That night, I went to bed early and woke up at twelve o'clock.

But Bai Lu did not come.

The next day, I waited at the window early until dawn.

Bai Lu still didn't come.

I started to get nervous, I started to get nervous. From time to time, I dragged the hands of the personnel wives and asked her what was going on. The personnel ladies kept comforting me, maybe Bai Lu was busy for the past two days, and I said that she would come to see me on the third day no matter how busy she was. The personnel girls said yes, she will definitely come over tonight. However, on the third day, I still didn't see the white dew. I started to feel uneasy, I started to worry, and the personnel girls coaxed me to tell me that the fourth day would definitely come. I believe it for the time being, but all this. It always backfires. I began to eat, drink, and sleep, constantly waiting in front of the window for Bai Lu's arrival, and I was even more afraid that Bai Lu would encounter any accidents in that world. The things that the personnel ladies brought me were put in front of the window for a day, and I drank some water at first, but in the end I didn't even drink water. My eyes were red. His lips were chapped and his hair and face were covered in grease. It wasn't until the seventh day, when Bai Lu came that I rushed over to the window and tried to yell at her, as if I saw hope, but she opened her mouth for the first time to speak. She told me that this was the last time she would come over. I asked her why, and she didn't speak, just looked at me with a smile, and her figure fell backwards until it disappeared into the moonlight. Disappear over the moon.

I lay on the ground in despair, and then the ladies came in nervously and told me that my parents had just called me and said that my brother was sick at home and had died.

My heart tightened, and I immediately sat up and looked at the personnel girls, but the personnel girls looked at me in surprise. I opened my mouth to speak, but I found that I didn't even have the strength to speak. After the ladies fed me some water, I said I was going home. I'm going to see my brother. The personnel lady nodded and said you have a good rest first, we will set off at dawn, I nodded, lay in the arms of the personnel lady and told her, I just saw Bai Lu, she said that was the last time we met, the personnel girl nodded again, and I passed out.

My parents told me that my brother's spirit had not been good since Bai Lu died, but because he had been taking medicine, he was sometimes good and bad. When I was abroad, they went to Shanghai once to see their grandchildren. At that time, I checked my brother in the hospital once, but the situation was not ideal, until some time ago, my brother began to be blind in both eyes and could not see things, and then he was deaf in both ears, and she couldn't hear when she called him, and finally he couldn't speak. Until yesterday, he suddenly sat up from his bed and told my parents in a deaf voice that he was leaving this world. My parents were dumbfounded when they saw that he was suddenly getting better, and my father had the courage to ask him where he was going. He smiled and didn't tell my parents, but told my parents to let my parents take care of my younger brother, that is, me. Then my brother lay back on his bed, closed his eyes, and breathed!

Listening to my parents' words, I stood there for a long time, until I felt cold, I came to my senses, slowly walked up and looked at my brother lying quietly in the coffin, lying there crying bitterly. I blamed myself and told myself that he must have died because of me, it must have been because of me. I'm a broom star, every time I have an accident my brother gets sick, the first two times he got away with it, but this time he can't get away anymore, I shouldn't sink every day, then my brother will be fine. It's all my fault.

Lao Zeng and the personnel wives accompanied me back to my brother's funeral, and my two children were also brought back by the personnel wives. Despite my weeping bitterly, my father was busy with the funeral, and it was not until the coffin was about to be sealed that my father stepped forward to look at my brother lying quietly in the coffin, and tears flowed down his eyes. He told me that my brother had never enjoyed a little happiness in his life, and that it was not easy for him to live until now, and that death now might be a relief for him. Listening to my father's words, I couldn't help but think of the bits and pieces I used to be with my brother. My father said to me, "There is no resurrection from the dead, but the living must look forward." He told me that I had to live well, not for them, but also for the spirits of Bailu and my brother. Tears welled up in my eyes and I nodded vigorously.

Lao Zeng left after attending the funeral, and my wife and I stayed at home for more than half a month. For half a month I had been thinking about everything that had happened during this time, Bai Lu's sudden death, the two children she left behind, her funeral, and the plan to send her ashes to the moon, and the bitter cry I had in the desert, and the white dew I saw in front of the window when I returned. I turned my head and asked the personnel girl, every night during that time, could she see the white dew outside the window? The personnel girl shook her head, I said, then how do you believe that I can see the white dew? The personnel girl was silent for a moment and said, Bailu is in your heart.

I lowered my head and was silent, and the personnel lady breathed a sigh of relief and said to me, Qi Tian, no matter what, tomorrow is always something to look forward to, isn't it? Your child is growing up, and my child is also growing up.

As she spoke, the ladies looked down at their stomachs. That's when I realized that her belly was like a hill. It turned out that before she knew it, she was about to give birth. Looking at the slightly tired women, I realized that she was not only pregnant, but also helped me take care of my two children when I was pregnant, and helped me solve all kinds of life troubles. For a moment, my eyes moistened a little, and I choked up and said to her, "Thank you, thank you." ”

The personnel girls smiled, tears welling up in their eyes.

The death of my brother made me completely come out of the shadow of Bai Lu's death, and made me understand that people always have to look forward, or that people cannot be resurrected after death. The best way to comfort their souls is to live well. Because, they will really be in the other world, watching us. After discussing with my mothers, I wanted my parents to live in Shanghai, after all, they were very old, my brother had passed away, and they had nothing at home, so they were too lonely. My parents said they couldn't leave their homeland and didn't want to leave here, so if we wanted to, we could leave the children in our care. I look at the two children, and I can't bear to leave the children with them, and I can't bear to let them stay at home, but they just don't go to Shanghai, and I can't help it.

On the eve of our departure, my father took me aside, and he sat under an elm tree in front of my house smoking a bad dry tobacco, and I sat beside him without speaking, just to be with him for a while. Suddenly, my father said to me, "You have to marry another daughter-in-law." ”

I was stunned, and he said to me, "You can't live up to Xiao Qin." ”

Only then did I understand that he was talking about personnel.

It was my father's words that made me realize that the ladies had been with me for so long in obscurity, and now that Bai Lu has passed away, I don't know what to do, and my father's words made me feel very confused. On the way back, I was absent-minded all the way, and after arriving in Shanghai, I dared to ask the personnel women what they thought, but the personnel women said no, she didn't want to marry me, and she would never marry for the rest of her life. It was my freedom to marry whomever I wanted, but she didn't. Brother Yu Bird.

I didn't expect this to be the result, I asked her why, and she said no, it was her own agreement with herself. I asked her what she had been doing in those 100 days and if she had ever been to Iceland. The personnel lady was stunned for a moment, and said yes! Then she didn't say what she had done in those 100 days. Because the pregnancy of the personnel women is getting closer and closer, so the old once helped us invite the two-month sister-in-law to come over to take care of Bai Lu's two children, I want to accompany the personnel women to prepare for childbirth, but the personnel women quietly returned to their own house, I went to her, she said that now my child has been taken care of, I am not staring, she can rest for a while, let me not bother her.

The change in her attitude before and after made me like a monk like a monk scratching her head, but she was very quiet at home preparing for childbirth, I wanted to take care of her, but she didn't let her. One day Sister Hong called me and asked me about the situation with the personnel girl, and after listening to me, she scolded me on the phone, saying that she complained that I didn't go abroad to find a girl, and now this is what I deserve. I listened to Sister Hong's scolding, and I didn't feel a taste in my heart. In the end, Sister Hong said: "You don't care how Nizi doesn't want to, you just kick her in the face and take her away, you can do whatever you want to do to her." ”

After speaking, Sister Hong hung up the phone, and I listened to the busy sound on the phone in a daze.

In the afternoon, I rushed to the house of the personnel lady, whether she wanted to or not, and immediately threw her downstairs to the car, and the steering wheel turned and drove away from the city, and the personnel girl was noisily in the car and asked me where I was going to take her, and I didn't speak. took her on the highway and rushed all the way to Hangzhou, until the car stopped in front of Lao Zeng's villa, she looked back at me and scolded a bastard. However, she lived in the villa with peace of mind and did not say that she wanted to go back to Shanghai.

I didn't go back to Shanghai, but stayed here with her to prepare for childbirth, and occasionally went back to Shanghai to see the two children at home. Because I didn't worry about these two children, Lao Zeng asked his little girlfriend in the company to come and live in my house and help my sister-in-law take care of the two children. This girl is quite good, and she does her best in my family, so that I can also devote myself to accompanying the personnel girls in Hangzhou to prepare for childbirth.

Bai Lu and I have lived here for two months, and we are very familiar with every plant and tree here, and the feeling brought to me by this place always reminds me of Bai Lu who passed away not long ago. Occasionally, in the morning, I wake up and mistake the lady standing in front of the window looking at the pond in the distance for her.

However, the personality of the personnel girls is diametrically opposed to Bai Lu, Bai Lu is quiet, she is moving. Pregnant and disobedient, running around every day, drinking cold water and eating chili peppers, she doesn't look like a pregnant woman at all.

On the night of New Year's Day, she said that she was going to West Lake to join in the fun, where there was a fireworks show. I didn't want her to go, for fear that she would have an accident, but she insisted on going, and I had no choice but to accompany her to the West Lake. That night, there were a lot of people in West Lake, and it was very lively. The two of us almost got separated in the crowd, and finally when everyone counted down the New Year's Eve together, the personnel girls threw themselves into my arms and didn't speak quietly. She whispered to me, "Do you love me?"

I was stunned, remembering the night the two of us were on the Bund on New Year's Day last year.

This year, we seem to have experienced too much. So much so that we both hugged each other so hard that we couldn't breathe.