Hai Yuan Changwen stood there, looking at the answer that suddenly popped up in his mind, in a daze and dazed.

Doesn't matter?

In other words, it doesn't matter what you choose or how you choose?

For that stupid background, I don't care at all.

Who cares?

[Yuan Changwen will care, will choose a so-called good, will be anxious because of the choice, and will regret and annoyed because of the choice. But all this is Yuan Changwen, and it is Yuan Changwen who is affected, not me. 】

Any choice will lead to a certain outcome, and if you don't like it, this result will become a consequence. If you like it, then the result will become a result.

The development of things is not under your control, and your so-called choices are just based on past experience and knowledge.

Then, "I want to control things that are uncontrollable," this is the source of trouble.

It is also the reason why I decided to surrender.

And how to make a choice after surrendering, Yuan Changwen is here, and the answer that pops up doesn't even believe him.

If it really doesn't matter and you choose at will, then there is no difference between surrendering or not, and there is no such thing as going with the flow.

[No, surrender is not resisting the status quo at the moment. Then, after I choose at random, even though the results are not satisfactory, I am in a state of surrender, and I will not feel unsatisfactory. 】

[In other words, after surrendering, I won't think about how to choose at all.] Because to find the best way to choose, it is itself control, and it is to want a specific result. 】

[Surrender, but do not produce such emotions.] I've already surrendered, so how can I make a choice for a certain outcome, or how can I feel upset because there is no specific outcome?]

(Still no answer, how to choose.) ）

[It doesn't matter, that's the answer.] We all agree that no matter what happens, the movie screen doesn't care about the content of the movie. 】

(Well, that's who we are, and that's the only truth.) ）

[And Yuan Changwen is trying to imitate that stupid background. Surrender is the state of not choosing, just what happens at the moment. There are no illusions about the future, and no regrets about the past. 】

[The reason why it is difficult for people to accept and figure out how to choose is because the "self" still wants to control. It was using future fears to intimidate me, telling me that surrender was terrible. 】

[It is also awakening my habits of more than 20 years and awakening my desire for control. It seems that the world must be under its control, and even if it is not, it must be controlled as best as possible. Aren't a lot of contradictions just because you want to control them but can't control them?]

[The definition of all self-weaving is the means of survival of "self". Without these definitions, there would be no "self", would there be a movie that plays the movie screen itself?

[It makes me identify with self-definition, and makes me pour my heart and soul into anything, so that once this thing is broken and disappears, I will be miserable.] But that's not me, right?]

(We can discard the bad aspects, but what about the good aspects? such as our own kindness, diligence, perseverance, and proud ideals, and things that we have done that others cannot do.) ）

[These are not me either.] 】

(Huh!)

Yuan Changwen felt a burst of discomfort and faint sadness in his heart.

Why huh?

Because no one can voluntarily get rid of these good qualities, or strictly speaking, no one wants to voluntarily give up their pride.

Whether this pride is thoughtful, or cognitive upgrading, or has done something that only a few people dare to do...... Whatever it is, it's your pride.

Yuan Changwen thought that he had lost it, and the biggest difficulty was the building called "money". But now it seems that these prides are also difficult to kill.

There are some thoughts faintly flowing in my heart, "Lao Tzu is a person who pursues truth, you are all scum", "I have seen that these are not real, you are still working hard, scum." ”

There is also the pride of his past, and the imagination that after the end of the self-definition, he will become a superior existence.

[These things, too, are not me. 】

(Huh!)

Yuan Changwen felt a little suffocated, and gradually, that sadness turned into fear.

I still have ideas for the future, I still have the urge to travel around the world, I still have the desire to experience life well, and I still have the beauty after getting rid of emotional pulls.

[However, these things are also not me.] 】

(Huh!)

Yuan Changwen's breathing was a little short, obviously he didn't know how to deal with it, obviously he was just looking for what happened after surrendering, how could he come to this point?

Submit to?

Yes, surrender!

Yuan Changwen suddenly let go, no longer grabbed the window frame, and didn't care about the time and place, and knelt on the ground suddenly.

Bang!

It's the sound of kowtowing on the concrete floor.

Bang!

Yuan Changwen just knelt on the ground, kowtowing vigorously, and didn't care that his forehead was still bleeding just now.

"Tell me, Lord, what should I do, please, will you save me?"

"I now kneel on the ground and ask for your blessing. From now on, there will be no more Yuan Changwen! His ideals, his preferences, and his persistence will all be abandoned. ”

"Is that okay, can you save me?"

"I've given up on Yuan Changwen, why are you still so uncomfortable?"

"Lord, can't you hear my supplication, please, will you save me?"

Yuan Changwen knelt on the ground, kowtowing and crying.

If you want to surrender, you have to give up everything, and this is what it takes to kill your self-definition.

If you have some self-definition, how can you talk about killing?

I've spent more than twenty years identifying with these self-definitions myself, and now I'm freeing myself from the emotional tugs that must be killed.

I'm so uncomfortable, so sad!

The fear was like a wave, constantly washing over the body and mind. It's like having your beloved things shattered and your own hard work being denied.

Yuan Changwen was wrapped in fear, and his whole body fell under the wall, trembling around his body.

I can't resist, I want to surrender.

Submit to!

However, it didn't work, the fear didn't subside, and it still ran rampant in the body.

Yuan Changwen felt the fear, and with what little clarity he had, he tried to control his thinking and not follow the fear to make up stories together.

Nor will they cheer themselves up, divert their attention to pray for a moment of peace.

Yuan Changwen just looked at the fear, and ran rampant on the desert, the pitch-black light and shadow quickly shuttling between the buildings.

From time to time, this pitch-black light and shadow will transform into warm light and shadow such as red and orange, and will also change into calm and comfortable light and shadow such as green and blue.

Useless!

That stupid background doesn't care about these things!

He's definitely eating a rabbit's head and watching a play now!

Theoretical understanding can never be compared to personal experience. Many chapters ago, Yuan Changwen knew that he would kill some beautiful self-definitions.

But when I really encountered it, I was so unbearable, and I was as helpless as a child.

Encountered it before?

Yuan Changwen doesn't remember, it seems to be, but it doesn't matter at all. The important thing is what Yuan Changwen is experiencing at this moment.

Or, the experience didn't kill that self-definition.

Perhaps, the so-called awakening is like this, one moment it will be uncomfortable, one moment will be sober, one moment will think that it is all over, and one moment will be afraid to show its face again and laugh at itself.

Let go of attachments? Let go of self-definition?

Yuan Changwen found that these two things could not be done at all. "Letting go of attachment" is a kind of attachment in itself, let alone that self-definition.

What to do?