Theater mode, I've always been mistaken.

It's not constantly imagining that there is a person watching the character, or imagining that someone else is looking at the character. Rather, the characters look at themselves. Strictly speaking, it's one part of the character looking at another part of the character.

Actually, it's a kind of surrender.

When you fall into fear, you will not be pulled by fear with all your heart, and you will fall into the endless weaving of lies. Whether the lie is "I'm going to be finished, I won't be determined without this" or "I'm not afraid, it's not a big deal if this kind of thing happens", it's a lie.

The theater viewer mode distanced me from the characters and watched the characters be afraid. At this time, I don't resist fear, because I'm just that awareness. When I don't resist, that is, when some characters don't resist, it's a kind of surrender in itself.

The only difference is that the play-watching mode makes the fun less intense as well. It seems that there is a distance between me and everything about the character. Whether good or bad happens, they become disengaged, just like adults play games with children.

This is the difference between a custom character and a slash, one is to become a new character with "not afraid of life" as the core self-definition, no longer trapped by other people's self-definition, and play around with the banner of "not afraid of life". Of course, you can also grow old in one place.

To kill, on the other hand, is to completely destroy the dream and destroy all meaning. Whatever it is, it will no longer be invested, or rather, it will only be invested for a short time. Because no matter what happens in the dualistic world, it is not real, and it cannot surpass the only reality of "I exist".

I thought, if someone has depression, I'm going to congratulate that person. Isn't this kind of depression the beginning of agreeing that "I have nothing to do with the character"? Of course, everyone thinks that death is bad, and living is better than everything.

It doesn't matter, I'm not trying to convince anyone anyway, there's no one else in my head anymore. Maybe I'll fantasize about cool scenes, but as the separation between me and the characters increases, it becomes less and less. Of course, it will be more and more frequent in the past, because the characters are trying to survive.

Sure enough, I just said that I fantasized about being cooler, and then I started fantasizing about being cooler, which is really ......

Can the character imagine "selflessness"? I can't imagine it, maybe we can only be sure that there is such a "selflessness", but what kind of existence it is, the character can't imagine.

Damn it!

Mom is still in my head, not obviously, but I'll worry about myself ruining Mom's leisure. Perhaps, the mother will worry about her son in an unknown area, and how her son will live outside the scope of the Empire. Perhaps, my mother no longer has the chic and leisure she has now.

However, there is no logic to this kind of worry, not to mention that all this is just my own speculation, just worrying about the behavior itself, which is a typical character of "fear of life".

It's good, the levitation strikes again. imagining the future family being shattered, imagining that the future is only one living in the world, imagining that the former pursuits have become ethereal, and the whole character seems to be suspended. I can't stand firm, and I can't find a place where I can stand.

I'm worried about my mother's loss of leisure, not because I'm worried about my mother, but because I'm worried that others will say, "Look, it's Yuan Changwen, let his mother have to work hard in her old age" and something like that. If you think about it, maybe my mother won't blame me, after all, it's my mother.

Really, my mother treats me like a mother, but I treat my mother and try to kill my family. Perhaps, moral decay is not enough to describe my actions. Why, deep down, do I want my whole life to be ruined, and then, when this emotion arises, I immediately stop this imagination?

Perhaps, deep down, I knew that all this was false. After all, only "I exist" is the only truth. Even if he pretends to be the role of Yuan Changwen, he may more or less realize that life is inappropriate, and there will always be a moment when he will be in a trance.

Of course, I was afraid that the bewitching woman would easily control me again, and in the face of fear, those trances were not a big deal. After all, I have to work, buy a house, raise children, and so on.

Then destroy it!

There's always a voice deep down that keeps saying, "It doesn't matter, it's all irrelevant," so destroy it. I know that the character has nothing to do with me. But I just know intellectually, or maybe it takes some time to appreciate this state of my.

This is the contradiction, I know that I have nothing to do with the character, but every time the character worries about something, when he is worried about losing some character attributes, I will indulge the character to overcome the worry.

Like, the broken crystal ball in my hand, I always try to hold it and try not to let it fall apart. But the problem is, this crystal ball keeps breaking, and it will take me a lifetime to keep it.

The point is, why do I want to keep this crystal ball? Why do I want to maintain what I call a life?

No, since I have nothing to do with the character, why should I force the character to change? I just watched from the sidelines, he was worried that he was afraid that he would be happy, and he would rush out to save the protagonist when no one was watching the movie.

Is that what is the end of the story? Just letting the characters rule by fear, the only difference is that one part of the characters pretends to be a screen and silently watches the lives of another part of the characters. Is that all?

Go on!

I'm not done yet, further afield.

Worries, fears, don't have the right to dominate me. Isn't there enough distortion in my mind? Isn't the high wall of thinking high enough? After so many years, my life has not started at all, what is there to cling to in the template role?

Stand up, Yuan Changwen, pick up your weapon and continue to kill!

Aren't worries and fears just distortions in the mind? Aren't they based on the so-called bullshit cognition in the mind, and what qualifications do those limited things have to manipulate characters?

Come on, be broken, I want to see, when there is nothing, what else can be feared? The character of Yuan Changwen is just a combination of fear and desire, which is to ruin life, destroy the character's self-definition, and destroy those views and opinions.

Yuan Changwen flew in mid-air, suspended above the lake.

Farewell, practice.

There was no shaking of heaven and earth, and there was no colorful glow, Yuan Changwen cut off his cultivation like this. If nothing else, there is no way to continue practicing in this life. The spiritual power is about to disappear, and the starship will remain suspended in space, using the stars to replenish energy.

Yuan Changwen, on the other hand, will never be able to break out of this planet, perhaps, with the development of science and technology on this planet, he will come to space again. But now, he is just an ordinary person with no mental strength.

Perhaps, the only thing that is not ordinary is that you can still move freely in this strange green aura.

Poof!

Losing his spiritual power, Yuan Changwen fell heavily into the lake, and the splash was beautiful. Soon, however, the water fell, and there was nothing but circles and ripples on the edge of the lake.

Even the ripples faded away.