After Mr. Jiang said this, he turned around and left. I read two words from her eyes...... Disappointed. She was right, I was the worst doctor, not one of them.

Ji Xiaoyu walked over, handed me a bottle of mineral water, and explained: "I can understand your feelings. There will always be such a reaction the first time, especially for people who are responsible, responsible, and conscientious. But, as a health worker, there is no choice. ”

"How we didn't have a choice. "I don't understand.

Ji Xiaoyu saw that I didn't understand the medical process, and replied: "Our choice is passive. ”

I looked at her with confused eyes and asked, "What do you mean?"

"They are patients and adults. They have made choices for their lives, and all we have to do is respect their choices. ”

My emotions were a little out of control and said, "If we respect their choice, we can deprive others of the right to come into this world." ”

Ji Xiaoyu was not affected by my emotions, and said in a calm tone: "I know you are angry, and I also know that you can't understand. But, taking a step back, the mothers of these babies have chosen to give up, what can we say. ”

"I ......" is also right, their mothers have chosen to give up, and we still insist on what to do.

"I can understand your emotions, and I know what you want to express. However, it is important to remember that doctors cannot be emotional, let alone make decisions for their patients. What we need to do is to respect the patient's choice and alleviate their suffering. ”

"They give up their children and are not condemned in their hearts. ”

Perhaps, they have their own difficulties to make such a choice. ”

"What hardships will make mothers give up their children. ”

"It's true that mothers don't give up on their children, but some people are irresponsible and don't take responsibility. Young people always make mistakes. ”

"This ......"

"There are some mistakes that can be made up for and saved. Some mistakes are destined to be regretted for the rest of their lives. Why would they give up their children, I don't know. Whether their consciences will be condemned, I don't know. But, I know, it's enough that we can't be such people. ”

"......"

"Girls give everything for love. Many boys are people who think with their lower bodies. You don't have to worry about these things. Look at the opening point, after a long time, you will slowly get used to it in the future. ”

How could I not care. How could these hands of mine do such a thing? If I want to stop these babies from coming into this world, I can't do it.

At this time, I remembered what my father said, the current love is too simple, and I haven't gone out of my mind yet. Our generation does not understand the true meaning of love at all. We always think that if we look at the right person, we will be together again, and it is love. We don't know that this is a confused youth.

Ji Xiaoyu saw that I fell silent, and said: "When you are young, there will always be times when you are confused. It is not necessarily wrong for us to prevent them from coming into the world. People who make mistakes will also grow up with their own confused youth. ”

"I ......" I still can't let go of this question.

"All you have to do is restrain your emotions, stay sane and be a qualified doctor. If you can't even get over this hurdle. Ji Xiaoyu deliberately paused a little, slowed down his voice and said, "This place may really not be suitable for you." I think you'll have a better choice. ”

Ji Xiaoyu's words touched me a lot. I asked myself if I could really get through this hurdle. I can really accept this profession. I can be like Teacher Jiang who doesn't care about preventing them from coming into this world.

My answer is clear, I'm not going to let that happen, at least not in front of me again. I am not destined to become a qualified doctor, and I will not take the lives of others. My hands are destined to be impossible.

I looked at Ji Xiaoyu and thanked, "Thank you." ”

Ji Xiaoyu saw that my eyes were no longer as full of anger as they were just now, and said with a smile: "I knew that you could." ”

I looked at her and said sincerely, "Thank you for saying so much to me." Thank you also for your words that touched my soul. I think I know what path I'm going to take. What is the choice I have to make. ”

Ji Xiaoyu didn't know what I was thinking, but when she saw that I was relieved, she smiled and said, "If you can figure it out, don't live up to my good words." Don't forget to treat yourself. ”

I looked at the man in front of me who was a few years younger than me. How she overcame this hurdle. How about her, exposed to these things, and still able to remain optimistic. And I, after all, I can't get over this hurdle. Deprive others of the right to come into this world, I am destined to not be able to do it!

At this moment, I realized how fragile my heart was.

I'm going to make my own choice.

This is a lesson that I have never learned in a textbook. It turns out that a qualified doctor not only has to learn professional knowledge, skilled skills, but also more things that need to be learned by heart.

I don't know what kind of mood I was in when I left the operating room. But I know that I'm in a terrible mood and this place isn't for me.

No sooner had I appeared at the doctor's office than a person appeared in front of me. The man said, "Boy, do you remember me?"

He's the one who says I'm coming, and he's liberated. I have a deep image of him, how can I forget him. I said, "Mao Xiaoyu." ”

Mao Xiaoyu saw my sad face and said with a smile: "I'm so happy that you can remember me." Let's go! Let's eat. ”

Mao Xiaoyu saw that I was motionless, and said, "Why are you stunned, don't change your clothes yet, go to dinner." ”

I said, "What time is it?" ”

Mao Xiaoyu had never seen anyone who was not active after work, and said sarcastically: "Big brother, it's past twelve o'clock." ”

I said, "Go ahead! I don't have an appetite." ”

Mao Xiaoyu smiled evilly: "I was hit by Teacher Jiang!"

I remained silent and did not speak.

Mao Xiaoyu cheered me up and said: "Teacher Jiang is like this, he is rigorous in academics and has a bad temper. But, she is definitely a competent teacher. I also came out under her teaching. Man, I can't stand this grievance. ”

"I ......" I don't know how to tell him how I'm feeling right now.

"Alright. No big deal. There is a saying, people, always have to grow in the midst of blows. The bigger the blow, the faster the growth. ”

"I really don't have an appetite. ”

"People are iron and rice are steel, and if you don't eat a meal, you will be hungry and panic. If you don't eat, how can you have the energy to meet the storm in the afternoon. ”

"I throw in the towel, I'll go. ”

Mao Xiaoyu looked at me with victorious eyes, "Is this right?"

I saw that I couldn't shirk it, so I changed my clothes and went to the staff cafeteria.

Mao Xiaoyu saw that I had vegetarian dishes on my plate and asked, "No! ”

"Can't you be a vegetarian?"

Mao Xiaoyu said sadly: "Do you know that our working meal is thirty yuan, and you are suffering a loss like this! ”

I threw out two words and replied, "Capricious." ”

Mao Xiaoyu was speechless and sighed: "What a willful." ”

I took the plate to find a place and saw Ji Xiaoyu waving at me in the crowd. Mao Xiaoyu saw it and said with a smile: "You just came, and you were so popular." Tell me honestly, what is your relationship. ”

I said, "Colleague." ”

Mao Xiaoyu was stunned for a moment, and then said: "You are not as simple as colleagues." I see, you have a play. ”

I ignored him and came to Ji Xiaoyu's side with a dinner plate. Ji Xiaoyu introduced me to several other female colleagues in the department. I greeted them on one side and ate my meal on the other.

Mao Xiaoyu was not happy and asked, "Xiaoyu, I'm still here, and you won't introduce me to it." ”

"Get out. Ji Xiaoyu scolded unceremoniously: "You are famous in our department"

Mao Xiaoyu didn't mind, and laughed heartily.

"I can sit here. At this moment, a familiar voice came. I looked up and saw that it was Xiao Xiaoxin and said, "Why is she here." ”

Mao Xiaoyu said courteously: "Welcome." I'm Mao Xiaoyu, obstetrics and gynecology. ”

Xiao Xiao sat down, pointed at me and replied, "He and I are classmates, and we came together." My name is Xiao Xiao and I am in the respiratory department. ”

I was stunned for a moment, and I didn't know why Shinoxiao said these words. At the moment, I don't want to know what this sentence will mean.

Ji Xiaoyu looked at Xiao Xiao, then at me, and asked, "You are classmates." ”

Mao Xiaoyu counted me down, showed his manly demeanor, and criticized: "Doctor Jiang, it's too rude to say hello when you see your old classmates." ”

I didn't know how to fight back against him, so I just kept silent.

Xiao Xiao noticed that my expression was wrong, and asked, "Eat so little, your face is ugly, you are uncomfortable." ”

I can't tell what happened in the operating room!

I stubbornly said, "It's okay, I didn't sleep well last night, just rest for a while." ”

"Xiao Budian is right! You have a bad complexion, you need to be treated in time. Would you like me to say hello to the emergency department? Qiao Yu suddenly appeared in front of us.

For some reason, I was a little hostile to him, and said in a somewhat blunt tone: "Thank you, no need." ”

Qiao Yu sat down and said in a tone that was familiar to me: "Don't be polite to Senior Brother. ”

Mao Xiaoyu heard the meaning of the words, and his face sank. The person in front of me didn't really want to help me, but deliberately highlighted his ability in front of these beauties in front of him and killed us in seconds.

Of course, I also saw his intentions, but I couldn't expose his true colors, and thought to myself, "You don't have to spoil me in order to stand out in front of beautiful women." ”

Qiao Yu saw that I didn't pay attention to him, and he couldn't act alone, so he said, "The ribs are good today." ”

Qiao Yu was eating pork ribs while explaining the structure of the human body to Xiao Xiao. I didn't listen to it, but when I heard it, I felt sick to my stomach and wanted to vomit, so I hurriedly said: "I have something, go first." ”

Ji Xiaoyu couldn't stand it anymore, and said sarcastically: "Doctor Qiao, you are strong academically, we all know it." But can you divide the occasion. It's a public place, a place to eat. ”

After speaking, Ji Xiaoyu left. Several other colleagues also left with Ji Xiaoyu. Mao Xiaoyu also threw the chopsticks, "I can't eat this rice." ”

Seeing that we were all gone, Qiao Yu asked, "Is it wrong to talk about academics while eating?"

Qiao Yu saw that I wanted to vomit and asked, "Senior Brother Jiang, you hate me, you don't have to vomit, right?"