379 New Purgatory City: "Don't Want Him to Die"

-Hideka's subconscious-

04：22 AM

"Daddy!" all of Hideka's thoughts stopped because of the word.

"There is nowhere to find the iron shoes, and it takes no effort to get there. Xiuxiang thought of that day, the words in her heart, the words that repeated over and over again, the words that haunted her heart, "I don't want him to die." ”

"yes, why can't you think about it?" Hideka wanted to laugh at herself, but she couldn't.

She remembered the day she learned of her father's death, and she was so apprehensive that day.

I was overwhelmed, I couldn't believe it, I tried my best to deny it, and finally I had to accept it.

Her tears fell after a long time, and this reaction was not because she was not sad enough, but because the impact of things was too great at once, and the reaction was a little slower, as if the wound appeared instantly, and the pain had not yet been transmitted to the brain.

It came too suddenly.

There are no "really happening" feelings yet.

Xiuxiang also knew that she had fantasized in her heart, "Maybe this news is fake, Dad may not be dead, he can't die so easily, a person who was alive a few days ago, how can he say that it's gone, it's gone?"

Xiuxiang couldn't believe it, she hoped that it was all a dream, and she would wake up soon, maybe deep down, she had been waiting for the moment of "waking up".

But at that moment, it didn't come for a long time.

Later, when she received her father's pocket watch, Xiuxiang knew that this moment of "waking up" might not come.

She never woke up one day and found that everything was a dream, a long, long dream.

Every morning, she knew that it was a continuation of the previous day, that it was not a dream.

Days like this abound, day after day, without end, and my father never returned.

Until that day, she re-encountered the book "Trajectory", although she couldn't travel back to her childhood era, and she didn't know why, but it would be great to be able to find him again, and if she could save Oh Minshuo's life by the way.

"How gracious, like an old friend, waiting for me there. Xiuxiang thought this when she saw "Trajectory".

"Guide yourself, let yourself follow. ”

"Even after chasing that self, I don't know if he will appear. ”

Therefore, she slowly accepted the fact that her father had left, just as she accepted the existence of "crossing" in the world, or rather, she was somehow reborn with new memories at some point, then this crossing did not cause the two of her to appear, she was still her, but she knew a lot more.

Hideka thought about it, and that grief hit again. Although a family is the best to be neat and tidy, and beautiful and beautiful, but we also have to face reality.

Xiuxiang finally knew that in the future, in this world, no one would respond to the word "Dad" again.

This word, the future only exists in one's own thoughts, or in the narration of others, or when lonely, he talks to himself to a certain phantom in the air.

Xiuxiang only understood at this moment that the preciousness of family lies in existence.

To exist is to be just.

Existence is everything.

A home is meaningful only if it "exists".

Even though Dad was a heinous villain, she didn't want him to die;

Even if Dad spends his life in prison, she doesn't want him to die;

As long as he exists somewhere in the world.

Xiuxiang just didn't want him to die.

But that's just the way it is.

At that time, Hideka hoped for the first time that there were souls and ghosts in the world.

The reality of everything, starting from the first tears in the eyes, became undeniable.

Xiuxiang wants to deny herself, but how powerless that denial is.

Xiuxiang wants to deny reality, and even more denies that it is so pale.

Because the news was told to them by two policemen.

Xiuxiang still seems to remember the clothes of those two people, which are dark blue and dark blue, blue and black.

"Is your mother here? We need to talk to your mother. "That was the first thing they said.

"Your lover, Mr. Han Guangzheng, unfortunately died in the line of duty, please come with us. Those were the last words they spoke.

But the appearance of those two people, Xiuxiang no longer remembers.

Look, time has erased everything, and Xiuxiang was sure that she would remember that moment for the rest of her life. It's only been a few years, I don't remember anymore, what should I do, isn't my memory 100% accurate, why are these key things always vague, like in the clouds, I am always separated from my memory by a veil.

Xiuxiang wiped the tears from her cheeks, and her vision was clear again.

She found that her neck had stiffened, and she had to get up again, roll down from the bed, and see if this "Xiuxiang" lying down had shed a single tear.

Xiuxiang already has the answer in her heart, but she is denying herself, not wanting that to be the answer.

"No?"

"Not at all!"

"Not really. ”

"No......"

"You ruthless fellow. Xiuxiang said.