Whenever I think of Spider, I always think of Leo Tolstoy's sentence - happy families are all alike, while unhappy families have their own misfortunes.

Ah Zhu's misfortune is incomprehensible to ordinary people, and behind the incomprehensible "dirty" is her unknown experience.

'Li Fei receives', three words, are like the brushstrokes of primary school students.

She really didn't go to school much.

Just as I opened the envelope to look at it, there was a knock on the door.

I hurriedly stuffed the envelope back into my suitcase, if my father found out about this letter, he would definitely misunderstand me, right?

"Dad, what's wrong?"

"Aren't you sleeping yet?" he asked softly.

Thinking that the door of his room seemed to be closed, he must have thought that I hadn't turned off the lights so late, worried that I was missing Fu Xiangqin.

So, immediately turned off the light and said, "Sleep, you should go to bed early!"

"Good, good. ”

I thought about what Ah Zhu would say to me, but I was afraid that I would disturb my father's sleep again, so I could only wait for the opportunity to watch it again.

The next day,

I officially became the daughter of this family.

However, my father refused to let me work, and resolutely refused to let me touch those dirty things.

Even when I changed into his most shabby clothes, he thought I was too clean.

But what I have decided will not change.

Because of his limited mobility, my father went to collect it by himself except for a few big stores, and the others basically came to deliver waste.

And after he sorted the waste, he called for someone to send the goods to the larger scrap yard.

During the day, a few people came to haul the scrap, and when they saw me, they asked my father, "Who is this girl?"

When the father told them the truth, the group was shocked.

Shocked, Zhang Luo insisted on letting his father have a treat, and his father agreed with a smile and a happy face.

When he couldn't keep up, I went to help him tidy up.

Seeing that I was so "disobedient", I had no choice but to let me.

A lot of dirty stuff, and the smell of the big summer is particularly bad. Whenever I couldn't help but feel like throwing up, I thought that my father must have felt more uncomfortable and wanted to throw up.

How many winds and rains have been blown over the years? He can endure such a severe disability, am I a healthy person, have any reason to retreat?

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Because he had to entertain guests in the evening, after finishing his work early, my father was busy setting a table at home.

I served on the sidelines, and they praised me vigorously, and my father's mouth never closed.

When I watched him smile, my heart hurt.

It's been sixteen years, he must not have smiled so happily, right?

He sent everyone away, and with the strength of the wine, he spoke more.

"Li Fei, do you want to know what happened to Dad?" He sat down in his chair and lit a cigarette, his gaze drifting far away in the smoke.

"I want to hear about my mother. I said.

Of course, when I say mom, I naturally mean the biological mother who has died.

I remember that before Lu Li left, I heard Lu Feng say something, but the words were full of obscurity, and I still don't know the name of my biological mother.

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My father smoked a cigarette and told me his story.

He was a soldier back then, and he worked as a platoon commander.

When he was training with a group of recruits, because of a mistake in the training of the recruits, he was hit by a splinter in his head when he was protecting the recruits.

After being in a coma in bed for several weeks, when he returned from Lord Yama, the left half of his body was paralyzed by the oppressive injury to his right brain.

Disability discharge.

If it is a disabled soldier who has a labor force, he will be arranged to some logistics department for retirement, but in his case, he has been judged to have no labor force and cannot be arranged.

At that time, the pension received was very high, and the army would also be responsible for a part of the future medical expenses.

After returning with the money, my father began to talk about the marriage. But because of physical reasons, no woman wants to marry him.

But my father didn't let himself fall because of those things, he tried hard to stand up, and tried hard to learn to survive with half of the body of an ordinary person.

He has only one eldest brother in this county, but the eldest brother has already split up before he became a soldier, and his sister-in-law is mean, so he can only support himself.

I bought this old house and compound and settled down.

Later, complications from the illness came.

Various headaches, tinnitus, dizziness, inability to control the left side of the body, and a series of problems such as muscle atrophy. However, those illnesses are not fully reimbursed in the medical bills, and he needs to pay a part of his pension to recuperate.

As inflation increases, pensions are getting smaller and smaller.

He wanted to make money, but no one wanted a severely crippled.

He wanted to try to do some business on his own, but all the inconveniences ended in failure.

He has to plan for the future, and he can't sit on a mountain and eat a pension.

It seems that all he can do is pick up the rags, but he is a soldier, a soldier who is particularly face-saving.

So, he set out at 10 o'clock every night to dig through the garbage bins to pick up garbage.

It's fine in the summer, but it's cold in the winter......

Wrapped in a thick cotton jacket, it was biting cold.

He could choose to pick it up during the day when there was sun, but he couldn't put it down. The face of the military.

One night, while he was picking up garbage, he saw a woman who was colder than him. That woman was my mother.

It's such a cold day, but my mom is very thinly dressed. Lying shivering under the bridge hole.

At that time, it was really cold!

There was not such a thick down jacket as now, and my father's military coat was torn and could not block the wind.

He looked at your mother's dying appearance, and took her home on the tricycle.

At that time, the county seat was not as big as it is now, and the west of the city was still a village.

Afraid that the people in the village would talk about it, the next day, he sent his mother to the aid station again.

After sending it over, he was not at ease. I thought my mother was beautiful, and after two days, I went to the aid station to see her.

When he saw her cowering madly in the corner, with bruises and purple on her body, he rushed in on crutches and asked, "Who hit this!"

The staff saw that he was wearing a military coat and knew that he was a veteran, so they said cautiously: "This woman is insane! When she came, she went crazy and disturbed the rest of those homeless people, so she was beaten." ”

The mother was scared of being beaten, and when she saw her father, she ran directly to hug her father and didn't let go. I want to go home with my father.

The shelter was overcrowded, and the staff wanted her father to take her away.

Her father took her home to raise her, and then one day, her mother was in normal spirits!

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I knew that my mother had been abnormal until she died, so I couldn't wait to ask my father, "Is she really normal?"

"It's a lot normal. At that time, I had been living for more than a month, and I suddenly seemed to be sober. Said to go. ”

"You let her go?" I asked.

My father lit another cigarette, took two puffs and said, "I couldn't keep her when she was leaving, but she came back not long after she left." When I came back, I looked at the way she looked and knew she might be a little sick. At that time, I regretted not asking her more when she was sober. ”

"Didn't my mom say anything at the time?" I asked curiously.

"Actually, she didn't say I could guess something. When she was fine, she liked to stare at the pictures of me in military uniform, and sometimes she would laugh happily. That's when I knew she had been in a relationship with a soldier before. As he spoke, he pointed to the pictures on the old framed picture on the wall.

"Yes, Dad, I've heard something about my mother, they said that my mother used to work as a greeter in the largest hotel in Hangang City, and then she met an officer in the army, but she didn't know who she offended and was bullied. I heard that the officer's hometown is in the capital. ”

Thinking of this, I thought of Lu Li again, I don't know where he is now and how his life is.

"Well......" After hearing this, the father was not very surprised, and after extinguishing the cigarette, he said lightly: "However, I think that men should protect their women, and if that man really loves her, he should not let her become crazy......

Looking at my father's slowly clenched fists, I remembered that he was my mother's real husband.

"I'm not your mother's first man, I know your mother has had children. ”

"Do I have a half-brother or sister in this world?" I said.

He nodded lightly and said, "Well, there should be an older brother, when your mother is not normal, she not only talks about that officer, but also about her son."

"When I left home, I was supposed to go to them, but then she probably didn't have any other place to go, right? I asked her why she came back to me again, and she said that because I was a soldier, and that I looked like 'him', and when I asked him who he was and what his name was, she didn't say anything......"

"Do you know my mother's name?" I asked.

He shook his head and said, "I don't know." ”

"Then you got married. ”

"Well, I spent money to get her a household registration, and then I got married. Although at the time, I looked at her state and knew that she must be sick again, but I still married her. After all, I want to have a child of my own......" he said, looking at me meaningfully.

He said what was in his heart, he wanted to have a child.

"Well, now there is. I laughed.

"Heh......" he smiled and said, "yes, there is." ”

"Then why did my mother leave suddenly?"