I'm not going to self-immolate, the things in this world that can make me desperate to die, I think about it, maybe it's only disfigurement.

Li Baitian was disdainful, he said: "Praise you twice, do you really take yourself as a heavenly immortal?"

I didn't take my own immortals, I don't know if you remember "No. 8 Pawnshop", let you exchange the most precious thing for a desire. I finally realized after thinking about it for a long time, I don't change, at least in my idle life, there is nothing more precious than what I already have.

Such as family, such as health, such as conscience. I have always ranked love after these three things, I am not a woman who uses love as the driving force for survival, so I will lose Li Hua so easily.

I said, "If you want to cut off the little dingding?"

Li Baitian: "I'd rather die with dignity!"

I laughed on the phone.

Li Baitiannian turned back into bitterness in me now, and said to take me out to relax. I don't know whether to empty or indulge.

Recently, I have been busy with work, although there is no progress, and people are in the glitzy center of Beijing, but those sheng songs in the bars and the ambiguous entanglement in the streets and alleys have nothing to do with me.

Bar, although Li Baitian doesn't like to drink, he likes to go to the bar because there are beautiful girls in the bar. But Li Baitian is not a girl who does it, his eyes are generally locked on unfamiliar girls.

The nightclub is a crowded place, the more the lights flicker, the easier it is to get lost, and everyone who comes and goes, rubbing shoulders, seems to be very familiar.

I'm a little hungry, Li Baitian doesn't drink it, I just have a sip of it. Going to a bar to drink foreign wine, thinking about it, it seems to be something I did with Li Hua and them in college, since I entered the society, about the wine field, I am either busy or hiding.

Then Lee told me about the legends in the bar.

He pointed to a woman who was fighting with others and told me: "This, the famous 100 people beheaded, the number of people in the capital, basically all of them, now a professional wine trust." ”

I swept the girl's shiny name tag and said, "Then she won't say save 1.8 million now, right?"

Li Baitian "sighed" and said: "It's better to find the rich second generation than to find the old man, people can spend money on you, so they don't put the money directly in your hands." ”

I thought about it, and it seems that most of the time, this is indeed the case.

For another person, Li Baitian said again, "Does this woman know?"

"It seems a little familiar, have you acted in a TV series?"

Li Baitian gave me a thumbs up and said, "When I first met her, I was older than you, and then I heard that there were a lot of directors and producers who slept with her, and you look at her like she is now." ”

I look at the girl, it's quite lonely.

Li Baitian asked me, "Do you know why not?"

I shook my head. Li Baitian took a sip of watermelon juice, "Bad luck, I didn't sleep with the right person." ”

"What kind of sleep should you sleep on?" I asked.

Li Baitian was still disdainful, "I don't want her yet, I have to ...... Huh?" he said, glancing at my chest with a wicked smile. This is a hint of Hongguoguo's surname, and I cleared my throat and pulled the collar up.

Li Baitian still smiled evilly, opened his arms and said, "Come on, sister, come into my brother's arms." ”

I reached out and nudged him on the chest, twisting my face to smile secretly. I know that Li Baitian is not a serious person, and I also know that he has never broken off his careful thoughts about me, but before this, I didn't plan to really have anything to do with him, even if I don't have a boyfriend anymore, half a year has passed, I should emancipate my mind, that's not good.

I think if I take a nap, I might lose a friend.

As we were leaving, Li Baitian took an unprecedented glass of wine, then pulled me out and stuffed me into the car. I said, "Brother, don't you pour a cup?"

He said, "It's okay once in a while, my brother will take you for a ride." ”

Then I got into the thief's car, and this grandson took him to a barren countryside, and on that barren mountain and mountain, Li Baitian said a lot to me, and let me see this person clearly.

After stopping the car, Li Baitian said, "Sister, if you really want to become popular overnight, it's not impossible, but you have to know that in this society, you have to pay a price for everything." Success purely by hard work, that is the last century, now pay attention to the rules of the industry, and you are now an outlier, the rules do not allow the outlier to survive, unless the background of the outlier is very hard. ”

I looked at Li Baitian, and I didn't know what he was going to say for the time being, so I didn't bother.

Li Baitian continued: "My brother has played with actresses over the years, and I can't say that I have fun, but I am still very sincere to them. Miscellaneous and miscellaneous, you can name it, you have to have twenty. Of course, they are not the only ones who have been with me, as far as I can see, none of them are lazier than you, they are all hard-working, and they are all very motivated. ”

"Then why are they messing with you......" I asked in a whispered voice.

Li Baitian then said plainly, "For the sake of possibility." Among these women, there are some who are sincere, who want to be with me, and there are also those I really like. The most difficult desire for people to resist is not real money and benefits, but a possibility, even thousands of possibilities, just like if you like someone, he gives you a good face, you can't control yourself, the reason is the possibility behind it. ”

I seemed to be able to understand what he was saying, and I remembered that at the beginning, when I liked Li Hua, I thought Li Hua didn't like me. How many times have I gritted my teeth to stop worrying about him, but a phone call from him can arouse all my enthusiasm.

"Why are you telling me this?" I asked.

Li Baitian said seriously: "I'm just telling you that I can give you this possibility." Those women and me, some of them are because they want to be popular, and some of them may really want to live with me, but I don't like to talk about falsehood, and I give them all that I can give. But you have to have something to put with me, and I can't let myself suffer. ”

I bowed my head silently, and I thought I knew what Li Baitian meant. He is now giving me a choice, taking refuge in his arms, and he will give me as much as he wants. Otherwise, no matter how deep the friendship is, he will not break his principles.

I asked, "And did you all keep in touch with each other?"

"Yes," Li Baitian replied naturally, "Actually, I help them, and sometimes I help myself." It is not excluded that I will also be able to use them in the future. ”

For example, which important person is invited to dinner, called out to accompany a drink or something?

I said, "Li Baitian, you are so realistic, do they know the women who have been with you?"

Li Baitian thought about it seriously, "Some I will say, like you, I really like it, and I don't want to lie to them." Needless to say, those women know it in their own hearts, and there are those kinds, you told her, and she didn't understand. ”

I asked, "You've said that, and they're still willing to follow you?"

Li Baitian thought about it seriously again and smacked his mouth, "It seems that there is really no one who is unwilling to do it, well, it is true." ”

"Why?"

"Didn't I tell you, possibility!" Li Baitian emphasized the last three words. Then he glanced at me, "But I really like you, and I can't keep it, I like you today, and I like someone else tomorrow." But I certainly don't owe you what I should give you. ”

"Okay sister, I've told you so much, you're not really stupid, what do I mean, you understand, you want to stick to the path of an actor, the day of the day is sooner or later, and I'm better than anyone else. He looked at me again, "When you think clearly, go to the back." ”

I originally thought that Li Baitian was a good person, but now I know that he is willing to help me so much, but in fact, he is waiting for me here.

When I haven't stepped into the circle, when I'm not bullshit, I will be more cautious than now, although I will also be tempted, but I know that those temptations are not related to me, even if I go out to do something, I may not be able to get the desired return. But now, I have squeezed myself into the threshold of the entertainment industry, I have seen the glamour of the entertainment industry, and I have also felt the enchantment when it beckons to me, and I know what possibilities are hidden behind the door.

On the one hand, I was entangled in the contract of the brokerage company, and on the other hand, I was subjected to the most complete ban, which was my dream of even fighting for love, and I wavered when I had nothing left but these possibilities.

Li Baitian said that if he wants to sleep with a woman, deception or forcible taking is certainly a method, but he prefers to be more logical. Since he met me, he has been paving the way for so long, waiting for the day when I will be difficult to ride a tiger.

This is also Li Baitian, he is very good to me, I know that I will not suffer with him, he is not a good person, and he is definitely not a bad person, he will not embarrass me.

If I have to find such a backer in the end, then Li Baitian is the best choice. But this choice is not here for me to choose at any time, as he said, he likes me today, and he may like someone else tomorrow, and there is only one chance.

I thought I figured it out, so I got out of the passenger seat in a daze, pulled the door open and got into the back seat.

Li Baitian also got out of the driver's seat and followed to the back seat.

I didn't want to say anything, I lowered my head and bit my lip, this time I might really be selling myself. He understood, took me into his arms and kissed me with his face.

God knows how long I haven't kissed someone, the last time it was Li Hua, every time I could think of it was Li Hua, my heart twitched, and I pushed Li Baitian away.

I couldn't help but redden, and I said seriously, "I gave up." ”

"Huh?"

"I don't want to be an actor anymore. ”