To the Father

Father:

Do you know how much I envy my classmates who can eat delicious snacks every day? I take out 10 or 20 yuan every day, but I can only hope for the 10 yuan that my mother gives me at the end of the week; do you know how much I envy my peers who can take snacks in the supermarket? Without the consent of their parents, they can eat whatever they want, but what about me? I can only choose those potato chips, milk tea, and even chocolates for a few dollars, and even chocolate can only take that kind of miscellaneous brand, and even the Golden Emperor only buys it once every six months. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

Yesterday, just yesterday, because the two hundred dollars in your wallet were gone, she ignored me all night, I asked her to go to school this morning to watch me perform, but she refused! I told her many times, she never believed that I didn't take it, although she said that she believed me, but her performance, how did she make me believe that she really didn't doubt me anymore?

I really want to die, and when I die, there is nothing left, and I am liberated, and fantasy novels are written so mysteriously, why not really try it? If I really succeed in wearing it, it is a great thing, and even if I don't wear it successfully, it is also a relief. The only relatives in the world can't trust me 100%, so what's the point of me staying in this world?

I trained so hard, not only for the school, for myself, the most important thing is to let my mother see my wonderful performance, I have liked to perform well since I was a child, to make you happy, now that you are gone, I want my mother to be happy, she said, the work can not be delayed any longer, I understand her, but who knows the loss in my heart? She can't see it, no matter how good I behave, what's the use? And no one can send me a bottle of water and a word of encouragement when I finish the performance.

I have wanted to write this letter for a long time, and I have decided not to make the letter to you a private journal anymore, so that my mother knows what I really think, and communicate well, otherwise, there will be only a dead end.

Your dear daughter: Doudou

October 25, 2012

PS. Attached: "To Dear Dad" short poem

Daddy, I am a princess, and you are my knight,

Take care of my daily life carefully;

Dad, I am Xiaocao, you are the big tree beside me,

Shelter me from the wind, frost, rain and dew.

Daddy, even if I'm no longer a princess, you're no longer a knight,

I only wish you could be with me for a few more years;

Dad, even if I am no longer a grass, you are no longer a tree,

I only wish you could stay with me for a few more years.

In the future, there will be my wonderful performance;

In the future, there will be my perfect results.

Dad, I want to ask you,

Don't you expect a great performance from me?

Don't you expect perfect results from me?

Why leave in a hurry?

Why do you have to leave quietly?

Although, you're gone, but I don't have the slightest resentment!

Although, you are gone, but I will live bravely!

Everything has a cause,

I know you love me,

I also know that you are reluctant to give up on me;

But I know you're the one to do big things,

In such a small place, it will only bury your talents;

But I know better that you left to exercise my mind,

So that I will not be defeated by setbacks and difficulties.

I have been bitter and sad about your departure,

But after that, I will be stronger and more courageous to live!

If you don't experience wind and rain, how can you see a rainbow!

Thank you, Dad!

I wish you all the best and happiness in your heavenly life!