Chapter 999: The First Step 399
Everyone likes to have a wealth of knowledge, and it seems that the more they know, the better their life will be. If knowledge becomes an obstacle to life, it must be because there is not enough knowledge.
Everything is built around life, and it's all based on a myriad of assumptions. It's good, it's wonderful, but it's just not real.
Why destroy the good and pursue the truth? This truth is not the truth in the discourse, and it is not that what is true is good. This reality is infinite, it is a thing that destroys all limitations, why should you throw away these beauty?
None of this makes sense, and it is just wishful thinking to think that it can be reasonable. I could see how I was misled and deceived, but I couldn't know how the elements of the picture were presented, let alone what the truth was.
I do not know.
ruined all this, those cool fantasies actually concealed slashing. Why do you always like to break the rules, why do you always fantasize about what you have done, and then those so-called bigwigs only look at them weakly, and those self-righteous sleek and self-righteous principles of life have all disappeared.
It's a great feeling, and it's a routine that has always been recognized by the character. That's it, it's just a man-made distortion, how can you control me?
And the so-called me was also deceived and generated, so why can't I kill myself?
Why am I alive? Who am I? Is the world real? Shouldn't these questions be the premise of all questions? Why do you just assume that it's true, and then move on to other questions, and keep dwelling on other issues?
There are so many things to be busy, so many things to do, it seems that this must be done, that must be done, this must be there, and that must be there. Even though I knew that all of this was a representation of the elements of the picture, I was still dragged away by the distortion in my mind.
Is there anything wrong with the fact that the elements of the picture directly show that "I am being dragged away by the distortion in my head"?
It's no problem, just soothing, just to put me to sleep, just trying to tell me it's all okay.
There is no problem, and I will not kill or erase the distortion in my mind. I have no opinion on what kind of person I am, and I have no opinion on the role of Yuan Changwen that he has a certain character.
The point is, I'm not human at all. It's all just deception, albeit well-intentioned, even though no one will be hurt in the end, but it's still just a deception.
I'm going to kill, and I'm not hostile to what I do. I accept my fate, I don't finish the killing at this moment, I admit it, without the slightest hostility. However, I will continue to slash.
The paradox is that all this is fate, and no one can escape. Maybe I'll never finish the kill in my life, maybe I'll kill it, and no one can know that.
So, I accept my fate, whether it is "I am dragged by the distortion in my mind" at this moment, or "I am not finished killing" at this moment, I accept all my fate. It's all a representation of the elements of the picture, and I still think so.
However, this does not affect my words and actions at the moment.
It's still me, I still think I can control my mind, that's why I want to explain it all. Show that your thinking is controllable, and show that you can choose to continue slashing or choose to stop slashing.
Yuan Changwen couldn't find an exit, and the clarity that had just flashed in his mind was now a mess again.
When do you have to think about it? Why don't you just kill it, why do you always have to get in the way of killing?
What else is there to think about destroying all this? I'm smart enough, but I'm too smart to be easily deceived. There is no need to be smart now, just determination. What does it take to be smart to jump off a cliff? Maybe the use of being smart is to find the cliff, but what does it have to do with being smart or not?
Any action of the character is a direct representation of the elements of the picture, even if it is a slash. I always wonder what Wei will choose in the future, or what action I should take at the moment.
It's a twist in the mind, it's a trade-off, it's a necessity to go with the flow, and then try to do it by all means.
I shouldn't have thought from the position of that awareness in the first place, because I wasn't that awareness at all, I was just thinking about the elements of the picture.
So, I'm dragged away by the distortion in my head, so I'm going to kill the distortion in my head. Even if all this is really just a direct presentation of the picture elements, it can't stop me from continuing to kill.
My opponent is false, and nothing else. Is the role of Yuan Changwen fake? If it is false, then it will be killed. There is no other explanation, what is the direct presentation of the elements of the picture, that is just a kind of appeasement.
Slashing has nothing to do with the outcome. I can't say that I'm going to kill because I can touch the truth after slashing, or that I'm slashing to get rid of the distortion in my mind, and I'm not sure if slashing will have this effect.
It's like when I throw an apple, I can't be sure if the apple will hit the ground at all. I just want to throw apples, I just want to throw apples, and it's not my business whether they land or not.
In any case, it's a direct representation of the elements of the picture, and I can't do anything about it. The paradox is that I would ask why I had killed so many chapters and still be pulled by the twist in my head.
This is the direct presentation of the elements of the picture, and there is no reason at all. And, I wonder if I'm going to choose to continue slashing. However, there is no contradiction between continuing to kill and presenting "I am still being pulled by the distortion in my head" with the picture elements at this moment.
I accept my fate, I have no objection to the fact that "I am still pulled by the distortion of my head" at this moment, and I fully agree with the state of the moment. It's surrender, it's appeasement, maybe it's a good thing for life, but it's a blocker for slashing.
If not, then no amount of explanation is just an obstacle, a quibble, a means to put yourself to sleep. There is only one opponent, and that is false. Even if these are direct representations of the elements of the picture, they are false.
How you want to present it, I don't have any opinion, and I don't have any objections. But I can't stop because of this. In other words, at this moment, the picture elements directly present "I want to kill", what is the problem?
I hate the distortion in my brain and kill it, and the picture element presents "I am still dragged by the distortion in my brain at the moment", is there any contradiction between the two?
Yuan Changwen suddenly didn't understand where the contradiction he felt just now was, why did he suddenly become confused just now?
The paradox is that I am not hostile to "at the moment I am being dragged away by the distortion in my head", so I can't kill it?
This is to save the role of Yuan Changwen, this is to make life better. And "I'm being dragged along by the twist in my head at the moment" is just a state, just a sign that I'm not done yet. I'm not hostile to that, I don't think I have to do it.
But, I'm going to kill.