Lan Tian is just a reason, in the final analysis, it is because I feel uncomfortable.

I'm just cowardly, I can't be strong anymore, who can do it. Change the scene, if I am still happy with Li Hua now, and my heart is free, I can accompany Lan Tian to consume it, and I can spend it with her until I die. But because of Lan Tian's existence, we can't be happy.

Suppose we don't care about Lan Tian now, Lan Tian is like this, she breaks the jar and falls, and then she falls to her death, how many people will have to accuse me and Li Hua of having no conscience and being irresponsible, it is our selfish love that led to Lan Tian's tragedy?

Everyone has been saying that being a man is to have a conscience, and a good person is more difficult to do than a bad person, but I am determined to be a good person.

This is not my foolishness.

I have a clear conscience, and for me, it is more torturous to endure the torture of conscience than to bear the pain of losing a loved one. For me, falling in love with Li Hua is already the biggest and biggest wealth in my life, and many times, what I once had was more charming than the eternity.

I've had it before, I can't last forever, I hurt, but I'm willing.

What I am unwilling to do is to continue to torture like this, really torture love into unlove, and then separate, torture the beauty I once had, torture the flesh and blood, I don't want to do this.

I don't want to be with Li Huajiang, but I'm not happy. I longed for a break and a fresh start.

I asked Li Hua if he was unhappy and he was going to go, and obviously he didn't want to go, so I saw the shaking under his eyes.

"You always have a way to convince me," he said. ”

I said, "Because we're thinking the same thing." ”

Li Hua and I are actually the same people, people with strong moral constraints, although he does things more roundly, and I do things more straight, but often we have the same view of things from the starting point.

He hugged me and he said, "I'll promise you anything but break up." ”

I enjoyed his hug, leaned into his ear and said, "I used to love you so much that I felt that even if I couldn't be with you, I would be your lover for life, as long as you wanted me." It's different now...... Now I feel so tired and tossed so much, do you know what I want most?"

Letting go of the hug, we looked at each other, and I smiled helplessly, "I want to be like everyone else, marry a man who keeps to himself, live the most peaceful life, don't worry about what will happen tomorrow, and don't have to worry about anyone except my own family." A mediocre man who loves himself. ”

Li Hua closed his eyes. The mediocre man in my mouth is obviously not him, and his broken face alone is enough to break my heart. In my heart, he is not mediocre at all, he is artistic, he has responsibility and moral shackles. I used to think that if I and Li Hua were a little worse, regardless of Lan Tian, we would still be able to live well, but then he would not be Li Hua, and I would not be me.

Besides, it's okay to leave Lan Tian alone, I already decided to ignore it a few days ago, didn't Lan Tian still take the initiative to appear at my door.

The relationship is here, it's not like we just say a word and don't care. She will always be an obstacle to us, even if she dies.

Without speaking, he kissed me on the lips, and I kissed him, from the shallow kiss to the entanglement of the lips and tongue, I have been very cooperative. Finally, at the end, I also want to linger with him, which can be regarded as a form of farewell.

I cherish this lingering, in the sunset, in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, I have no scruples to be controlled by him. In fact, Li Hua himself may just want to kiss me, but I am wearing so little at this time, kissing and kissing, it is not an exaggeration to suddenly have some other thoughts, mainly to vent my thoughts and vent those reluctant emotions.

Lingering, it can no longer be said that it is for the body or what, each process, in my eyes, is just for the embodiment of love.

After the embodiment, he hugged me as usual, I snuggled into his arms, gently leaned against his chest, and said quietly: "You should go, there are still many things waiting for you." ”

He turned around and looked at me with vicissitudes in his eyes, "What should I do with you?"

I shook my head, put on my bath towel, and went to the toilet to wash up. I sat up, he sat up, he sat up, pulled me in the back, and he said, "I know you're uncomfortable, I'll give you time." ”

I didn't move, and was silent for a while. Time, the two of us have been getting together less and leaving more, and he has been giving me time. I know too well the power of time, it can smooth out the deep and make the things that are attached to it forgotten.

I said, "If possible, give Tian Tian a future, even if it's an empty promise, it's better than nothing." ”

He didn't speak, and after I got out of bed, he asked me one last question, "You and Li Baitian, do you have anything?"

This time, I was still silent.

My silence is because I don't know how to answer. I said it doesn't matter, Li Baitian did mention to me that he wanted to marry me, I think I always deny Li Baitian's existence like this, and it's not interesting for Li Baitian to others, but I said it has a relationship, so isn't it a lie?

Sometimes, silence does not mean acquiescence, but it represents hesitation, and there are many, many possibilities.

Li Hua choked up, "I understand." ”

I don't know what he understood, I went to the bathroom, rinsed my body, rinsed this body that only Li Hua had touched, maybe one day, it would belong to someone else again, and I was a little sad to think of it.

So I cried behind his back, and then cried and put on the clothes that I had taken off in front of him all these years. Then he walked out of the room and found that he was no longer there.

The breakup between me and Li Hua is not a complete breakup, I said that he didn't seem to agree, but he did leave. Forget it, just as I originally planned, don't say anything, isn't it okay to be a hundred?

I'm really tired, I'm panicked, I don't want to toss with him.

After that, Li Baitian took me to a wedding, and I, a person who had no relatives and no relatives, cried so much at the wedding scene that the bride thought I was strange and pitiful, and gave me a bouquet of flowers, and I cried again.

Li Baitian still has something to do, and after that, I have lived in Sanya for a long time, and I don't use a mobile phone, Li Baitian wants to find me, so I call the hotel directly.

I often walk around the beach by myself, play with people I don't know, and then suddenly figure it out, I want to get married.

Li Baitian was really very interesting to me, and once when I was sad, he joked, "Be happy, girl, no one wants me to want you?"

I suddenly thought about it, looked at him and said, "Really?"

Li Baitian glared, "Really, it's more real than the pearl in the shell." ”

Then I went with Li Baitian to collect shells, and we made a bet that if I could pick up shells with pearls today, I would marry him. The two of us spent the night picking up at the beach, I was just looking at the pearls in the shells, and he was probably going to win or lose the game.

Priing open the last shell, Li Baitian threw it back into the sea in disappointment, "What the hell, the villagers are all liars, let Lao Tzu blow the wind here all night." ”

I suddenly felt that Li Baitian looked very cute, and I thought of Lan Tian's Xue Jiazheng. Lan Tian said, no one has the obligation to wait for herself all the time, she consumed Xue Jiazheng, is it not that I will also consume Li Baitian.

I even think that maybe it will be good in the future if I follow Li Baitian. If he can retract his heart and be so good to me all the time, when I forget Li Hua, will I also fall in love with him.

I said, "Brother Tian, I'm tired." ”

He said, "Then you will come to my brother's arms?"

I said, half-jokingly, half-seriously, "Why don't you try proposing again, and maybe I'll say yes next time?"

Li Baitian looked at my gaze, there was a moment of dissipation, and he asked very seriously: "Sister, are you really willing to marry me?"

I didn't speak.

He touched my head.

Half a month later, when I returned to Beijing, the place was still a mess. It's New Year's Day soon, and Li Baitian said that I was a big surprise in the early morning of New Year's Day, but before that, I had to clean up and put away my tattered mood.

I promised him.

I know that Li Baitian is going to propose to me, and I also know that I really want to say yes this time. Although at this time, if I promised him, it would be very unfair to others. But I just have the mood of wanting to get married quickly, and I want to have a particularly big thing, and I want to break it off completely from the past.

On the evening of December 31st, I decided to clean up my room and clean up all the garbage, in the same mood as the garbage. The petals, dry, rotten, rotten, had long since lost their original color, and I brutally swept them up from the ground and put them in a garbage bag.

Then in a shoe box, a ring box was accidentally found. I recognize this box, when Li Hua and I went to Sichuan, he always carried it, but the ring inside, I was never willing to open it.

I don't know when it fell here, maybe it was on the night when Li Hua beat Li Baitian? Hehe, if when Li Hua came that night, he didn't bump into me and Li Baitian in embarrassment, would many things be different now?

I opened the box and saw a diamond that was so big, diamonds are valuable because of their rarity, but what is the meaning of diamonds, is it just because of the phrase "eternal".

Wearing the ring, I was stunned for a while, and forgot to take it off in a trance, and sat on the windowsill, listening to the bell at twelve o'clock, and the faint cheers. The night in Beijing tonight is super beautiful, so beautiful that it reminds me of a saying, "Carnival is the loneliness of a group".

The bell struck twelve times, but Li Baitian still did not appear. And I'm still in a daze, waiting, waiting for an unknown future.

At 12:15, Li Baitian called me and said, "I'm sorry Youyou, my brother can't surprise you." ”

I don't know what happened to Li Baitian, but I think this result should have been carefully thought out by him. As if I had suddenly lost another layer of burden, I said softly, "Happy New Year." ”