Every time I start over again, I can't do without being stupid and sluggish, and even though I don't like it, that's who I am......

My growth stage is very clear, and this growth makes me feel like I have really become better. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 However, after starting over in a different place, I realized that my last growth was just a foreshadowing, and after working hard to grow, well, I felt that I had really become greater. However, after starting over in a different place, it turned out that I was still so weak......

The more I felt weak, the less confident I was about my future, whether it was my career or love.

Fortunately, my stupidity, although it has brought me many, many obstacles, has also blessed me. As the saying goes: "Fools have foolish blessings." ”

Yes, I am often so slow that it is difficult to understand what the people who tell me to do things are saying, and I have to listen to them several times before I can understand them. So it's easy to annoy the people who ask me to do things, but there are also people who will help me speak, people who care about me, and people who understand my feelings. My heart warms so much about this!

Sometimes I feel very upset when I go to work, but when I go to the canteen after work, the local aunt in the canteen treats me very well, and although we can't communicate in the same language, she gestures with her hands to express a meaning, what does it mean, let me eat well...... Also, when she saw me, she smiled. The mood will be much better because of the care of the local aunt......

Oh, and some local novelties can also divert my attention.

For example, walking on the road, I may hear the Khmer version of "A Woman Who Gets Hurt", and then I will be amazed, I will have a sour nose, and I will shed tears. Because I listened to the Cambodian version of "Easily Injured Woman", I couldn't sing back the original version of "Vulnerable Woman", I felt that I was brainwashed......

The picture of the local aunt riding a motorcycle, I'm used to seeing it, it's not surprising. However, once because of work, I was fortunate enough to be taken to the factory by a local aunt on a motorcycle, although it was only a few hundred meters away, my heart was mixed.

I felt that the local men on the side of the road were looking at me in a daze, after all, it was usually men who rode motorcycles to carry women, but what they saw was women riding motorcycles and carrying men......

Also, the local aunt who drove me on a motorcycle was very strong on her motorcycle, and there was really a feeling that she was a man and I was a woman.

Also, I think the local shampoo smells so good, it smells like perfume. Whether it's a man or a woman, I smell a lot of it, and it's all that kind of fragrance......

One night, there was no water......

How do I take a bath, how do I flush the toilet? Whew, the locals are not in the habit of digging wells.

At that time, I really wanted to ask myself, why do you have to work in such a backward place?

Fortunately, it was the rainy season and there was a lot of rain. It was a bit rainy that night, so I took a bucket to the door and waited for the rain. Then I sat in the hallway and wrote, which felt a bit like when I was a kid sitting quietly under the eaves and watching the rain......

In addition to the novelty that diverted my attention, it was more that Brother Peake and Sister Lily cared about me. Whew, there will be a late-night snack every night. Think about it, if I don't gain weight, can I be worthy of them?

Sometimes when it rains at the end of the day, the children without umbrellas have to learn to run!

At that time, I was under the night sky with heavy rain, and I didn't have an umbrella. However, I didn't run, but slowly went back to my accommodation in the rain......

Rain, learn to grow up......

Time continues to flow.

In a thought, heaven and hell.

As I said, for me, if I wasn't there with a learning mentality, I wouldn't be able to stand it.

At that time, my mentality of learning was a little weakened, and my self-esteem began to grow inexplicably, which would be very troublesome!

When ambition is not proportional to strength, and ambition is greater than strength, it is very dangerous! So, I am tired......

In the days after the boss left, I went to the factory more often than not. It's not hard to run a factory, it's hard to deal with workers. I don't speak the language of the workers, I rely on understanding. The reason why I go to the factory is generally to find auxiliary materials, and the control of auxiliary materials is in the warehouse, that is, I have to ask the workers in the warehouse to help me find auxiliary materials.

At first, once or twice, they didn't feel bad about me because of the novelty. But after a lot of time, they get bored, but they have to help me find accessories. In this way, when they saw me, they felt repulsive towards me as if they were seeing a plague god......

I began to understand the mood of the philosophical beast in my last job, as soon as he saw someone from another department who specialized in making samples coming to get the parts, he was very angry, because he had worked hard to change a mold, he made a few parts, and then he dismantled them. After a few days, I came to get the accessories again, and I had to install the mold and make a few more and dismantle it. After repeating this, he hated the person who made the sample.

I think the warehouse workers are probably in the mood of a philosophical beast. And I also understand the big brother who often asks the philosophical beast for accessories.

The work is like this, there is no way, even if you are hated, you have to do it. Therefore, work has its own difficulties.

This was not a problem, but my learning mentality has changed a little, and my self-esteem has inexplicably strengthened, which makes it a little difficult for me to accept the rejection of those workers. That was the last thing I wanted to be, so I didn't look for a job dealing with complex relationships.

What I was most afraid of after I got there was that I didn't have the right mentality and always thought too much, which would not only not be good at learning, but would even leave a psychological shadow......

Early that morning, the whole person was weak and weak, and he had no energy at all. Perhaps, the body is tired too.

If this was the case in my last job, at least I could have ridden the "Flash" for a ride.

But, there. There are so many things I need in my spiritual world, but I don't have them there......

When I'm depressed and still can't get enough food for my thoughts, it's easy for me to fall......

I knew I had to do something that would make the spiritual world turn, like drawing...... But I knew I was going to do it, but I couldn't do it. I don't have the kind of mood and conditions that I want to paint, unless I can convince myself of my obsessive-compulsive disorder.

So what was I doing? hovering between heaven and hell. If I miss a thought, then I can easily fall into the hell of my soul and find it difficult to extricate myself. Whether you can enter the heaven of the soul depends on whether you can break through......

If I had been defeated so easily, how could I be worthy of the person who made the decision to give up the small world and come here?

The road is chosen by yourself, whether the scenery is good or not, you have to accept it, because the road behind is no longer distinguishable, and if you go back, you may completely lose yourself. However, there is only one road ahead, and if you don't take it, there is no hope at all. If you go down, you may encounter some dangers, but at least there is hope......

Don't forget the original intention, you have to always.

I'm here to learn!

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