121 The loneliness of Chinese New Year's Eve
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I have back pain, and when I saw Xu Yi's new girlfriend, my first reaction turned out to be back pain.
In fact, there is no necessary connection between these two things.
I have back pain because of the cold weather, and at the end of the year, the magazine and the izakaya are busy, and I have to take time to review and prepare for the final exam, and every day I am busy lying on the table from dark to almost cold, and the house I rent has heating, but the heating is not hot enough. There are windows, and the windows are leaking.
Cold, windy.
After a few days of doing this, I started to have back pain, and I put a plaster on before I came today.
As a result, when I saw Xu Yi's new girlfriend, I was a little surprised, and I was surprised, and I stretched my waist.
Stepping on 10-centimeter heels, I walk out with the pain and just happen to meet Rarity.
I must have had a rich expression at the time.
He looked at me, "Yo, who's bullying you?"
I grinned, "No. ”
I walked on, I couldn't take a few steps and moved to the pantry by the wall, I hung myself on Rarity's newly bought couch, and I was so soft that I was stuck in it, and I shook off my heels and struck a four-and-back pose.
The pantry in the studio is just a furnishing, usually no one comes, not to mention that when I came in, the door was locked, I just wanted to rest for a while, and I left when my waist was better.
When Xu Yi opened the door and came in, I still put my hand around and pinched my waist, humming in pain.
He didn't call me, but walked around behind me when I couldn't see him when I looked down, and then leaned down and looked at me condescendingly, "What are you doing?"
Ahh
So Xu Yi wanted to help me pinch my waist.
I didn't want to, I'd rather ask Rary about it, but he got straight to it, pulled his shirt out of his skirt, and tore the plaster I had been sticking on all morning.
I was in pain, this pain was more obvious than my back pain, and I broke out in a cold sweat, but I endured it and didn't speak.
Xu Yi touched my waist, "I'm allergic." ”
I really didn't know I was allergic, because I hadn't put it before, I just felt itchy and painful, but I didn't expect it to be the reason. He grabbed my arm and asked me to touch it myself, and the area where the plaster had just been applied was really swollen.
Xu Yi is also very good at massage, he said that when he was not famous, he knew more things than Chen every day, and at that time, he was not served by a sensible girlfriend like me, so he had to do everything by himself.
I asked Xu Yi, "Do you think I'm sensible?"
He said, "It's okay." ”
By the way, I increased the strength of my hands.
Hmm, it hurts. I groaned from my throat, but my mouth was tightly closed.
"That's right," he leaned over to my ear, "I don't like to scream when it hurts, you're just right." ”
I really want to give him a kick, but unfortunately I don't have the ability right now.
I said, "That's enough, don't pinch me, your girlfriend is still outside." ”
Suddenly remembering that Xu Yi had a new girlfriend again, I felt a little strange in my heart, but I wasn't sad or anything, but I just felt that I had to keep a little distance from him, although the two of us were really nothing.
But other people's girlfriends will be sad when they see it.
Fooling around, my heart was full of guilt.
As a result, the two of us really kept their distance, Xu Yi took the initiative, and when I was leaving that day, he thought about it and said, "Don't come to me if you have nothing to do." ”
I wouldn't have looked for him at all when I had nothing to do.
Looking for him is nothing more than an izakaya problem, so it's good, Xu Yi gave an order, and I didn't plan to ask, and I consciously went to explain everything to Rarity about my work.
Rarity thought I had a fight with Xu Yi, and he said, "Isn't it because of Xu Ya?"
I said, "What are you thinking about?"
He said, "You're not interested in Xu Yi?"
I said, of course, no.
But Rarity's words, I did take it to heart. Xu Yi has never contacted me since my birthday and New Year's Day, and although he didn't often look for me before, he would appear once every half a month.
But this time, plus he went on vacation before, we only met once in three months.
This should be a normal thing, but I'm not used to it.
I found that when I was bored on the Internet, I would type his name in the search box, click on it, and read his news one by one.
New albums, participation in events, scandals.
It's nothing more than these, when I saw him and Xu Ya appear in pairs, I also chuckled in my heart. I think, it's nothing, when I was young, I liked Xu Yi when I was young, and I also regarded him as a prince charming, and one day the prince had a scandal and a certain actress was photographed overnight in a hotel, and I was also sad at the beginning.
I feel that my prince is not pure.
When I was a teenager, I still had a virgin plot. Hehehe, it's actually quite interesting to recall.
So while chatting with Rarity, I gossip about the past, and the two of us had fun together.
Enough fun, Rarity asked me, "Have you ever thought that you really think of Xu Yi as a star?"
I shook my head, "Still be the boss." ”
"You. ”
There are some topics that Rarity doesn't talk to me about, such as the fact that he hasn't talked about it in front of me for a long time. Chen Shi seems to be regarded by many people as a taboo in my heart, so they don't mention it.
He doesn't talk about it, and he doesn't match me with others, but occasionally he accidentally reveals that kind of thought.
Rarity's question today shows me what it means.
For the first time, I seriously thought about what kind of feelings I had for Xu Yi, and I used to think that I had no feelings for him. But in fact, as long as you are a person, it is impossible not to feel it, let alone Xu Yi, when I knew that I was disgusted by Yu Xueqian, I also sighed in my heart when I saw Xiao Yang delete the pile of things that I wrote.
Well, people, it's like that.
I flipped out Xu Yi's poster, and counted with my fingers, ten years, just ten years. I've loved him since he came out with his first song.
And I was too young to understand what love was.
Later, I gave Chen Shi my first serious love, and naturally there was nothing in my heart that belonged to Xu Yi, but even if it was less, he still accounted for a part.
Chen Shi and Xu Yi, both of whom I liked as idols at first.
The reason why I fell in love with Chen Shi was because he was closer to me, and Xu Yi was still too far away for me at that time. Maybe it's preconceived, maybe it's fate.
If I had never met Chen Shi, if the person who accidentally walked into my life at that time was Xu Yi, wouldn't it be different?
I shook my head, thinking I was deluded.
Xu Yi and Xu Ya's relationship didn't last long, and the day before the New Year, the two of them made headlines in entertainment news. I had known about this sooner, because Rarity, who had made the breakup statement, had written it the day before, and she sent me a copy of it when she was done.
I asked, "Really?"
Rarity said yes, and told me that the Chinese New Year's Eve izakaya must be full, so I don't want to go home and stay and watch.
I stayed, but I didn't really stay until twelve o'clock, and just after eight o'clock the first customers were sent off, the store manager said that I could leave work, and it was even more chaotic.
When I returned to the rental house, it was just after nine o'clock, my roommates were not there, one was my senior sister in the same major, she went out on a date, and the noisy little couple went to Sanya together two days ago, leaving me alone.
I grabbed the newspaper from the newspaper box, and the entertainment section had already published the breakup statement from the studio.
In fact, I don't hate Xu Ya, although I don't like it very much, it is not easy for her to be a little girl in the entertainment industry, and it will inevitably cause some negative news.
They broke up this time, and I didn't show any schadenfreude.
On the contrary, Xu Yi called me that night, "Come and cook for me." ”
I didn't get it, and I said, "What?"
Xu Yi said, "What day is today?" ”
"New Year's Eve on the first of January. ”
"You have to come to pay off your debts during the New Year's holidays, have you forgotten?"
I really didn't want to go, so I made up an excuse and refused.
During the New Year's holidays, you will receive a bunch of blessing text messages. I bought a new phone, the most expensive and best model, but there are fewer and fewer numbers in it.
I thought of Chen Shi again, and remembered the sentence he casually said when he gave me his mobile phone number for the first time, "Keep it for New Year's greetings." ”
I also remember that year on Chinese New Year's Eve, he ran to my house to drink, and his eyes were red like rabbits.
Sadness and sorrow have become a common thing for a person to celebrate the holidays.
I stared at my phone, there was no Chen Zhi's number, Si Chen had been gone for more than a year, and Chen Xiang had also changed his number a year ago, I called a few times, and the new number was empty.
I found out that it's called loneliness.
There are also two roses on the soda bottle in the restaurant. They were all inserted on Christmas Eve.
One is from the senior sister, and the other is from the little couple.
Although it's just one, it's also very sweet. And I don't even have a flower bone.
I had an idea that I wanted flowers too, and I wanted someone to be with me. If someone gives me flowers at this time, I will fall in love with him.
Just as I was thinking, there was a knock on the door.
(Chen Xiang and Si Chen's fan wai began to be serialized on Weibo~~ It's very good-looking~ Let's chase it~)
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