It's another festive year, and I'm especially afraid of the phone ringing. Pen~Fun~Pavilion www.biquge.info Every time the phone rings after work, I am terrified, and I don't know how to deal with the concern and anxiety on the other end of the phone.

However, there are always many people in every festival: relatives, friends, teachers, classmates, colleagues...... I would call, let my heart have to go perfunctory again and again in pain, tell everyone that I was fine, and then take a deep breath again and again to relax myself and calm my heart. Every time, I had to hang up the phone when the tears were about to burst, and find a place where no one was there to cry. No one can understand this kind of pain and the pain in my heart. And I don't want to mention it, I don't want to get into it, I have been running away from pain, avoiding memory, trying to numb my heart, not feeling or experiencing, and even trying my best to control my mind not to touch this scene, but this kind of pain has been stubbornly occupying my sober mind, refusing to flinch at all, and tormenting me so unscrupulously.

I have been avoiding any signs and clues of the environment in my thinking and behavior, and I have never even seen him, although I have never forgotten or diluted every second, I am waiting for the day to let go, the day when I really let go: let go of the past, let go of thoughts, let go of pain and suffering, think of it without waves, and return to calm emotions. Calmly face your own situation, and there will be no more deliberate and evasive day.

Now, I can't face the current situation calmly and calmly, and I still have to fight hard against myself to overcome my self-pity. So, how I hope you will be considerate of me, and give me a quiet environment, so that I can slowly soothe my nerves, and spend every torturous festival in peace, like more than a thousand days and nights.