I don't plan to explain to Li Hua the problem between me and Li Baitian, whatever he sees and guesses, he will go with him. From now on, in his psychology, it doesn't matter whether I Cong You is a water-based poplar or a bingqing jade.

I will still love him until I forget this love, but I can't care about his thoughts. I have always been a woman who is cruel to herself, because I love Li Hua and love him as another self, so I am also cruel to him.

Some things are constantly being broken, and someone must come out and make a decision. Li Hua has never been good at making decisions, but I think he is probably also very entangled, and he really hopes that something will really happen, and it will be a hundred and a hundred, so I came.

After that, I turned off the phone and slept in the house for a week. I was really hungry, so I went to knock on Li Baitian's door, eat something casually, and leave when I was done. Li Baitian has a lot of snacks at home, and seeing my dead appearance, he also cooperated, went to the supermarket to buy some more, threw me a key, and I took it as I liked.

A week later, Li Baitian couldn't stand it anymore, and he said, "Cong You, you're going to stink here, you know?"

I looked at the petals on the ground, it should stink, I should stink. But I think he has to understand me, this time it hit me too hard, I can still live, I am already very strong, let me live for a while, and when it really stinks, I can't stand it anymore, I will get up and clean up.

Li Baitian felt that I had to change my mood, so he stuffed me into the toilet, did not undress me, and turned on the shower head to wash my hair.

I'm a more environmentally friendly person, and when I'm not in use, the water heater is never turned on. It's still winter, and the water that comes out of the shower head is almost cold.

It didn't give me cold soberness, it was he who pressed my neck like this, I was very uncomfortable, and I wanted to cry when I was washed away by the water. At first, I cried secretly, and then I cried with a grin, Li Baitian felt a pain in his heart, threw away the lotus shower, and grabbed me in his arms and hugged it.

The shower head was still open, and it sprayed water all over the bathroom, spraying us all over the body.

I numbly let Li Baitian hold it, there was nothing in my head except crying, at this moment, it doesn't matter if I hug or not, it doesn't matter what I do, all the emotions are left to cry.

Li Baitian was not comforted, so he hugged me like this. It has nothing to do with whether he likes me or not, because at this time, if someone else is different, he will hug me when he sees me crying so badly.

Hugging is an amazing thing, something a thousand times better than words.

I cried so much that I cried a handful of snot and tears, and I cried very dirty in Li Baitian's clothes, and then those messy things rubbed on my face, and I was also dirty.

I don't know how long I've been crying like this, but I'm tired of crying anyway, so I said to Li Baitian, "I want to take a bath." ”

Li Baitian pulled me out of his own house and dragged me into his own house, the water heater on his side was hot, adjust the water temperature, I hugged Li Baitian for me, his clean clothes, went in and took a good shower.

When he took a shower, he didn't have any ideas in his head, he just washed it, put on his big T-shirt after washing, and walked out of it. After I was refreshed, I didn't want to cry, and I didn't break down and feel sad.

I sat on his couch, Li Baitian handed me a glass of warm milk, I held the cup, in a daze.

He said, "Let's go, go out and change your mood." ”

Li Baitian took me away on the same day, it was winter, and I chose a warmer place to travel, so we went to Sanya, a place with a blue sea and blue sky.

In the past, I was quite disdainful of Sanya, because the city where I grew up is also a place with a blue sea and blue sky. But good scenery is always in a place that can't be seen, this time I came to know that the sunshine in Sanya is sunnier than my big city, it is bright and warm, not as warm as the city.

When people are in the sun, the gloom in their hearts will be dispelled a lot. My mood gradually improved, although I didn't think about it deliberately, but I have been comforting myself since I was a child, as long as everything has passed, as long as a certain amount of time has passed, it is not a big deal.

With this hope, whether I am happy or not, I can make my life bright enough.

When I saw Li Hua again, it was also in Sanya, and he came all the way to find me, and the address was of course told to him by Li Baitian, a good old man.

I haven't turned on my mobile phone these days, and when I came to Sanya from Beijing, I didn't bring it with me. I don't want to contact Li Hua, I want to make a simple break with a lot of things, and don't give myself a chance to hesitate.

Admittedly, I still miss Li Hua, thinking about every trivial thing, but not about unhappiness. I patiently made myself a plate of fruit salad, sat in front of the window, and ate fruit in a pot, and each piece I ate meant that I loved him a little bit.

I can't give myself to him to love anymore, and I will love myself for him in the future, and he wants me to be well, and he wants me to be healthy and all the best. No matter what we turn out to become, I believe that Li Hua will definitely wish me happiness in the future, and bless me to marry a good man and give birth to a chubby boy for nothing.

Then someone rang the doorbell of the hotel, and I wrapped a bath towel at this time, but I didn't care much, because the service of the hotel was very good, and there was no security problem. I guess the cleaning aunt came to clean up the room, put down the fruit and went to open the door.

Then I saw him.

Yes, I was dumbfounded, it was like a dream. But when I saw him, it was as if I had seen a stranger, for in my heart I had made him a stranger.

He also looked at me, his lips were straight again, with a hint of anger, he was angry with me, angry that I was missing, or he also sensed the purpose of my disappearance, so angry that I was going to abandon him.

I let myself be calm, I didn't smile or say hello, the door was open, I went back to the window, looked at the sea outside, and continued to eat fruit without a bite.

He is coming, I don't need to drive him away, if there is something he has to say to me clearly, I will accompany him.

He walked in, sat near me and looked at me, and was silent for a long time. I couldn't eat the fruit in my mouth, but I just ignored him, didn't look anywhere, and was silent with him.

After a long time, his voice trembled a little, "Are you planning to keep me from finding you?"

My voice trembled, "No, haven't you found it?"

He didn't speak, just looked at me. I felt so uncomfortable that I didn't look at him, and said, "Originally, you didn't come, but I planned to leave it at that, but now that you're here, let's talk about it." I decided to break up with you," swallowing the sore pain in his throat, he continued, "I love you, and I know you love me, but I've had enough. It's so hard that we've been together for so long, I think two people love each other in order to find happiness, but with you, there are very few happy times. ”

"Are you going to dump me a second time?" he said, still pursing his mouth, so he looked at me, there was a determined light in his eyes, a light that forced me to question me and even hated me, but I knew that he didn't really hate me, he probably just didn't want to accept it.

Yes, plus this time I dumped Li Hua twice, hehe, it's really good.

I turned my head to look at him and looked into his eyes, the sunlight outside the window hitting his pupils, which had a glittering watery sheen inside. I said, "Cool," after a pause, I had something to say, "I'm having a hard time, but I figured it out." ”

His gaze continued to break, "Why?"

"Tian Tian. I said very firmly, "Because of Tiantian." Even Xue Jiazheng is married, what should Tian Tian do, if you don't even want her, who in this world will want her. I thought about it, if there is always someone who will marry her, you are the best choice. ”

He said, "Do you think these are useful?" and sneered, "Do you decide these are useful?"

I can't decide what happened to Li Hua, but I can decide where I want to go. I wishfully thought that if I left Li Hua, Li Hua would probably be disheartened and accept Lan Tian directly, and there is a great possibility that he will make do with it in this life.

I didn't speak, I turned my eyes to look at the beach at sunset.

"What about you?" he asked.

"I want to get married. I said, "I'll find a simple guy to marry." ”

When Li Hua heard this, he probably couldn't stand it, and felt that it wasn't him who would give me happiness by my side in the future, he couldn't stand it. He stood up and approached me and reached out to take my hand, and I moved quickly to avoid it and look up at him.

He probably didn't expect me to be so resolute, and he was hurt by my evasive action, and his eyes were already red. But he still wanted to pull me, and he wanted to hug me, I rolled two tears and shook my head, "You let me go, I let you go, we may ...... Fate is not enough ......"

He didn't hold back, reached out and pinched my chin, forcing me to look at him. Okay, I'll just look at him, watching him purse his lips, and the tears rolling out of his eyes roll unimpeded on this beautifully contoured face.

When it landed on the back of my hand, it was still hot.

I reached out to wipe his tears and touched his contours and skin, and I smiled and said, "Don't you do this, isn't it just a breakup, and if you don't do it, you'll be dead?"

He said, "Cong You, you know how much I love you. ”

Tears were still dripping from his eyes, and I didn't know where I got such determination, so much ruthlessness, I said: "So you let me go, you see that I am so uncomfortable day by day, do you want to go?"