Extra: Perhaps, in the new world, she can find a place of her own (14)

The glow of the morning sun came from the horizon, but it was still not warm enough in this early spring season, so when the breeze blew, it still brought a faint coolness. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

After Liu Wei finished speaking, the whole person quieted down, as usual.

It was that attitude all the time, neither sad nor painful, not even a flaw, as if she was narrating something that had nothing to do with herself, explaining something from the perspective of a bystander, and only exhaling softly after speaking, and that's it.

So.. Since this is the case, there is only one explanation -- get used to it, yes, you have long been accustomed to this sad environment, so that you can face everything so calmly, right? The biggest difference between human beings and animals is not only in the physical difference, because the existence of the three stages of id, ego, and superego will stand out from them.

There was a viscous feeling of oppression wafting through the air at the moment, and I was right in the middle.

I tried to keep myself awake, and after a while, I was forced to find the next topic from it

[You.. Do you live alone? from that day..]

[Well, she's busy with her job, after all.] ]

Liu Wei showed a helpless and mocking smile and responded softly.

[What about her? I mean your mother, she..]

[I will give a lot of living expenses every month, so I guess I have fulfilled my obligations.]

Paying living expenses = obligation... It seems that even if the environment is different, there are all kinds of similarities... However, it seems that there is a little better under the snow... Even if that was the case, at least there was merit.

[So, what do you mean by "shouldn't go back".] It's not that it's "unwelcome", but that's it.. Right?]

Although I wondered at first that it would be the same "family treatment" as me, after all, if it was me, no one would feel strange if I didn't go back on Christmas Eve, right?

[I'm an "unlucky person", and most of my school classmates and relatives in my family say so behind their backs. I'm not welcome to go back.]

Liu Wei looked at the sky attentively, and continued to say these words in a calm tone that made people unhappy, probably. For herself, there is really nothing worth grieving about, once she gets used to it, she just treats it as a part of her daily life.

Other words.. Blame all the blame on her? There are really other people besides me who would have this kind of thing

[Ah, when it comes to unlucky people, I guess I am too.] ]

[.... What?]

Perhaps surprised by my remarks, she looked back at me strangely, and I smiled lightly and continued

[Hawkers,People can probably be divided into three categories.,Let's not talk about the ordinary.,The other two.,One is the existence that can stir up the atmosphere as long as it's present.、Similar to the existence of a central point.,And the other is completely unpopular.,Even the kind that will make the atmosphere bad as long as it exists.] I'm the second type, and the top one.]

[... This kind of thing: No need for sympathy..]

[It's not sympathy, it's the same feeling.] For example, I was the only guy who was searched after losing something in the class, and for example, I fell asleep at the airport during a school trip, and the plane had already taken off when I woke up.

After reminiscing with a feeling of self-deprecation, I looked at Liu Wei, and she also tilted her head slightly to look at me

[Even, only a few people in my class who have been studying together for three years can remember my name.] Don't talk about friends or anything like that, it's a word that only exists in the dictionary. ]

....

Liu Wei stared at my face in a daze for a few seconds before he said calmly

[That's really...]

[Amazing, isn't it?

[No.. It's more like it's than it's... Be optimistic. ]

[There's no way, isn't it.,Some things.By the way,At the time... There was also a period of fantasy .. Like tomorrow everything will be fine or something... As a result, it's all fantasy... Sometimes I really have to admit that the dividing line between reality and fantasy is really difficult to cross, and it can be regarded as a form of self-deception.]

As he spoke, a wave of exhaustion crept up his body, and he unconsciously leaned back in his chair, tilting his head and looking at the sky... Ahh The so-called commonalities should be like this.

Good people will be excluded, so there are rumors of "bad luck", why? Of course, it is because of the lies fabricated by those who are jealous in order to achieve their own "revenge" mentality, so... In these aspects, she is also very hard.

[... People who try to change the world are stupid and want to change... It can only be human.]

Perhaps, it was because I thought of the past and the many things that had happened, and I said this sentence unconsciously.

[As long as people change, the environment will change with them.] Then, we might be able to change the world. ]

Every day, many people are lost in this world for various reasons, but it's not that nothing has changed, has it? There are only people and things related to them. Probably, this is the limit of ordinary people.

[If that's comforting to me...] Thank you. ]

Liu Wei shook his head and said softly, with an almost pleasant smile on his face, with a little miserable, but not completely... It's so elusive that you can't capture the useful information in it.

It's just that after reading it, I will more or less keep it in my heart.

Perhaps, for her to say these words after knowing it, whether it is comfort or sympathy, she will not be able to get the desired result, or even let her relax a little. If it's taken as a comfort, it's a good outcome.

I looked at her quietly, my side face was still so calm, looking into the distance.

So, what can I do now?

Think about it... Think about what you should and can do next, for her and for me.

Once upon a time, I also experienced, such a similar environment and world, and how to understand how a person can find the pleasure of not being in his own world, or find a corner that can accommodate himself in the middle of the night wandering alone...

What is the reason for finally coming out?

That's the answer I need the most.