It was morning, but there was no sunshine. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 infoThe air was filled with rain, dark clouds shrouded it, and then the rain fell. The heavy rain hit the car window, traveled through the road, and finally stopped at the gate of the high school where Xiao Lan studied.

"It's here. The driver, Li Lao, slowly stepped on the brakes and reminded Xiao Lan softly after the car stopped.

Xiao Lan didn't get out of the car for a long time.

Students with umbrellas of different colors poured into the school in clusters, but they became hesitant and did not get out of the car. Xiao Lan held her chin and looked uncertain.

Going to school means facing classmates and teachers, these people are used to the standard smile of egrets, but Xiao Lan really can't laugh now, she doesn't even bother to say a word, and she must not be able to show it.

She tried to bring a smile to her face, but it was worse than crying, and she tried to adjust it, but it turned out to be worse.

She reverted to her indifferent appearance, but became much more natural.

Li Lao saw Xiao Lan's performance from the rearview mirror, sighed, and persuaded her: "If you don't want to laugh, don't force it." ”

Li Lao is a driver who has followed Egret to and from school for many years, and he knows the situation of Egret better than Egret's parents, and he can also see Egret's strong smile, but as a hired driver, he is not good at talking.

She glanced at Li Lao, nodded slightly, picked up the red umbrella beside her, and got out of the car. Xiao Lan put away all her expressions, her expressionless indifferent temperament emanated from her body, and she walked all the way into the school.

Someone recognized Xiao Lan and greeted her, but Xiao Lan ignored it and did not respond, which made others look very embarrassed. She kept the same expression and walked to the office at the top of the stairs, only to see an acquaintance.

This acquaintance is Xiao Lan's previous math teacher, a middle-aged woman facing menopause, who makes things difficult in every way, likes to shirk responsibility the most, and always treats others with a harsh, picky attitude.

At the corner of the staircase, students walked back and forth, and the meeting between the two immediately attracted attention.

"Oh! I thought this was!" the "people's teacher" shouted loudly, blocking Xiao Lan's way, but he barely ran into it head-on.

Xiao Lan raised her head, her usual indifference, waiting for her self-directed and self-acting, Xiao Lan could even see the weird joy in her eyes, as if she had been waiting here from the beginning.

"Tsk!" the left corner of the "people's teacher" rose slightly, with a look of disdain, arrogant thoughts, everything was under her control.

"Didn't you say, 'Don't read it'? Why are you here again?" there was no one else around them, and there was no mockery in her tone.

"The teacher told you that sometimes knowledge is your capital, and your parents' money is not yours. You have to think about it, you eat your parents and wear your parents' clothes, and it is hard for your parents to make money. ”

"You have to study hard, don't mess around with these things that you don't have, you know?"

She was talking there, Xiao Lan just stood there, motionless, and there was no reaction, she felt that Xiao Lan was wandering, and she didn't listen to it at all. She snapped in one breath, faster than the rate of a machine gun, but the other party didn't listen to it at all.

The "people's teacher" is not angry, anyway, Xiao Lan is back in disgrace now, and her anger has long since disappeared. So, she sneered and continued to direct and act: "I've said everything like this, and I can't do anything if you don't stop." You'll know when you're older. ”

In the eyes of others, Xiao Lan was humiliated and lost face. People who heard the whole process couldn't help but stop and observe the changes in Xiao Lan's expression and his reaction afterwards.

But Xiao Lan didn't react, and after the "people's teacher" left, she also left directly.

Xiao Lan understood that she really didn't stop what the other party was saying just now, because her hallucinations reappeared......

Gunshots rang out, and blood covered the faces of the other party. Xiao Lan understood that this was an illusion, and did not do anything out of the ordinary, and only after the other party left, the illusion disappeared.

The hallucinations were getting worse and worse, and Xiao Lan knew it, but she didn't take any measures.

However, after the episode, there is a follow-up.

It was precisely because of being temporarily stopped that Xiao Lan was late.

The people in the science class had already sat down, and a middle-aged male teacher began to talk on the podium, talking endlessly, not caring about Xiao Lan standing at the door at all.

Or, he just deliberately hung Xiao Lan there as a punishment for being late. A teacher who didn't wait to see Xiao Lan made Xiao Lan stand at the door for twenty minutes.

"Teacher, there's someone at the door. Finally, someone couldn't stand it anymore and interrupted the teacher.

"I know. The teacher replied lightly, gave the interjecting student a warning look, and then continued to talk about the topic, ignoring Xiao Lan and not letting her in.

Without permission, she waited at the door.

But until the end of class, she was not allowed to enter the classroom.

I stood at the door and listened to the class for half an hour, so I understood the other party's "good intentions".

“…… Okay, that's it for this paper, and remember to review it well when you go back. Tonight's homework is still a test paper. The teacher, who heard the bell at the end of class, finally stopped the lecture, put the chalk back in its place, and ordered today's homework.

The teacher sorted out his lesson plan, packed up his things, and passed by Xiao Lan before turning his head to talk to the person standing at the door.

"Your name is Egret, right? Your seat is at the last table in the fourth group, don't be late next time. ”

After he finished saying this, he left without looking back, too lazy to say more to Xiao Lan.

did not introduce Xiao Lan to her classmates, and did not help her integrate into the group.

Stubborn teachers generally hate students for being undisciplined, and the comments of transfer students in another class teacher are very bad, and he also treats Xiao Lan coldly.

If he doesn't study liberal arts well, he can't bear to come here to make trouble and lower his class score.

That's the reason for the hate.

Xiao Lan came to transfer to the science class by herself, and she was not a student that the school focused on cultivating.

The students in this class are struggling desperately in this school, but they have never been able to go further, resulting in a sense of confusion about the future and dissatisfaction with the reality of the situation.

This is a common trait among students in schools who hover in the middle of the pack at the beginning of their grades.

Therefore, they were full of doubts and dissatisfaction with Xiao Lan's transfer at the beginning, coupled with the teacher's neglect, the whole class completely ignored Xiao Lan, this person.

Xiao Lan stood with sore feet, she was glad that she wore flat shoes and persevered for half an hour.

She walked to her seat, which was assigned to a window seat in the corner of the classroom, and the blackboard could be taken up by the back chairs of the group in front of her.

Xiao Lan could see that there was no one sitting in that seat at all, and a thick layer of dust had fallen on it, and Xiao Lan was assigned there as a transfer student.

The classmates and the head teacher didn't like Xiao Lan very much, and they showed it at the beginning.

When Xiao Lan came, the teacher just pointed to the table and said a word, and let her go. There was no instruction, and Xiao Lan was not introduced to the class.

The classmates in the class also subconsciously ignored and ignored Xiao Lan.

All day, how does it feel to be ignored by Xiao Lan?

It's not very comfortable.

The teachers of each subject were writing and drawing on the blackboard, and the boy in front of her was a tall man, and she couldn't see how Xiao Lan straightened her back......

The speed of science lectures in the third year of high school is fast, and the math teacher can pass three questions a minute. Xiao Lan couldn't hear clearly, couldn't keep up, and couldn't understand......

She didn't know what the homework was, the new textbooks didn't arrive, and even the papers were always missing one of hers, she was like an outsider......

The hostile eyes, the dissatisfied eyes, poked Xiao Lan's back, like walking on thin ice......

Xiao Lan didn't care about all this, she had the knowledge of science in the third year of high school in Zhong Ming's mission world, she didn't care about other people's attitudes towards her, and she didn't ask for anything from this group of people.

What really bothered her was the ever-present hallucinations and auditory hallucinations. She was mentally weakened, her nerves were about to be disconnected from the back and forth, her memory was declining, and her thinking could not keep up with her actions.

Hallucinations always appear inadvertently.

In the quiet classroom she could hear gunshots, and in the teacher on the podium, she could see from above the faces of the white men she had killed with her own hands.

Hallucinations are frequent, getting more and more severe, and becoming more and more real.

She was already on the verge of collapse, with the abyss at her feet, and the darkness could pull her down with a slow move.

"It's really ......" I can't stand it anymore......

Runaway edges.

In the last class of the morning, while the teacher was still lecturing, she rushed out of the classroom alone, like a headless fly, and finally found a place where she could stay alone - the bathroom.

Xiao Lan, who was out of control, hid in the bathroom alone, bowed her head and muttered, muttering to herself that she didn't know what she was talking about, and all kinds of words popped out of her mouth.

Looking up at the ceiling, I was in a daze for a long time.

It's really uncomfortable, Xiao Lan feels dizzy, both physically and mentally have suffered the same stimulation, obviously very calm, but still can't resist the thoughts keep popping up, hallucinations hit wave after wave, and he can't tell the truth from the fake at all.

Xiao Lan covered her head to sober herself up, she hated the feeling of losing control.

That's right!

She remembered that she had prepared some tranquilizers, and quickly took out the medicine from her jacket pocket, mixed it with the tap water from the bathroom faucet, and swallowed it. The tap water, with the smell of ammonia of chemicals, ran down the throat and into the nasal passages.

"Cough!cough!cough!" Xiao Lan knelt down on the sink, lowered her head and coughed vigorously, as if she was going to cough out all her internal organs, and she reacted and tears jumped out......

Xiao Lan half-knelt for a long, long time, until she felt a little better, and then dared to stand up.

A hand lifted, brushing away the blurry mirror, and everything became clear.

The chaotic world suddenly quieted down, dragging Xiao Lan out of hell, her breathing was as calm as a feather, and the sound of water droplets outside the window could be heard in her ears......

Everything returns to calm.

Xiao Lan finally understood that she needed to take medicine and a psychiatrist.