He nodded, then said, "Rest first, I'll be fine soon." ()”

He walked into the bathroom, and I slouched back on the couch and looked out the window at the blue sky. I remember once upon a time I saw a saying in a place that said that lonely people must go to see the winter sea, because the winter sea is as lonely as you.

I don't know if Yan Bin chose to come to see the sea at this time, whether he wanted to understand the loneliness of the sea or to vent his loneliness. Anyway, he suddenly decided to take me all the way out of life and come here.

I fell in love with the feeling of escape, a sense of fatalism that I couldn't explain. Lying alone, I found that I was becoming more and more superficial, as if I hadn't held a book or read a single sentence for a long, long time.

There was the sound of water in the bathroom, the glass was translucent frosted, and I could vaguely see the silhouette of a man's bodybuilding, and I looked at it stupidly, feeling the loneliness that came from the depths of my body and my heart. The moment I left the family, I thought that I would never need a man anymore and that I could bear any pain and hurt on my own. But the feeling of the body and the loneliness of the heart, they do not deceive.

Yan Bin quickly washed up, walked out wrapped in a bath towel, wiped his hair with a towel, and asked lightly, "Washed?"

He nodded, and he said, "You avoid it first, I'll change my clothes." ”

I realized that I hadn't brought any clothes with me, and I exclaimed, "Oh no, what do I wear after I take a shower at night?" ”

He said: "I will drive to the neighborhood and buy a random set in a while, and it will be fine." ”

I thought to myself, I turned my head and he began to change clothes behind me, and I could feel his every move without looking back, my heart pounding. He said, "Alright, let's go." ”

I quickly stood up and walked to the door. He laughed: "Why are you so panicked, it looks like you are fleeing." ”

In fact, I was just nervous at the moment, an inexplicable sense of tension and crampedness in the same room with a man. I said, "I can't wait to see the sea." ”

And he said, "Wait, you go to the beach like this, and it will be cold." ”

With that, he took off his coat and handed it to me, and said, "Put it on, hurry." ”

I looked at him in just a tracksuit, and I said, "What if I wear you?"

He smiled, "I'm a man, and it's fine." ”

I obediently put on his coat, and he took out another scarf from his suitcase, tied it with his own hands, and then looked at it with great satisfaction and said, "Well, that's good, so it won't be cold." ”

Yan Bin on this day always gave me the illusion of an elder. The kind of meticulous care he gave me was very much like the love of an older brother to his younger sister. What happened to him?

We went out together, and the sea is not far behind the hotel, and there is a special passage to get through. In winter, there are almost no people watching the sea, because the sea breeze is particularly cold. Yan Bin did a few warm-up exercises, and then actually took off his shoes and walked barefoot on the beach, I exclaimed, "Aren't you afraid of the cold? ”

He said: "Chairman Mao still swam the Yangtze River in the winter, what are you afraid of in the cold." ”

He walked slowly with me at first, and after walking for a while he said, "I'm going to run for a while, warm up, you can see the sea for yourself here, I'll run to that end, and then I'll run back to accompany you." ”

I nodded, he ran away as soon as he slipped away, I watched his figure get smaller and smaller, and then looked at the sea level, feeling the cold sea breeze, and my heart was indescribably stunned, as if I had aged a lot in an instant. The sea in winter, so silent, so serene, not as noisy as summer, like an old wise man silently telling its vastness and vastness, all the troubles are swept away by the waves that pour ashore, and only the purest heart and the most heartfelt call are left.

At that moment, I first thought of Yan Yan, and then thought of Brother Monkey, these two relatives I felt close to in this world besides my parents. Brother Monkey always sends me recent photos of Yan Yan, he goes to see Yan Yan whenever he has time, he says that he gets along well with Yan Yan, and he and Ruan Dazhi often sit together and drink two glasses, I know that he does all this for me.

At that moment, I took out my phone and called Brother Monkey. I said I was at the beach, and his first reaction was with whom, and I told him honestly, with a man.

There was a moment of silence on the other end of the phone, and I clarified, "It's an ordinary friend." ”

My explanation was clearly a bit far-fetched and a little weak-hearted, and I didn't understand why I was explaining, why I suddenly had the urge to call Brother Monkey.

He said, "Oh, then you can have fun." It's cold by the sea, so wear more clothes. ”

The loss in my tone made me a little gloomy, and I said, "Little brother, I just want to say to you, thank you for everything you have done for me, on the beach in winter, this is my truest heart at the moment." ”

He laughed, and he said, "Here you go again, what's polite." I take care of Yan Yan because I like her, I am willing to take care of her, you don't have to mind too much. ”

I said, "Anyway, I'm grateful." It's just that I don't know what else to say or do besides gratitude. ”

He said, "Sister, don't see each other like this with me." Enjoy your present time, if there is a man worthy of your love who is good to you, I will also bless you, don't feel guilty about me. It's my job to take care of Yan Yan, not to please you, but I think I'm willing to do it. Also, I have a lot of love with her, and I like to play with her. ”

This boy with a heart as fine as dust, he always understood my psychology so thoroughly. I couldn't say anything more, and I had no words to express it but my gratitude.

After a few more conversations, we said goodbye to each other and hung up. At this time, the figure gradually became clear again, and Yan Bin began to run back, and soon, he ran to my side out of breath, and even sweat came out.

I laughed, "Now you're so hot, I'm freezing to death." ”

I handed him a tissue, and he took it, wiped his sweat, and then pointed to the stone over there and said, "Let's go, let's sit over there." ”

I nodded, and he naturally reached out and grabbed mine, and this time, I didn't break free. He hugged me, sat down on the flat stone, and said, "Shu Hua, do you like this feeling? Heaven and earth are one, only you and I feel." ”

I said, "Well, it's quiet. ”

"I love to come to the sea in the winter, and I come every year," he said. I think that the sea in summer is like our life, and the sea in winter is like the self in our hearts, which exists quietly. ”

His state of mind is as deep as mine, and perhaps it is this lonely sea that infects us. I like Yan Bin this day, he is not anything I have seen in the past, he seems to be the most real him.

I curled up in his arms, and he cupped my chin and kissed me softly, carefully, and we didn't say anything, as if we didn't need to communicate at all to understand each other. In this place where heaven and earth are one, we feel this sweetness to the fullest.

The kiss was so dark that I can't remember how long it was, and we finally stopped, and he hugged me tightly in his arms, and he didn't speak, and I didn't speak. This kiss means a lot to us, but it seems to be just an emotional catharsis in a specific scene.

I put my arms around his waist, and my hand touched the skin on his waist, and he said, "Why is it still so cold? ”

I nodded, and he stood up, then pulled me up and took me in his arms, slightly blessing the strength of my hands, allowing me to walk close to him.

That kind of beauty, indescribable, indefinable, is not love, but there is a suffocating heartbeat. We all cherish that moment of spiritual understanding, and no one wants to break it.

It wasn't until we were about to get to the hotel that there were more and more people, and we seemed to have returned from a dream, becoming more alienated, and talking more casually again.

He was back to who I was, and I was back to who I was, and he said, "Damn, the restaurant is so full of people." ”

I said, "It's normal for it to get dark early in winter." ”

He said, "Either let's go out and eat and buy you a set of clothes by the way." ”

I said, "Okay." ”

We drove to the city, found a restaurant to eat together, and went to the mall after eating, I took a set of clothes, a set of pajamas and a pair of underwear, and he was already waiting at the cash register to pay the bill. I handed it over, and he paid it naturally, as if nothing needed to be said.

We went back to the hotel and he lay straight on the bed. He said: "I slept for a while, I drove for a day, I was too sleepy. ”

Soon he fell asleep, and I stood by the bed, looked at him for a while, and felt that he was really a rare handsome man, with both the edges and corners of a man and the fortitude of a man, the more he looked, the more durable he became.

I went to take a shower, changed into my pajamas, lay down on the couch, watched TV and fell asleep in a daze. In the middle of the night, perhaps he got up and saw me sleeping on the sofa, and carried me to the bed without saying a word, hugged me and kissed me for a while, kissing me so much that I couldn't breathe, and I felt the heat and uneasiness of his body. However, he didn't do anything in the end, got up and went to the bathroom to take a cold shower, came back and hugged me, and fell asleep peacefully.

But I slept very lightly, and I couldn't sleep all night. I don't think he'll believe it, it's the first time in my life that I've been held to sleep by a man all night. Ruan Dazhi has never been gentle, and Li Jinnian is only a short-term pleasure, I have never felt such sweetness and warmth.