How long has it been?

How long has it been since I experienced this state? It seems that since I started cultivating my spiritual power, I have become accustomed to the state of spiritual power lingering around me. Now I am like an orphan, an orphan abandoned by the whole universe.

The lake is cold, but Yuan Changwen's heart is warm, maybe he is moving towards death.

It's good that I can see the sweet smile of the Grim Reaper Girl, who is welcoming me home.

Worries still exist, and the fear of that bewitching woman will not give up easily. It seems that the intensity of the concern is not so strong, or that some of the characters on the simulated screen have become much larger, and the rest of the template characters have become much smaller.

Sure enough, slashing and customizing your character are two directions.

All these years of persistence, so many years of what was considered necessary, now seems like a joke. There are also remnants of self-definition, such as "men should be rich", "life is about hard work", "should shoulder corresponding responsibilities" and so on.

They are still in the mind, and the distorted ideas are still in the mind. For example, "this is wrong", "this is what is good for me", "I can't let something be lost", "it should be this way", "I want to achieve something", etc.

Believing that the character is a dead end, believing in the distortion in the mind, it will not even set sail for the ship of life, and it will be destroyed directly in the port. Then he still pretended to be galloping on the sea, facing the sea breeze with open arms, and living a real life.

What can't be discarded? Even the survival of the character has nothing to do with me, what else is worth grabbing? Of course the character wants to seize everything, so I'm going to kill the character, or do a suicide mission.

I'm going to look ahead, keep going, and any direction other than going forward is an obstacle. Maybe my mom will still affect me, but I've seen my mom in my head, I already know that the role has nothing to do with me, how long can this influence last?

Characters don't just want to win, they want to win in a certain way, how stupid am I to believe in the characters and the distortions in their heads? Whether it's from the limitations of the perception itself, or the real-time feedback from reality, it proves that the perception in the head is a piece of shit.

Then, I didn't care, and still clung to it. Really, how exaggerated is this kind of manipulation to make me turn a blind eye so easily? No matter how much I overestimate the character, this killing is not an easy entertainment in the first place.

Throughout the ages, so many people have tried to kill one after another, and how many have succeeded? This is the best proof of the strength of the character, and I am still trying to solve the battle in a short time and strive to go home for the New Year? Don't be funny, maybe I will never return home, and I will always be adrift like this.

Yuan Changwen thought about the days ahead, it was all darkness. Perhaps the darkness in the lake is darker than the night. From the beginning of my sensibility, I was asked to be organized, to act in a planned manner, and not to fight unprepared battles and other. It's very useful, as if a lot of things are under your control.

For example, the plan for spiritual practice, for the daily living arrangement, for the plan for a month. Or, if you go to an unfamiliar place, make as much advance arrangements as possible, investigate the customs, and avoid being at a loss when you arrive. The more planned, the less willing to be chaotic.

Since then, my life has become a low-budget movie, with no enthusiasm and inspiration, no dramatic conflict, and the whole movie is about a person living alone in a lonely environment. There is not even an inner drama, this kind of movie is probably going to be on the street.

I haven't gotten out of the role yet, and fear can come back at any moment. What would I do if someone told me that I didn't start my slaughter at all? Or what would I do if I was just warm-up for the discomfort and so on?

What happens when I think that I have nothing to do with the character, that this is not the end but the beginning?

Is this or a mountain in front of you?

I don't need to know that, I'm still trying to control, I'm always trying to find a map where I can tell me where I'm going and how far I'm from the end. Who else is in control? and who else but the characters?!

It's not done, so move on.

It's as simple as that, I don't need any other teachings, I just need to have honesty. Honest to cruelty, knowing exactly what you didn't finish, knowing exactly what was false and what was still being held on to by yourself.

It seems that I have been living in a delicate life, and once I make a mistake, then I have to spend a hundred times as much time and effort to get back on track. But what is on track? Who is qualified to dictate what is on track?

Like, I have to catch the schedule or it's a big bad thing. I'm panicking, and no matter what I do, there's a panic that I have to do it as soon as possible. Although, this panic can be described as hurrying, it is undeniably a kind of fear.

Because I see these things as real, I panic when I miss them. Actually, I have nothing to do with the character, so if I miss it, I miss it. It's all based on thinking with your head, and if you go with the flow, there's no such thing as a miss.

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"it!"

"What is that wild human ingredient for? Why is it that all of a sudden mental power is cut off? But fortunately, our decompilation has been completed, so there is no loss. In fact, we found that even if the wild human ingredient cut off its mental power, it didn't eradicate it at all. ”

"Perhaps, this is the result of cultivating spiritual power, even if the spiritual power is cut off, it is impossible to return to the state of ordinary human food. Maybe he didn't realize it himself, but in the depths of his mind, there was still a faint spiritual power floating lightly. Of course, with his rough control, it is impossible to find. ”

"But why is that wild human food like this? Repeatedly wanting to end his life, logically speaking, this is completely out of line with the instinct of the food civilization! Even if the human food civilization has some depression or something, the patients take the initiative to receive treatment to avoid this uncomfortable state. ”

"It seems that there are secrets to this wild human ingredient that can be unearthed. Of course, all of this is based on the fact that we have acquired the Dharma of spiritual power. Originally, I was thinking about whether to hypnotize that wild human ingredient, but now it is just right. Without spiritual power, he can't detect the invasion of our spiritual power at all. ”

"If it had been before, we would have been worried, after all, he had noticed the existence of our spiritual power for the first time. It just so happens that the magic circle is still useful, so let's let our spiritual power slowly penetrate, and maybe something interesting will happen. ”

"Use the spiritual power of a foodie to reshape a human ingredient?"