My dad was hospitalized for more than half a month, and he was still very good at taking care of him in the later stage, that is, he had to pay attention to his diet very carefully and not let him eat messy things. Half a month later, the year was over, and I took my dad out of the hospital and went home.

My brother is very busy now, and now he basically doesn't learn anything except English, and the school doesn't care about him.

My stepmom is trying to make money everywhere, and she doesn't care about him.

Things at home are in a mess, I really can't afford to solve the emotional problem, and I called the company to continue to ask for leave, which is also a loss to the boss Li Baitian is my acquaintance, or I guess I have to lose my job by now.

One of the problems I face again now is poverty.

Sometimes I'm so poor that I rob my brother of pocket money, hey, I'm twenty-four or five, it's shabby. I thought that when my dad recovers, there is nothing wrong here, I still have to go back to Beijing to work, and I want to thank Li Baitian for providing me with a good enough platform to let me, a little girl from a broken art school, have a fairly adequate job.

Before I was ready to leave, I cheekily went to my mother to borrow money. When I go to Beijing, how can I have some money in my hand, and after the previous month, I can't go back and trouble Li Baitian.

My mother is very angry with me for not coming back for the New Year for two years, I can't help it, last year's New Year was solving Lan Tian, and this year's New Year was solving my dad.

Then my mom asked me, "Where's your boyfriend? ”

I was annoyed when I heard her babbling, and I said, "They're getting married." ”

My mother almost jumped up, and at this time, she didn't relieve her daughter, and if she wanted to open a little cloud, she directly began to count me down. said that I must be very ignorant, people don't want me anymore, saying that I am so dead, how can I marry in the future, saying that I haven't married yet, and she feels blushful when she walks out of the door now.

Because I'm a small place, girls marry relatively early.

My mother also gave me an example, saying: "Your aunt's cousin is one year older than you, and now in Q City, she doesn't even have a boyfriend, and she is doing well. ”

I said, "Mom, why don't you think about people for the better, what's wrong with people who have good lives?"

My mother said, "Why don't you get married if you have the ability, can't you have children?" ”

I rubbed it, I was really angry with her. When I was angry, I didn't speak, my mother continued to chatter, it was all kinds of persuasion to get married early, it was embarrassing not to get married, no matter how old you get, the harder it is to get married, talking and talking, and talking about Shen Song again.

Shen Song really has the ability, my own mother and my stepmother haven't seen each other for many years, but they regard each other as enemies, and only Shen Song can coax these two old women into obedience.

Shen Song is a standard phoenix man, in the eyes of my mother's generation, he is too good to be married, and he can earn money and live.

When I came out of my mother's house, Shen Song called me and said that I wanted to come and pick it up, but I was very polite, "Don't come over!"

I really don't want to drag down Shen Song, the better he is, the more I don't want to drag him down, why should I drag him down, since he is a good man, he deserves a good girl, a girl who only loves him wholeheartedly, from this point of view, I am not worthy of others.

But I came out for a while, and my father had a stomachache at home again.

The reason is that my brother gave him something that was not suitable for him, these days, because I pay too much attention to my dad's diet, so he is a little hungry, he is very greedy, and my brother does not understand this kind of thing. Anyway, the two of them tossed something wrong again.

At first, I thought it was food poisoning, or Shen Song took my dad to the hospital, but after the examination, he said that it was another intestinal infarction.

It's only been a month since his last surgery, and now it's not a toss to death if he has another operation, and the doctor said that it should be treated conservatively first. Seeing my dad screaming in pain in the hospital bed, I was so upset.

I went out and scolded my brother again.

I haven't scolded my brother for a long time, I'm too irritable today, I scolded very fiercely, my brother is also a young man of eighteen or nineteen, unlike when I was a child, I scolded him and cried, now he will talk back.

He likes to shirk responsibility, so he said: "Then you are outside for a year, no one cares, our father should still eat and drink, you will be sick as soon as you come back." ”

What's the matter, my dad is sick or my nemesis? I feel unhappy in my heart, I said, "Isn't he different now!"

My brother said, "Then I don't know, I still have to go to school, and when I go abroad in the future, my mother won't take care of him, what do you think about what to do." ”

Ahhhh

Shen Song couldn't listen anymore next to him, he said, "How can you talk to your sister, it's not your father who is lying down, right?"

My brother felt a little reasonable, but he refused to lose, and said: "Then I can't not go abroad because of this, so what will he do in the future, my sister is like this, she can't care about it." ”

I was even more upset, and yelled at him: "Do you mean that you want our dad to die soon!"

After saying this, I couldn't help crying, I think my father is so miserable, finding a wife who thinks he is not in good health, my son is just thinking about going abroad and thinking about his own affairs, and my daughter has no ability, and I can't even find a son-in-law for him.

At this time, Shen Song suddenly became a master, pointed to my brother's nose and said, "I don't need you anymore, I'll take care of it, your father will be in my charge in the future, get out!"

I have always felt that Shen Song is a gentle man, and when he is tired of hardship, he has to find his mother to cry and complain, I have never seen him scold my brother so manly when he is such a man.

But I'm in a bad mood now, I'm still crying, and I haven't had time to move or anything, just because my dad feels aggrieved and panicked.

My brother let Shen Song scare away.

I didn't cry anymore, I sat outside the ward with my arms and got angry, Shen Song finished his cruel words, he stood there stunned for a while, and then sat next to me to comfort, he said: "Youyou, don't worry, your dad will call me as soon as possible if there is anything, I still don't believe it, let's work hard to make your dad die." ”

At a certain moment, I was indeed touched by him, but I am a close and distant person, and I don't want to trouble him when I don't have to, so I snorted and said, "Okay, thank you, let's go back first, I can see it." ”

Shen Song still has a job, and he can't spend it with me in the hospital.

My dad's condition this time was not very serious, and after a few days of conservative treatment, the intestines should come down smoothly. It's just that I don't dare to go now, I'm afraid that if I walk on the front foot, he will have something to do with the back foot.

I also thought about taking my dad to Beijing directly, but it is more troublesome to see a doctor in Beijing, so don't delay it because of the number.

I was planning every day, worrying every day, and finally one day, I was worried about myself.

Before, because I was in the hospital with the bed, I didn't sleep well at night, and my body was disordered. After my dad was discharged from the hospital, I found out that I had a problem, that is, I would be woken up by the sound of my own breathing when I was sleeping.

It's not the sound of shouting, it's the sound of pulling and pulling like a bellows, and sometimes I can hear that strange sound even when I speak, but this strange sound is only felt by me. Will be tempted to cough at night.

At first, I didn't pay much attention to it, because usually when I wake up in the morning, I'm fine, and I think it's over. But the feeling of being woken up at night by the sound of breathing was terrifying, and I couldn't breathe a breath out of it, and I couldn't wake up again.

So I went to the hospital, which was too small and the diagnosis was not accurate enough, and at first I thought it was pneumonia, and I was forced to be hospitalized. I was treated for pneumonia for a while, because I was allergic to one of the drugs, and the treatment was delayed for a while.

And my own body is getting worse and worse, and my bronchial tubes are not good.

During the hospitalization, I did various examinations, and the blood indicators were also abnormal, and the doctor said that my physical condition was too bad, especially the miscarriage that year, Xiao Yuezi did not sit well, and in less than a month, I skipped the cold water for filming, which was all the rhythm of life as death.

I was afraid of death, so I cooperated with the treatment, and the doctor said that I couldn't be tired and couldn't feel stressed, so I tried to make myself think about nothing. After being hospitalized for a few days, I spent the thousands of yuan I borrowed from my mother last time, and when my father was hospitalized, I spent a lot of money, and Shen Song's money had not been repaid.

I said I don't worry, but can I not worry?

So the condition is getting worse and worse, and the medicine I take is not very effective. Later, I started to do physicochemistry, and I also had to do a flexible bronchoscopy, the kind of examination that goes down the tube from the nose. Before doing it, you need to inhale the anesthetic first, suck the whole mouth to the lips are numb, and then insert the tube, the tube is very difficult to insert, after inserting it, I want to cough but can't cough it out, and the nose and mouth are bleeding out of some I don't know if it's blood or something messy.

I used to feel like I was dead, and this feeling was as uncomfortable as death, and it was better to let myself die happily.

Since the tube was inserted, I was coughing and my mouth was running out of my mouth, and then I took the test sheet and went from one hospital building to another.

The spring breeze in the city is blowing, I am wearing a skirt, and I am blown by the wind and keep turning at night, I press the left side to turn the right side, and I press the right side to turn the left side.

I endured all kinds of treatment examinations strongly, and finally I was defeated by this disobedient skirt, and I cried in the spring breeze with my mouth open.

I cried so much that I didn't want to live.

Then Shen Song ran over from the parking lot, stood next to me to help block the wind, and rolled up the test sheet in my hand that was about to be blown by the wind.