I'm rotting, sinking deeper and deeper.

Fear seems to want to pull me back, using all kinds of fears to keep me from moving. I'm going to see what's in the midst of fear! So many chapters, and every time I succumb to fear, because the content of fear really makes sense.

But this time, I don't want to tremble in fear and make up for the content of fear. Either way, the source of my fear is not an objective fact, but my heart.

Strictly speaking, all fears are about the character's self-definition. Whatever the fear is, the content is to deprive a certain self-definition.

For example, fear without locking the door is a self-definition such as "my house cannot be stolen, how can I be a careless person".

For example, the fear of pets hurting people is a self-definition such as "my pet is very well-behaved, how can I be a pet hurtful owner".

It looks like some kind of material loss, such as a home being stolen, such as a pet hurting someone and losing money. But in fact, it's about the image of the character, it's about the fullness of the character.

Pets hurt people because pets are happy and pets are willing, and the whole process is not a loss for pets. I made it a decision that pets couldn't hurt people, because I had to apologize for hurting people and hurt the character's self-definition.

Why can't a home be stolen, and why can't pets hurt people?

Whatever the explanation, the tension is the character's self-definition.

"I am a person who does not want to be materially harmed", this is a self-definition.

"I'm a good pet person", "My pet is very obedient", "I've always been careful and cautious, I never forget to lock the door", "How can my house be stolen, I don't have much money in the first place", "This can't happen", etc.

Again, it's not about being the opposite, because that's also a self-definition.

Fear should not be my opponent at all. No matter how you justify it, you can't overcome it on the level of fear. It's not just the content of fear that is quite possible, but the idea of overcoming fear is fear in itself.

Is this true?

Look at the content of the fear, look at the self-definition, which one is true?

All inner tension stems from self-definition. What else is there to keep? Why don't characters die? Are these self-definitions so tenacious?

I don't know why I still have these self-definitions, and I don't know when it will all end or if it will end. I don't know any of that.

Crazy, what reason is there to keep sanity?

Since you are playing a slashing role, let's go for it recklessly, what is there to hesitate about?

I was deceived and have been deceived. The distortions in the mind, the self-definitions, seem to be very important, but in fact they are just a piece of shit.

Those self-definition crazy pull me, why can't something happen? The character will be ruined, life will be a mess, so what? And the murderer of all this is the distortion and self-definition in the mind. Instead of killing them, I just grabbed them and let them manipulate my life.

In this way, can I not be afraid, or will the content of fear not happen because I am holding on to the false?

It's really Nima's hell, I haven't understood such a simple truth all along. Why do I hold on to self-definition? It is precisely because of the self-definition that it leads to the arrogance of fear, which makes me think that these things can't happen.

And whether it will happen or not has nothing to do with whether or not I hold on to self-definition. Am I holding on to "I am a poor man and cannot afford material loss", so that there really will be no material loss?

On the other hand, if I don't hold on to these self-definitions, I can't be arrogant about fear. When did I fear that I wouldn't be able to poop? But that doesn't mean that something won't happen in the future that will prevent me from pooping.

So, why hold on to self-definition and not let go? Is there something wrong with my brain? What a profound understanding of this? Damn characters, damn fears, I can't see such a simple truth.

Excuse me, is this how you used to live?

Excuse me, is this alive?

So, why not fear that you can't? Why not fear that you're suddenly blind? Why not fear aliens? Why not fear planet explosions? Why not fear Resident Evil?

It's all the image of the character, and it's all the self-definition of the character.

I want to plump up the character, I want to make the character different, I want the character to stand above everyone, I want the character to succeed, I want to make the character walk at the peak of life. To achieve this, you have to compare yourself to other characters and use the criteria that other characters agree with.

Everyone thinks that making money can enrich the character, so of course I take it for granted that making money can enrich the character and make the character superior to other characters.

No one will boast that they are alive, because this is not the criterion by which other characters identify with each other. Moreover, everyone is alive, and there is no way to reflect the difference in roles. Therefore, self-definition such as carefulness and orderliness is once again the way to flesh out the character.

There will always be only a few rich people, but other characters can't be in grief forever. So there are other judging criteria, each circle has its own judging criteria, and each circle has different judging criteria, so that most of the characters in the circle can find their comfortable position in different judging criteria.

I am a slave to the character of Yuan Changwen, and there is no other explanation at all, and I don't need any other explanation. Reluctance to admit this is not a problem, because once admitted, even if you don't take the initiative to kill, it has already weakened the power of the character's self-definition.

How many of the same distortions are left in the mind? How many other unknown self-definitions are hidden in the characters?

Those self-defined elements are different from ordinary picture elements, not simple memories or landscapes and the like. It's something deeper, the pictorial element that makes up the character.

It's built layer by layer, first with the real characters, and then with the simple common sense of life, like fire burns and the like. Then those self-definitions make the character plump. And self-definition itself is built on memory, or rather, on the distortion of the mind.

It's not a neat thing, it's just a piece of!

I don't have to tidy up because I don't want to be a better person.

True! Slash! False!

That's what I need to pay attention to, once it's confirmed that it's fake, then don't hesitate to kill it. Maybe you can't kill it all at once, so come a few more times. If you can't kill it all your life, you'll waste your life.

Anyway, this world is not real, and I am not the character of Yuan Changwen. As for feelings such as pity, when they can outweigh hatred of falsehood, they may be diverted. ()

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