With all my grief and pain, I left Nevada and boarded the plane back to Shanghai.

It was a full moon night, and I looked out at the moon through the porthole of the plane, in a daze.

When the plane landed in Shanghai, I stepped off the plane and watched the sun rise in the distance. With his head down, he walked out of the airport in silence. When I saw the personnel girls pushing the two babies from a distance at the exit of the station, my nose was sore, and I immediately rushed up to hold her in my arms, and her body was fat and her belly was high and bulging. In front of him sat two five-month-old children in a stroller. Both children looked at me with wide eyes as if they were guessing who this person was.

On the way back, the personnel lady told me that she had been following my news and was waiting for me to come back. If it weren't for the need to take care of the children and not being able to leave, she would have the idea of going abroad to find me. My throat was choked and I couldn't speak. The two children were taken care of by her, and I did not fulfill my duties as a father, I dragged the hands of the women, and wanted to say thank you to her, but the words reached my throat and could no longer speak. Because she was looking at me with a sloppy beard and unkempt hair, her eyes were full of pity, and there was not the slightest trace of complaint or resentment.

In life, you always need to look forward. If I only stare at the dead Bai Lu, I am afraid that I will also live up to Bai Lu's intention of giving birth to two children for me. During the time I came back, I was always at nightfall. Holding the two children and pointing to the moon in the sky, telling them that it is your mother, the two ignorant and unknown children will let out a naughty laugh when they look at the moon. And the look on my face. Under the background of this laughter, it will be extremely stiff and heavy. 輸入網地址:ёǐ.觀看姀不不心张節

I wanted to come out of the shadow of Bai Lu's death, but I always met her in my spare time or in my dreams late at night. I met this woman who brought me my family and gave me life. She was always dragging my hand and calling my name. Until I woke up from a dream in the middle of the night, or in a daze, and then looked around blankly, lonely and sweaty.

I began to push myself to be busy, to do whatever I could, not to allow myself to have time to think about it, to think about it. I started to take care of the children, I started to go to work, I began to want to reintegrate into the previous circle of life, but every time I dragged my tired body back home, whenever I sat in the car and wanted to calm down for a while, whenever the moonlight fell on the earth at night, I still couldn't help but think about Bai Lu and everything about her.

I wanted to work hard to live a good life without white dew, but I found that it was so sad to live without white dew.

Finally one day. At a meeting that I didn't need to attend, I sat at the end of the table, crying silently on the table. The noisy conference room gradually quieted down, and everyone turned their eyes to me, but I couldn't help but cry loudly. I don't care about their gaze, I don't care about their thoughts, I just feel that at this moment, my heart seems to be pierced, and all that is full of depression after Bai Lu left.

I don't care about anything, I just want to release it all. It wasn't until Lao Zeng came over and put his hand on my shoulder that I slowly withdrew my cry and gaze, and turned to leave the office. Looking at myself in the mirror with red eyes in the bathroom, I was speechless, and I was already in tears. Lao Zeng walked in and handed me a cigarette, stood beside me and said nothing. When he finished a cigarette, he said to me, "Come back and continue the meeting." ”

With that, he turned to leave, and I stood there and took a deep breath and returned to the conference room.

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One night, as if I had a certain number, I got up at twelve o'clock in the morning and went to the window to gaze at the moon outside. That night, my mood was calmer than ever, the huge moon gave a dazzling white light, and under my gaze, the figure of white dew gradually appeared in the moonlight, and there she was, she stood there, dressed in the white dress she had left, and she stood in a graceful manner.

I want to reach out and touch her and ask her how are you over there?

She nodded, floating in front of my eyes.

I said, I'll take care of myself, you have to be good.

She nodded again.

I don't know what else we said, but when I woke up the next day, I felt more relaxed than ever, and a smile appeared on my face for the first time since I had gone. Everyone, including Lao Zeng, was as shocked when they saw me as if they were ghosts, but I didn't care. I sang a little song and was busy in the company looking forward to the night.

Since then, every night I would talk to Bai Lu on the windowsill where I could see the moon at home, talk to her about our children, tell her about our company, tell her everything about me, she never spoke just nodded quietly, and then left our world. Later, I wanted to reach out and hug her, I wanted to hold her in my arms, I wanted to feel the temperature of her body. But there was something in the way between us, and I couldn't touch her, and she couldn't touch me. That night, I had unprecedented insomnia, and the white dew in front of me slowly disappeared into the bright sunlight as the morning sun shone on the windowsill.

That day, I didn't go to the company, I waited on the windowsill, waiting for the moon, waiting for the white dew. But then for a week, heavy snow fell in Shanghai, and the moon never appeared, until a week after the snow stopped, on that cold winter night, the moon finally appeared in the night sky, and at twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, the white dew arrived as scheduled. I knew she was there, I knew it was her, but there was a layer between us. Since then, I believe that there is another world in this world, and I believe that there is a yin and yang separation in this world.

Until one day, at twelve o'clock in the evening, when I was crawling in front of the windowsill and watching Bai Lu calling Bai Lu's name, there was a sudden sound in my ears.

"Oh my God. She called me again, walked up to me and asked, "What are you doing?" ”

I didn't speak, I just looked back at the window again, but I saw Bai Lu floating there smiling at me, and I laughed too, and snickered, laughing and glancing at the girls.

The next day, the personnel lady took me to the hospital to see a psychiatrist, the doctor prescribed me a lot of medicine, after I came back and took it, I lay down and slept until dawn that night, and I didn't see Bai Lu, the next day I didn't take the medicine, but I still couldn't get up the next night, and then I found out that it was the personnel girls who mixed that medicine into my meal, so I didn't eat, and waited there, until 12 o'clock at midnight, I saw Bai Lu smiling at me outside the window again, and I lay on the windowsill, looking at her figure, speechless and choking. The ladies stood in the doorway and looked at me lying there, their eyes red and then turned away.

Later, Lao Zeng came to me and asked me, what are you doing lying by the window at night, I don't say anything, he smiled and said You tell me, I don't tell others. I whispered in his ear and told him that I was there and waited for Bai Lu to come, and that she would come at twelve o'clock. Lao Zeng looked at me dumbfounded, like he was watching a ghost. Lao Zeng told me that it was just my illusion, and it was not really Bailu. I asked Lao Zeng rhetorically, do you believe that in this world, there is another world? The world where people go after death.

The corners of Lao Zeng's mouth twitched twice, and I immediately said, "I believe it." ”

Later, Lao Zeng came with the ladies and took a group of people to get me to a place with a good environment, but the people in there were very fierce, I lived in a room without windows, I could only go out during the day, and I had to go back to the room when evening came, I couldn't see the moon, I began to be anxious, I knew that Bai Lu was waiting for me in the moonlight, and I had to go out to see her. But no matter how much I howled in there, no one paid any attention to me until I lay down to sleep exhausted. Lao Zeng and his ladies would often come to see me, and they would ask the doctor how my condition was, and the doctor said that it was unstable, and I knew that this was a mental hospital.

I told Lao Zeng that I was not mentally ill, and Lao Zeng turned his head and asked me, do you believe that there is a yin and yang separation in this world? I lowered my head and told Lao Zeng, I believe it! When I said this, Lao Zeng and the ladies had tears in their eyes. I began to babble, every day I muttered the name of Bailu in my mouth, muttered things about the moonlight, and I began to tell anyone that my Bailu was waiting for me in the moonlight, and my Bailu was waiting for me in the moonlight. The doctors thought that my condition was getting worse and wanted to use an anesthetic on me, but then the women came and took me away from the mental hospital, and she took me back to the house, and every night came, she sat on the windowsill with me, and I told her what Bai Lu was doing outside the window, and I told her what Bai Lu was smiling at me, and she always looked at me with gentle eyes and listened to me tell me what I saw Bai Lu.

During the day, I do things like a normal person, and I also go to work in the company, and at night I lie down early to sleep, until twelve o'clock when I get up and prostrate in front of the window to look at Bai Lu, and tell her what I am doing outside today, and the personnel girls will occasionally bring me three cups of tea, one for her, one for me, and one for Bailu.

Occasionally, she would tell me that Bai Lu would like to be able to talk today!

One day I asked the ladies and I asked her if you could see Bai Lu?

She said no.

I asked her again, do you believe in the separation of yin and yang?

She nodded and said I do.

I reached out and took her in my arms, weeping bitterly.

When everyone didn't believe me, she was the only one who believed in me. Or maybe she's the only one coaxing me.

All this until, until, the day my brother died.