Comrade Jia Yuhao:

It's been a year, and it's been a year since you left!

This year has been a boundless darkness for me!

If you could feel my pain and heartbreak, would you feel distressed? I don't want you to be sad!

When the tears don't stop, sometimes they flow on the face, sometimes they drip back into the heart!

Last night, you once again hugged me affectionately, soothing my panic and loneliness!

However, in this life, I will grow old alone!

I remember every word you said: I looked at my aging face and sighed the passage of time, and you kept comforting me and said that I didn't become ugly, but just more and more like you!

I remember every time you are proud, but I always press my pride to cool your enthusiasm, I am worried about your forgetfulness after being proud, I have always been like a scale of scales - balancing your achievements and frustrations, I knew such a result, I will tell you, double my pride for you!

These days, my physical condition is getting worse and worse, my heart has been panicking, and my stomach is also hurting! After returning home, I simply got Doudou something to eat, and lay down until the next morning, waking up before six o'clock every day, and then I was upset, and the housework had to be done in the morning, which could consume the extra time in the morning. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info I think of you while doing things!Swallow the tears that overflow your eyes back to your heart!

The day of your departure has come, and what is the point of what I don't want to do, and what is the point of doing it? To you—my boundless thoughts are enough! To me—this undilutable pain has overwhelmed me! Everything has no meaning to you and me!!

Without you, this world has no nostalgia for me! No more meaning! But I can only linger like this and can't leave! Looking at Doudou every day, looking at the only concern that is inseparable from me, I gritted my teeth again and again and persevered!

It's been a year, and you've been gone for a year! Teacher Ba said that without you, Doudou and I wouldn't be doing well? He said that this world can live without anyone! But who can understand the pain and helplessness of not being able to live? I also once said: This earth will turn the same when it leaves! But without you, my earth has stopped rotating! My world will stay in your time forever!

Doudou has grown a lot taller, and he is almost the same as me, and he is very good in all aspects, don't worry, I will try my best to take care of the child. It's just that sometimes it feels overwhelming.

You are gone, and there is no one who can speak from the heart or whisper! I am often accustomed to telling you what I think, and the heartache when I realize that I have nowhere to talk about it in an instant has torn my heart again and again! In this life, there can never be a person with no barrier to accompany me! In you, the transparency and purity of each other in me and each other have created my pain and despair today! It also gives me comfort in this life—after all, I once had!

I always look up at the sky, hoping that you will appear in this infinite sky! But I know that it is impossible! I will never see you again! Even if I leave, I will not be able to meet you again! I have nothing but despair! I often wonder why? Why do I have such a fate? Why do I meet you and me? Why does it end like this? Why? But what is the use? My eyes are almost blind! I don't care about it, I don't care about everything!

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2011.6.1