Think about anything you have ever done, which thing you have done without worry, without anxiety?

Only is an act that has no psychological pressure and doesn't care about the eyes of others at all.

Everything else, including eating at the company, will weigh in your mind whether the food will taste great, or whether your own food, or whether the food you bring will be despised.

These are very slight, but still weighing. There are also some life events, haha, it's just exaggerated, it seems that this thing is not carried out according to their own ideas, it is tantamount to the sky falling apart.

It's the desire to control, it's fear, it's humbleness.

Fill in some forms, each box is cautious, very afraid that you fill in the wrong way, or the handwriting is not good-looking, which affects the effect of the form.

This is influence, this is what has been occupied in my mind for a long time, and it is also the pulling point of the role of Yuan Changwen. If the character doesn't care about household hygiene, then we can't describe the character as someone who likes to clean the house.

There have to be these things like attachments, and we have to be attached to certain things in order to shape our characters.

Suddenly remembering the theater viewer mode, its most important function is not to remind yourself that it is a character, but to maintain it at any time so that you can see yourself from the perspective of the theater viewer in the most uncomfortable, anxious, and frightening moments.

When it's easy, it's easy and easy to understand when you put yourself into theater watching mode. For example, right now, I'm sitting on a bench in a psychiatric hospital, going into theater watching mode, and then I see myself sitting here from the side.

However, when I am anxious, it is not that I can't enter the theater mode, but that I can't remember the theater person mode at all. All of my mind is pulled, anxious, uncomfortable, fearful, and so on.

And I usually keep the theater viewer mode in order to still remember the theater theater mode in the most difficult moments. And when you know you're just a character, emotions are useless.

Yuan Changwen was a little puzzled, the idea of the theater viewer mode often popped up recently, especially when he found that no matter how he killed, there would be a role after all, and the theater viewer mode kept appearing in his mind.

Is this a reminder to yourself that the theater viewer mode is important?

I still remember when I first discovered the theater viewer mode, I was excited in my heart, as if my soul had found what it should have.

Of course, the soul does not exist. What if the definition of the soul is replaced by "Tao"? Then the occasional impulse in the heart and the sudden trance are "Tao" in control?

And when you are faced with these situations, you will be submissive in some situations, such as when the impact is not great. After the obedience, everything seems to be going smoothly, even the traffic lights are just right.

But there are other impulses that do not dare to obey at all. For example, quitting his job to go on a part-time trip, putting aside the show-off vanity after coming back, the moment he heard this kind of play, his heart was tumbling.

But after thinking about it carefully, I feel scary when I think about my resignation and my life after I waste. So I didn't care about my inner impulses and continued to stay at work and work hard to make money.

So, is this the "ego" preventing the manifestation of the "Tao"?

No matter how you think about it, the final situation is "fearless".

Suppose you let go, surrender, and let the Tao take control of your own ship of life. Then, emotions like fear and anxiety will not arise because you have surrendered.

Assuming that you are a character, in fact, you are a character, so for me as a screen, whatever you do has nothing to do with me. Whether you go up or down, whether it's exciting or boring, it has nothing to do with me,

I'm just that aware of how you write your life, and it has nothing to do with me. Then, emotions such as fear and anxiety still do not appear.

Mario will be sad if the princess is taken away, but what does it have to do with me?

Yuan Changwen looked at the slowly rising sun, and gradually the temperature around him rose, how long had he not played Super Mario?

The theater viewer mode is actually another kind of declaration of "I exist". Except for "I exist", everything else is unreal. Then the theater viewer mode is equivalent to letting yourself keep this in mind.

Mom's influence can always be exerted on this character, not on me. It's me who sees myself as that character, so I have the corresponding emotional pull.

And this kind of emotional pull is originally what the society of "self" needs. Characters exist to interact. Suicidal behavior like mine is the taboo of the whole show.

Oh no, not a taboo. If you really wake up, then this is the taboo of the performance, which is equivalent to quitting yourself. But he hasn't awakened yet, and this behavior is equivalent to adding to the richness of the character type.

If you take the whole society as a performance, you can see a variety of colorful character types. Some work hard for money, some for emotion, and some doubt reality and want to wake up.

Haha, I was nothing until I woke up.

Wealth and power are just the pursuit of the character, and even the awakening is only part of the character's attributes.

I suddenly felt so cruel that I wanted to kill my mother and deprive her of the influence in my mind. Thinking of my mother's crying, I couldn't bear to do it.

But is there anyone who can pity me? Isn't it pitiful that so many people and things are ruthlessly manipulating me in my mind?

No one will sympathize with me, everyone is a filial child, I must follow the tide of social morality, otherwise ......

Haha, there are no consequences, I am already in a mental hospital, what could be worse than this?

No, what could be better than this?!

I can think freely here, I can kill freely here, I have a room to sleep and eat, and I don't have to worry about anything else.

What could be better than here?

If there is really God, if the Tao is really in control, then my current state is the most perfect state, and this environment is also the best environment.

What if you spend your whole life in a mental hospital?

"Self", society, morality, and people, I am not uncommon at all.

Cognitive upgrading and Internet knowledge explosion are just children's toys.

I just want to cut out the self-woven definitions, the meanings that I cling to. It's clear that the world is not real, and it's clear that I'm not real, but I spent my whole life for this role.

Death, my friend, I have never looked at you squarely, and I have always avoided and avoided you. And you, however, are still with me, and between my every breath, there will be your breath remaining.

I will treat you as well as you have treated me.

Yuan Changwen observed his breathing, and every time he breathed, he was a little nervous. But thinking of the company of death, a friend, seems to be a lot easier.

There is also a theater viewer mode, which can completely become a god of death watching the theater!