Comrade Jia Yuhao:

On March 18th, with the help of Senior Brother, Senior Sister Huang and several students of Senior Brother also came, and Doudou and I buried you with our own hands. The magic of the pen is www.biquge.info rainy weather that does not see the sun for 3 months, and the sun comes out for a quarter of an hour at the moment when you are buried!

I really don't know what is the meaning of living this time? But I have to bury you according to the rules and procedures, I can only wipe my tears with my sleeves while thinking about the next step of the process, and my senior brother has to help a leader, so only me, Doudou, and Sister Huang are left to complete a series of projects. The helplessness and helplessness of fainting thoughts and feelings make people lose hope and strength in life! But the mind has always maintained its sanity, and there is no one to rely on and share, as in the face of your departure, try to keep your mind and mind clear, to settle you.

After I burned a lot of objects and paper money for an hour, my chaotic thoughts gradually became normal, and I had to face all the things in the world in the future, including the big and small things in life, even the trivialities!

For Doudou, I have also let go of a little, I have been cautious and meticulous, and I have been highly nervous to educate my children to grow up with them, and now this is no longer the case, everyone has a life! Why should I bother so much about this?! Just grasp a general direction, as you said: the world she will face in the future is not the situation we are facing, and it is most important to grow up easily and happily.

After settling down with you, my heart seems to be much more relaxed, and I have done everything I can for you! Sister Huang said that I have done a perfect job and done a good job. She also said that I shouldn't have spent so much money on this, but what else could I do for you?—— but this?!I am willing—even if I don't have the money to spend it, I will settle you! You have never come again, I thought you would come and tell me that you have gone and gone in peace, you have not! Have you never come again? You can't help it? Last night you came back again, I saw your solid home, I saw your wealth, and I felt at ease from now on!

Many friends have introduced people to me, but I haven't seen them, and I haven't recovered from my grief and coma, and I haven't come out yet. Doudou also suddenly mentioned this matter two days ago, she said that I should consider having an F this m, which originated from an advertisement: family. mother, fatherandI are called family. The child also feels a little too lonely, and also thinks that her mother has to face the pressure of life alone, which means that she has also borne the pressure of life!

It may be inevitable to take this step, and the helplessness and loneliness when a person faces life alone in this foreign place will destroy this unfresh life little by little, and taking this step may be another destruction for me! I can't forget you, and it is inevitable! How to start a new life with such thoughts and pains? It is harmful to me and others. I wish I could have someone to share it with when I am vulnerable and helpless, but all this is so difficult! First of all, my own psychological relationship is very difficult, let alone today's society......

You know what kind of hardship I'm in right now, and you've left me in such a desperate situation!

I don't want to say anything, I just hope you can get better, return to your own trajectory, if there is an afterlife or such an ending - I don't want to meet you again! I don't want to be so affectionate and broken, life is better than death!

Rest in peace—— my love!

XW

2012.3.31 Before Qingming