This is the third time in half a year that Du Jiayin has come to see me, and I still haven't gone out.

I'm afraid she'll see me as I am. Will cry out in distress.

When I was brushing my teeth in the morning, I saw in the mirror that I had two gray hairs on my sideburns, and suddenly I stood with my toothbrush in my mouth for a minute, until the person behind me urged me to spit out the foam in my mouth.

Life in this is really completely mechanized, getting up every day according to the time, then going to work in the factory, and then going to bed according to the time.

I've been doing well. Because Lawyer Shen said that if the labor reform is good, the sentence will be appropriately commuted, and I only want to use this method to alleviate Du Jiayin's guilt for me.

I still remember that when I first met Du Jiayin, she came to my house to apply for a tutor, and she was introduced by my brother-in-law.

I kept standing on the stairs and looking at her from an angle I could see, but she couldn't see me.

Some of the questions my sister asked her were particularly tricky. But she answered calmly, and then she sat down and played "To Alice" at the piano, and as she put her fingers on the keys, I felt her whole body come alive.

So. When my sister was not optimistic about her, I stood up and chose her to let her stay.

She threw me a grateful glance, and I snorted and looked away.

Actually, it's not really dragging, but I feel that the roots of my ears are a little hot, and I guess I'm blushing.

Du Jiayin is the kind of woman who is very realistic and likes money, and I despised this kind of woman at first. This kind of woman is better to send away.

However, I later learned that she was asking for money because she wanted to feed the ice cream.

When Du Jiayin was my tutor, she was a female student who had just entered college, with braids, no makeup on her face, and no makeup at all.

If I hadn't seen the aura in her eyes and the way she sat down and played the piano, I would have looked at her like my sister, with the eyes of a rich man looking at a poor man, but thankfully, I didn't miss her.

I remember that after a monthly exam, I put the test paper on the table. But after a while, Du Jiayin came to my house to teach me the piano, and accidentally saw my roll, and she reached out to take me first and hold it in her hand.

Du Jiayin raised the corners of her eyes: "Didn't pass again?"

I put the paper in my bag and ignored her.

She said thoughtfully, "Oh, how many points did you score?"

I just threw the roll on the table: "Look, look! don't you just want to see my jokes!"

She smiled and shrugged her shoulders, "Forty-six points, an improvement from last time." ”

It sounded sarcastic to my ears, and I looked at her breezy face, and my teeth itched with hatred.

In fact, before Du Jiayin came, I had changed a few piano tutors, and there were violin tutors before, I was not interested in musical instruments, I didn't have any musical cells at all, and singing was too, and the five notes were incomplete, but in the upper circle, there must always be a skill, and the reason why I agreed was that I actually learned some musical instruments, which could be used to pick up girls in the future.

At the beginning, I didn't like Du Jiayin, and even thought she was very annoying.

I deliberately made her ugly, and it happened that my buddy Su Youqi held a small birthday party, and in the villa at home, I thought I had no female companion, so I asked her to accompany me to participate.

It was summer, and she was simply wearing shorts and a wide T-shirt, and I couldn't help but drag her into the car and stare at me.

I ignored her and just stepped on the gas.

She didn't say a word to me all the way, and when she arrived at the door of the villa, I asked her to get out of the car, and she said: "Li Zhengke, I will indulge you this time, if there is a second time, I will definitely ignore you again." ”

I laughed when I heard this, he obviously still regarded me as a child, otherwise he would not have used such childish words to dismiss me.

I suddenly took her hand and leaned forward, intending to tease her in this way, but when I saw her eyelashes like little brushes up close, and my breath on my face, I couldn't move.

Du Jiayin pushed me away, as if she didn't care at all, brushed her clothes, and her eyes lit up when she looked up at me: "I'm blushing." ”

"You ......"

"Come in, if your sister sees it, maybe the next time the salary will not be settled, and she will directly take a broom and drive me out. ”

I pursed the corners of my lips, I was really molested instead of being molested. The regiment led the peasants to death.

However, the purpose of embarrassing Du Jiayin was finally achieved, because in the villa, all the children who came were rich children, wearing expensive dresses, and the female companions were wearing dresses and skirts made by famous designers.

In front of the villa, there is a large swimming pool with many neon lights around the pool, which sparkles on the pool.

Around the pool, there were people standing in pairs toasting and talking, and some dancing slowly to the music, and I followed Du Jiayin, standing on the edge of the pool, looking at the pool with her gaze.

Behind him, the voices of two people clearly reached the eardrums.

"Look at this woman, she's really dead. ”

"I don't know how I got to the top, it's disgusting. ”

My heart is on fire, these people are all Su Youqi found from where, I really have no cultivation at all, I am angry when I hear it, although I am the culprit who brought Du Jiayin here.

As soon as I turned around, I was grabbed by Du Jiayin's wrist as soon as I said a word.

Her fingers are slender and delicate, because she is learning the piano, a pair of beautiful hands can be used as a hand model, the skin of her palm fell on my wrist, and burned me.

"I've heard these words a lot, so don't give me a head over this, don't get into trouble. ”

When Du Jiayin said these words, she turned her back to me, still looking at the glistening pool in front of her, her hair gently brushing against my face.

I said, "How much have you been through?"

Du Jiayin smiled and didn't answer, but after a while, she suddenly turned her head and patted me lightly on the shoulder: "Anyway, it's more than you've experienced, you have to work hard, Zhengke." ”

This is the sentence that Du Jiayin said to me the most.

That is, Li Zhengke, you have to work hard.

Since then, I have occasionally had to take Du Jiayin to some banquets, but the difference is that the banquets I go to attend will prepare dresses, high heels and jewelry for Du Jiayin.

Although Du Jiayin came out of a small city, she has a temperament, maybe everyone who studies music has this kind of temperament that comes out of her bones, I always feel that the more I look at her, the more different it is.

There are a lot of girls chasing me at school, it's not that I'm narcissistic, I get a lot of love letters every day.

However, I just don't call them, on the contrary, when I see them, I think of that beautiful figure, day after day, it is a bit of a deep meaning.

After the mid-term exam, the school held a parent-teacher meeting as usual, but it was a pity that my father's company was busy at that time, my mother went back to her parents' house, and my sister didn't have time to care about my affairs because she went to catch my brother-in-law's junior, so I thought of Du Jiayin for the first time.

Du Jiayin called Du Jiayin and no one answered, so I simply drove directly to her school.

This is not the first time I have entered the university gate, I have followed some friends to the stadium to play, and I have also come in, but this time, I really have some small apprehension in my heart, for the sake of a woman, this is the first time for me.

When I entered the school, I parked the car in the parking space, and I got out of the car and called Du Jiayin.

Leaning against the car door and listening to the sound of the phone in my ear, I noticed that the eyes of the passing girls fell on me.

I just paid attention to what I was wearing today, fortunately I didn't wear a high school uniform, a casual suit is very flattering, it shouldn't be ashamed.

When I made the third call, Du Jiayin answered the phone and asked, "What's the matter?"

Perhaps, in Du Jiayin's impression, I can't call her if I have nothing to do.

I was stunned for a moment, and Du Jiayin asked again: "Is this week's piano lesson time going to be postponed?"

Can I only look for her as a tutor?

I said, "If you come out now, I'm under the electronic screen at the west entrance of your school, and if you don't come, I'll go directly to your department." ”

After saying that, I hung up the phone thinking that I was very imposing.

However, after saying these words, I regret it.

Since you want to change this image in front of her, you must not threaten her in this pediatric way anymore, but only this method works.

Sure enough, in just half an hour, she came, straddled a bag, her hair not tied up but scattered at the back of her head, and she looked a lot more mature.

I didn't want to tell her about asking her to help me hold a parent-teacher conference, but Du Jiayin squinted her eyes: "Do you want to say it? ”

"Hey," I finally came to the car, and I opened the car door for her, "Help me have a parent-teacher conference, my family doesn't have time." ”

Du Jiayin didn't seem to react for a while, it is estimated that this is the first time she has held a parent-teacher conference for others, "In what capacity?"

I said, "My sister." ”

I really don't know, I should blame me for this crow's mouth, it's really nice to say that it's a prophecy, two years later, I really heard that Du Jiayin is my half-sister, I immediately bit the tip of my tongue, and a strong smell of blood rushed into my mouth.

I really didn't expect that.

If I thought about it, I would definitely nip this ignorant feeling for Du Jiayin in the bud, instead of letting it grow wantonly like a wildfire.

My feelings for Du Jiayin, when Lu Jingzhong and my brother appeared, I had actually received a cold snap from Siberia, when I stood diagonally opposite Du Jiayin, and saw her eyes that valued her brother, I knew that it was unattainable in this life, and I realized that I was finished, and a relationship that took two years to manage finally died without flowering and bearing fruit.

Du Jiayin once asked me why she admired Brother Chong so much.

The Du Jiayin I answered was a very official answer, what is handsome, resilient and good to sing.

Actually, I worship Brother Chong just because Brother Chong saved me when he was young.

When I was very young, about three or four years old, I was abducted and trafficked by traffickers once, it was winter, and I had chilblains on my body, and those traffickers were not human at all, so they opened my clothes and used the bruises and chilblains on my body to win the sympathy of people and ask for money.

I didn't think I remembered, but even now that I think about it, I feel so close, even if it's just a fragment.

In these clips, the most vivid memory is when Brother Chong came down from the sky to save me.

At that time, Brother Chong was only a teenager, but he was carrying a large piece of cement gypsum board on his back, and when he heard my cry, he rescued me, and taught the traffickers a heavy lesson by the way.

After Du Jiayin and Brother Chong's previous affairs were exposed little by little, I hinted to myself countless times in my heart that in fact, even if it wasn't Lu Jingzhong at that time, there would be a police officer to find me, and I would be fine.

However, this kind of psychological suggestion is useless at all, and I still regard Brother Chong as an idol as always.

If it was someone else, I could still rob it openly, even if I couldn't be open, it was okay to hide a knife in secret, but I was willing to back down only for Brother Chong.

During the time that Brother Zhong was with Jiayin, I tried to have two girlfriends, one was a classmate at school, and the other met at a banquet in the upper class.

The classmate at school is called Bai Xiao, her family background is not good, like Du Jiayin, she is also from a small city, but she is also beautiful and lovely, but what I am most unaccustomed to about her is that she obviously likes money and likes some expensive things for me to buy, but she makes that kind of money that I am willing to buy for her, she actually regards money as dung, which I have to give her.

So, after I swiped 2,000 yuan to buy her a skirt again, she pretended to excuse herself, and I returned the skirt directly.

She was dumbfounded, and even the shopping guide lady on the side didn't expect it.

I texted her the next day to say we were breaking up.

Later, that is, the second, a famous lady in the upper circle, met at a commercial drinking party, this is even more hypocritical, I don't want to stay with her for a minute.

I would always compare these women with Du Jiayin, which I didn't even realize at the time, but when I knew it later, it was too late to curb it.

One night, my sister asked me, "Do you have someone you like?"

Du Jiayin's face immediately appeared in my mind, but I still said nonchalantly: "No." ”

My sister looked at me in disbelief: "Don't think you can see how deep you are hiding now." ”

No way.

If others can see it, can Du Jiayin also see it?

Do you want to ask her if you know I like her?

But this kind of liking can only be buried in my heart.

There's absolutely no way I'm going to spoil Brother Chong.

I started to get into a mess again, I went to school just to mess around, I didn't want to do anything, and I felt bored sleeping on my desk all day.

But I know that I have to curb the idea that I am spreading wildly now, I can't like Du Jiayin anymore, because Du Jiayin has a heavy brother.

Su Youqi also sensed that something was wrong with me, so he asked me, "You have been a little wrong these days." ”

Su Youqi is a good buddy of mine, so I said bluntly, "I like someone." ”

"If you like it, chase it. ”

"But she doesn't like me, she likes someone else. ”

"Who does she like about you, you like you," Su Youqi looked at me very strangely, "It's rare, there is a ...... who doesn't dump our little master Zhengke"

"Get out!" I kicked him up.

However, after Su Youqi said this, I gradually had a bottom in my heart.

I can still like Du Jiayin, why should I suppress this thought, just hide it in my heart.

When I think about it, I am relieved.

Brother Chong's flight crashed!

When I swiped this message on the circle of friends, my brain went blank.

In the first second I regained consciousness, the first thought I thought of breaking in was what should Du Jiayin do?!

Almost as soon as the thought broke in, I rushed out of my room, and when I went downstairs, I stepped on a flight of steps, and when I got downstairs, I saw a completely strange man, standing in front of my mother, and my mother's eyes were wide in astonishment, and I saw her tears running down her cheeks.

I immediately ran over and took my mom behind me, "What do you want to do?"

The man was leaning slightly on the back of the couch and was squinting at me, his eyes full of imperceptible anger.

He saw my defensive eyes and smiled: "Li Zhengke, Du Jiayin is your own sister." ”

My head exploded with a bang.

My mom had already collapsed on the sofa and covered her face, "It's good to just tell me about this kind of thing, why bother Zhengke......"

In the blank space, I heard the man in front of me say, "He must know." ”

This man's name is Gu Qingcheng, I only learned later, he is Du Jiayin's half-brother.

At that time, I thought my mother shouldn't understand why Gu Qingcheng would say such a thing, but I felt that in an instant, I was seen through by Gu Qingcheng, and he knew exactly what I was thinking.

I felt like something was crumbling in my heart.

I looked at my mother behind me and knew that I couldn't lose my mind now, so I helped my mother to the room first and asked, "Jiayin is also my father's ......"

My mom shook her head, "No, you and your sister are your father's children." ”

As soon as my mother said this, I understood, I gritted my teeth: "Mom, you must be calm now, I don't know how you fooled my dad back then, now you have to be quiet, if you really let my dad know, do you want my dad to deal with Du Jiayin?"

My mom calmed down, "I know. ”

After appeasing my mother, I went downstairs to greet Gu Qingcheng.

Gu Qingcheng was standing in front of the window with his hands behind his back, I walked over, I felt that the closer I got to him, the more I felt that this person's aura was strong, took a deep breath, and said, "You go, you are not welcome here." ”

"Don't you welcome me?welcome your half-sister Du Jiayin?" Gu Qingcheng smiled, "Really, Li Zhengke, let me tell you, there are some thoughts that should be nipped in the bud, otherwise you will suffer by yourself." ”

I was so excited by his words that I said, "What if she's my sister? ”

"That's the best," Gu Qingcheng lit a cigarette, "Ward 1231 of the city hospital, your sister is there." ”

"What's wrong with her?!" I was in a hurry.

Gu Qingcheng said, "It's not a big deal, I've already gone to see it." ”

However, this night, I did not go to the hospital.

I was at home, and I sat all night, and I heard my dad come back and quarrel with my mom, but it didn't seem to be because of Du Jiayin's matter.

I didn't go down to persuade the fight, but my sister went down.

The next afternoon, I went to the hospital.

But as soon as I arrived at the door, I saw Du Jiayin and Gao Ming, the two of them were arguing about something, and when they approached, I heard that it was because Du Jiayin wanted to go to the search and rescue boat on the beach.

Gao Ming's words were particularly impulsive, so I argued: "Why are you yelling at my sister! Aren't you just a little assistant? Now that Brother Chong is dead! What do you still want? You haven't lost your love, of course you can't feel this way!"

When I said the words "lost my love", my heart ached.

Gao Ming glanced at me and instructed me a few times.

Du Jiayin's face was pale, it was completely gray, and there was no aura at all, I could imagine how big the blow to her was from this accident.

She was a little exhausted and leaned against me, and I held her wrist and my heart was beating violently.

I said, "Brother Chong will be fine." ”

This time, Lan Xuan also went together.

After all, Lan Xuan is Brother Chong's girlfriend on the surface.

However, when I was on the dock, a group of reporters flocked to interview Lan Xuan's views on the unclear life and death of my brother, I felt that Jiayin beside me was trembling, and I asked, "Jiayin, are you cold?"

Du Jiayin shook her head: "No." ”

On the search and rescue boat, she didn't rest for a day and a night, and I was on the side, holding her an umbrella and holding her when she was tired, so that she could have a shoulder to lean on.

Finally, when there was still no news, I asked her, "What if...... I mean, if ...... If he's gone......"

Du Jiayin said: "Even if he is gone, I will treat him as him." ”

In the past two days, I have seen her hard work, she is seasick, vomiting, her face is as pale as paper, her pupils are almost transparent, every time she holds on to the railing and retchs, my heart is pinched together, that is, from that time on, I strengthened my name for her, called her "sister", almost every word without leaving my mouth, I thought that in this way, I could strengthen myself and lead those distorted likes to the right path.

On the right road......

I was shocked by this feeling, is it really a twisted psychology?