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¥¥¥ On May 14, 1987, Chen Yueping and three women ¥¥

"Love is dead, I'm still alive, life is so tenacious!" - from Li Ruqing's novel "Confessions"

On May 14, 1987, a month after I recorded that most memorable letter, I turned 20 years old and a month old. The diary for that day was cluttered and went like this:

"The oblique moon accompanies the three stars, the four mountains meet, and the day and day fight" -- this is the word "heartfield". Xintian, Chen Yueping and the three women! aroused my lovesickness.

I never imagined that she would become my demon, unable to summon it, lingering, and gnawing at my spiritual flesh. I have no reason to be ruthless, I have no reason to be negligent, but I am negligent.

I speculated that because I went to a more affectionate letter, she said in the letter: "I'm back again, just like the ** flower in my hometown" (the chrysanthemum at that time was not as derogatory as it is now). Then, in the hapless [Men and Women of the Country High School], I specified who I was interested in, and I didn't mention her at all!

If a girl learns that she has no place in the hearts of the boys in her heart, how heavy will that sadness and frustration be! (she must know this), and later, he asks her to say hello to another!--the only little hope can not be dashed......?

My coldness to her was cruel, and I didn't listen to their advice in my relationship with Jiang Peiqing.

Ask myself why I am doing this?

I must tell you what you do: I can't love you, no matter what you do to me.

There's a demon in my heart that I can't get out, I can't think of her and hug you. In this way, it is cruel to her again, but what can be done?

I knew that she wanted my love, but she hardly dared to ask for it, fearing that she was unworthy......

I have been cruel to the "fish I have been looking for for a long time", and I believe that we are now "just a strange passer-by!" but have become a strange passer-by.

I'm so cruel to all who care about me and love me for a qiē.

I love fate, I love what fate gives me, but what I love, I can't get.

You can't be cruel to others anymore.

In fact, no. (A few months ago, two more pairs of eyes were staring at me, lingering and lingering, and I avoided them.) One of them, I knew he had been staring at me for nearly ten minutes, and I walked away with my rice bowl in my hand. A few days later, she dropped out of school. ）

I can only be cruel to myself.

Who waited at the door of the house for a long time? and suddenly appeared in front of me at dusk? (She must have searched all the streets and alleys of Yunlong Town to find me in the house of the owner of the bookshelf)......

When I went to her house for the first time, my grandmother asked us both of us with the surname Chen, and we were not ranked at all.

There were too many poached eggs to send to the pear for the first time...... (I've never eaten that much at once in my life.)

Exquisite cuisine......

The reserved nature of a girl, the shyness of a young man......

My passion was stuffed in my belly.

Lift that bucket of water lightly.

I went with my cousin to pick her up, but she didn't agree.

After passing the pass and approaching the school gate, she chased after her (panting) and shouted three times behind: "Chen Yueping, Chen Yueping, Chen Yueping......"

I must have been excited, was it really just to send my diary?

I remember that the "old style" told me that she had a page of her diary that she was not allowed to read. What is written?The Secret of a Maiden?

Is it just to watch Chen Qingyun's "The Ugly Swordsman"?(At that time, the charm of the novel replaced the meditation in the heart.) ）

walked without worry, and didn't say a few words. Go heroic, go heroic, go shameful!

In the classroom, he turned around and threw the composition text to me, and he had a soul-like expression, an expression that I would only see in you for the rest of my life. (Now that I think about it, the most important thing is the positioning of the shot as soon as it turns around, which is more accurate than the star turning around and shooting, people are tempered, why does she have that level as a girl? ）

Lianghui only remembers your smile.

Last year, I took the college entrance examination, brought my sister and my friend Jingbu to the school to see us -- was it warm for you, or reserved for you? I can only escape, only posturing.

I'm gone, I can't see your frustration, I didn't send you a staircase!

After the college entrance examination, I didn't dare to see you, in a hurry, in a hurry, I escaped by bus, but I was thinking about you all the way.

Haha! I don't have you in my heart! I don't have you in my heart! I don't have you in my heart!

I'm sorry for you, but time may make you forget.

Even if you find out that I hate and I am ashamed, it is not easy to forget people.

Now I am haggard, with gray hair and a full beard. And as you expected, it will always be cold, Amen.

Ah, the door is open for no reason, and it is blown open for no reason. Ahh

I'm not kidding, I've been living a strict life, so who made our jokes?

Ah, ****** how can I be worthy of you.

In the morning glow, a flush rose on Tianyu's face. There is always a brilliant glow on your face, like the magic lamp that ignites my surgery.

No matter what, life burns.

At that time we were childishly mature, maturely naïve.

At that time, we were in love at the beginning, and we were in love at the beginning.

"Little Station" (Author: Xin Yin, "Speech and Social", Issue 87/1)

"A hesitation misses a world, misses the fullness of the midnight moon

The rain is drenching the sour memories, and the street lamp is standing tall with regret

The car that day was very empty and empty, acquiescing to a boundless emotion

I'm always afraid that I've mistranslated your bell, and I'm hesitant to move forward

From then on, others sat in your car, and your sorrow penetrated my loneliness

All the miles can be re-walked, and what can't be returned is the small station of life."