What the hell am I doing?!

One second it was easy, the next second it was uncomfortable and suddenly attacked, thinking that it was going to be over, but in fact it was far from the end at all.

My aesthetic is not my own, but has been instilled by the whole era. The point is, I don't think there's anything wrong with this at all, and I still feel comfortable looking at those pretty girls.

I can't hate aesthetics, I can't hate other false things, what is that? I still like this fake? Shit! Shit! Why don't you die!

So, what did I do? I didn't move forward at all, I didn't know what I was doing. He also said that he couldn't find a way forward, because he didn't want to move forward at all, and he didn't want to kill at all. It's just going around in circles, telling the same thing from different sides.

Say your sister!

Idleness, yes, this state is idleness. The paradox is that I think there has to be something to do, so I'm uncomfortable with this state of idleness. After all, I still follow the distortion in my mind to think, and after all, I still use limitations to think about infinity.

I thought I was coming to an end, this state of idleness was actually just my dishonesty, and I didn't see what the character of Yuan Changwen was clinging to.

I'm not done yet, so I have to move on, there's nothing else to say and nothing else to discuss. Maybe there's something wrong, maybe you still need to be cautious about the future and life, I'm cautious of your sister!

The whole dualistic world is false, why are you still here and not leaving?

Why can the character control my life, and how can he drive the ship of life. I didn't know about it, but now I know that there's a better way, why not let go, how can there be such a ridiculous choice other than in a dream?

Yuan Changwen felt his helplessness, and self-cultivation jumped into the lake, just to touch the truth. But no one says that by doing so, you can touch the truth, all of this is just your own imagination and speculation.

The fantasy scenes of those characters have become so powerful that they can't be stopped, and my mother is still smiling in my head, how many times and how many chapters have I killed, is I really moving forward? What is the use of understanding theoretically? If it can't be used on the road to slashing, it's just another decorative attribute of the character.

Berkeley, unable to prove the real existence of objective things and objective knowledge.

Hume, extreme skepticism, must be doubted except "I exist".

Sartre, I think, therefore I am, so who is aware of "I think"?

There are many, many more, aren't these people thinking better than me? These people are all well-known figures in history, aren't they as good as me?

Isn't it too arrogant and arrogant to claim that I have surpassed these figures? Or rather, I have surpassed the human species? But what is the need for the whole philosophy? Whether it is Hegel, Jung, Nietzsche, or the old man, all of them are just speculation.

Can't they see it? Can't so many brilliant people in history see this?

And those evil people with IQs as high as 130 or more, or even IQs close to 200, giants in various scientific fields, don't they know that "objective things really exist" is the premise of the entire scientific research?

What exactly are the characters still clinging to?

Yuan Changwen felt very uncomfortable, and tears quietly slipped down again. I can't cry, but I'm always in a sad mood. But it's good, if it's always been good, and you haven't finished it, then it can only mean that you really stop moving forward.

Or, not even going around in circles.

Is it possible for this life to end? Is there an end to this alternation of ease and discomfort?

I thought it was, I thought it was going to be done, but what? It's just speculation, it's just a piece of shit!

If you don't know, you should have an attitude of not knowing, and I've been self-righteous. Think about the story of the gold axe and the silver axe, I was taught to be honest from an early age, but did I do a of honesty?

If so, it is time to think about "who I am" and "what is true".

Moreover, the story of the gold and silver axe perfectly reproduces the distortion in the mind that can't do anything at all. Right, everyone wants gold and silver axes, and if you take these two axes, you will get a lot of money, which can improve your life and stop you and your family from working hard.

Even if you fail, you will only lose a worn-out iron axe, so why not gamble? Why not fight for it?

What a twisted thought in the head, what a normal way of thinking. I didn't dare to let go, I didn't dare to be honest, I didn't dare to let things unfold on their own. Always afraid of life, always trying to survive in a hostile universe.

Like a knee-shallow pool, I struggled desperately, as if I would drown as soon as I stopped. Never trying to stop struggling, even a brief pause can bring incredible relief. Perhaps, this is the effect of the stunning scenery.

Nature is so shocking that it directly shocks the characters to forget to struggle. When the character comes to his senses, all kinds of fears envelop his body again. Nature is so beautiful that many people's travelogues claim that they have lost their souls in the mountains.

So why come back? All the explanations are based on fear. If there is no fear, then why can't such a beautiful nature keep people? On the contrary, it is the work that has been abused, and the cities that have always resisted, have retained many people.

Of course, these explanations can be embellished, such as what kind of responsibility, or what kind of dream.

But, what is responsibility?

The husband supports the family, this is the responsibility. It is a responsibility to conscientiously complete the company's tasks. It is a responsibility to do your best to complete and pay attention to what you do.

It's just a rule that the empire imposes, why preach it? Isn't it the fear of irresponsible things happening, the fear of these so-called bad things, the fear of life...... Whatever!

Is there a society where husbands don't support the family, but take it for granted?

Of course, a single mother receives more social benefits than an intact family. At this time, the father will inevitably choose to leave, because this is the best and most advantageous choice.

Yuan Changwen was very sad, as if he found his helplessness, seemed to find his powerlessness, and seemed to feel that no matter how he struggled, he was just going around in circles.

I don't remember what I'm doing, and I don't know if there's an end to it. I seem to have completely violated human nature, and the things that I once cherished are now bursting like bubbles.

Of course, there is something that hasn't exploded, otherwise I'd have done it.