there is no job, I can interview here, and I am recruiting manpower here.

Well, even reading in the corridor has fallen into the eyes of its company's personnel, and it is indeed a sharp-eyed master, so sharp that it is like "hunger does not choose food".

I thought that my dear would wait quietly for the notice, but I didn't expect her to be full of combat power, so she went to the third company for an interview without stopping.

The third company that I want to go to the interview is a little far away, I have to transfer to the bus, and after arriving at the destination, I feel, two words: remote.

The only eye-catching building in the area is a newly built hotel, and the road sign indicates that this is the Innovation and Technology Park. Well, it should be a new development, so it has a bit of a sense of desolation, but it does not affect its potential value in the future. In a few years, with the completion of the nearby subway station, the economic development driven by the transportation advantage will definitely make the surrounding industries glow with new economic vitality.

If Xiaoshi can find a job here, the development prospects should be very good.

We slowly searched all the way according to the address sent by the third company, searching, searching, and finding a little confusing. Just a phone call and ask, oh, okay, overdone......

Walking back, I kept seeing someone waving at the door of his company, well, Xiaoshi went to the interview, and I took a selfie nearby, took a walk to pass the time.

After an hour or two, Xiaoshi smiled happily and said that she was hired!

Because the company is very short of people now, and the person who interviewed her is Xinyi, who is a fellow countryman and easy to talk to. Although Xiaoshi also said that she had just finished learning Taobao art and had no work experience, the person who interviewed her said that it didn't matter, she could teach her if she didn't understand, take her time, and have a three-month probationary period.

This is a kind of luck for Xiao Shi. Because what she needed most at that time was a training environment, the company was not big, suitable for exercising the foundation, and there was a fellow countryman to teach, these were all good conditions.

Xiaoshi is still a little puzzled, whether to continue to go to other companies for interviews, after all, this place is a little far away from the "heart world".

I immediately said I didn't need it, it was a good place for her. So, her new job took root. And the notice of the second company, she can also ignore it.

Return to the "Heart World", quickly pack your luggage, and prepare to report for duty the next day.

However, I had a feeling in my heart that it was sour......

On the first day of registration, I helped her take her luggage, sent her to the door of the company, and then I took the car back. She said that she may return to the "heart world" in the evening.

Everything, still very normal.

On the evening of the first day of work, she came back and described to me the situation on the first day of work, who and what happened......

The next morning, after I dropped her off downstairs to take the bus, when I turned around, a sour feeling suddenly welled up in my eyes, and I suddenly felt very reluctant......

This feeling of anxiety has been sleeping since the day my uncle took me to report for duty when I was a freshman. Unexpectedly, Xiaoshi could wake it up......

Oh my God, I walked from the first floor to the seventh floor with wet eyes, and when I returned to the "Heart World", I lay down on the bed and let the tears flow for a few minutes before I was relieved.

When she is like a big child, I worry about her, I pity her, I miss her, I want to hug her......

I love you, like a meteor crossing the sky, what comes into your eyes may only be a moment of romance, but what falls into your heart is the "weight" that you may not see.

Meteors, streaked into your sky, fall into your world.

A moment does not mean fleeting.

Just because you can't see it doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

I love you, and the moment I love you, it has become oxygen.