I was with Zhou Fang for a whole month, and neither of me mentioned the sentence that I was not a couple for a month, until that day when the two of me were tired of her house, Li Yan called, I looked at the caller ID on the phone, and suddenly felt a sense of joy, but also a sense of loss. She was abroad, because of the time difference, and Li Yan and I rarely talked on the phone for more than a month. I have almost become accustomed to Zhou Fang's greasy taste in my heart, accustomed to the fact that I commute to work with her every day, and cook at home together, even my colleagues in the company have said that I have changed a lot and am much more cheerful than before, maybe this is the charm of Zhou Fang. But the lie will eventually be broken, I went against Li Yan's back to do something that violated our love vow, but I enjoyed all this in my heart very much, this month I really regarded Zhou Fang as my own girlfriend, although I would often think of Li Yan, but I chose to ignore it. Now that Li Yan is about to come back, I looked at Zhou Fang, who chose to hide in the kitchen, and looked at my phone, I know that this relationship is about to break, how should I face two women in the future, no woman is willing to accept a man who lives with three women in his heart, and he is even more unwilling to accept my current situation. But this is still caused by myself, and I still have to face it.

"Fei Fei, what are you doing? It took so long to answer my phone, did you not want me?"

"No, I've been thinking about you all the time, but I was delayed just now, and I immediately took it as soon as I saw it, don't think I'm there?"

I said insincere words on the phone, but my heart had already flown to Zhou Fang, who was close at hand, I suddenly felt a little sorry for Zhou Fang, watching her busy in the kitchen, I shamelessly wanted to continue this life.

"Fei Fei...... Fei Fei ...... Are you listening to me?"

"Ah...... Ahh ”

"I said I'll be home tomorrow night, I'm not excited or unhappy, why are you going to take me home?"

"Excited, happy, I'll pick you up at the airport!"

To be honest, I really hope that Li Yan will come back, but now I suddenly hope that she can come back later, my heart is struggling, and I didn't continue to listen to what she said over there, my mind is full of bits and pieces of me and Zhou Fang in the past month, and her smile is almost all engraved in my mind. I don't know how I should face Zhou Fang again after tomorrow, and I don't know how I will face Li Yan who is by my side in the future.

"Fei Fei...... Fei Fei ...... You're in a daze again, did you listen to me?"

It sounds like Li Yan on the other end of the phone is a little unconcerned, I have never been like this when I am talking to her on the phone, but today I just can't concentrate on listening to her, my heart is already a mess.

"Listen, you say, there's something at hand that is being handled, and you say I'm listening. ”

"You just do your job with all your heart, and you don't know if you lose me one day. I just said I'm back and we'll get married, okay? I just told my mom, and she agreed to our thing. ”

"Eun, okay, you have the final say. Ahhhh......h Ahhhh......h What do you say, get married when you come back?"

When I heard that I was married, my first reaction was no, I couldn't let go of some things, including Zhou Fang, but I raised the issue of my marriage with Li Yan first, and the things I couldn't let go of were actually a joke left by Wen Xue for everyone to talk about. The most fundamental thing is the selfishness in my own heart, I can't give up the life I have now, wandering between two women, enjoying the love and tenderness of two women. Some people may feel tired, but what man doesn't like this.

"Yes, we'll get married when I come back!"

"It's too soon, let's wait for you to come back and we'll discuss it again, can you?"

"No, you said you wanted to marry me, I only left for a month and you want to change your hexagram, hmph, I know that you said you wanted to get married because you were hit that day, you still don't want to marry me in your heart. ”

Li Yan's roar came from the phone, I knew she was serious, she wanted to have such a day with me, and before the incident between me and Zhou Fang happened, I also hoped that I could enter the palace of our marriage with her hand. But since this happened, I have begun to regret what I said that day.

"No, what are you talking nonsense, I'm serious, it's just that when you suddenly said today that I wasn't ready, it felt very sudden. You see, let's come back and discuss it, I can't just give you a wedding hastily, I need time to prepare for a perfect wedding for you. So, we'll ......... when you get back."

Li Yan's angry voice suddenly interrupted what I was about to say:

"No, no, no. ”

Originally, I still wanted to do Li Yan's work again, so it seems that if Li Yan comes back and I don't agree to get married, then she will really think that I am not serious, or she will doubt my feelings for her. She's a very sensitive woman, and I can't hurt her. But if I don't hurt Li Yan, then I can only hurt Zhou Fang in the end, and I really don't want this situation to happen from the bottom of my heart.

"Okay, it's all up to you. ”

I can only say this, it sounds like perfunctory, Li Yan is important to me, I would rather I get hurt myself, I don't want her to be unhappy.

"Mmmm, this is like a word, I don't want to talk to you anymore, and besides, you have to regret it again, I'll hang up first, remember to take me home tomorrow, bye-bye." ”

Looking at the mobile phone in my hand, my heart seemed to be pressed by something, it was so heavy, and it was so difficult to breathe, I tried my best to wake myself up, walked to the kitchen, and hugged Zhou Fang from behind. Feeling my embrace, Zhou Fang put her face on my face, and I hugged it tighter. She turned around and kissed my lips, and we kissed each other hard, both cherishing this last moment, and I knew it might be the last time in my life. At this moment I found that I was really in love with her, and her month-long experience left a deep imprint on my heart. When I had such vulgar and evil thoughts, there was something happening on the other side of this city that I regretted for a lifetime, and my hatred for myself also started when I knew about it, but now I am in the dark, and I am still immersed in Zhou Fang's kiss.

The city hospital is full of people who come and go, some are visiting patients, some are patients, some are mild colds, some are terminally ill, and some are departed and some are reborn here. In the corridor of the oncology department, Wen Xue and her husband sat on chairs in the corridor. Her husband's face was sad, but Wen Xue was extremely calm.

"Wang Kai, do you regret it?"

"I regret it, but it's not because I married you, but I can't do anything in the face of you now, I can only look at you now, I really ......"

"Okay, don't say so much, you can help me do so much, I really thank you, don't blame yourself, this is my life, what can I do if my life is like this? ”

Wen Xue looked at Wang Kai and felt guilty for a while, she pulled this friend who had a good impression of her in order to deceive me, Wen Xue always felt that she owed Wang Kai, but she couldn't repay it in this life, so she could only wait for the next life. Wen Xue once thought that she could put on a wedding dress and accompany He Fei into the palace of marriage, but fate was so jealous of the two loving people, and separated the two people with illness, and all the dreams that Wen Xue had had were shattered at that moment. Wen Xue knew that she might not be able to accompany He Fei for the rest of her life, so she began to plot to deceive He Fei soon after knowing her illness.

"Don't say so much, this is my choice, let's go abroad, I heard that there has been a successful case abroad, let's go abroad to see, maybe it's good." ”

Wang Kai took Wen Xue's hand and said anxiously, but Wang Kai also knew that it was already an advanced stage, and the possibility of being cured was too small, and Wen Xue didn't accept chemotherapy, could she go abroad to try? But he watched Wen Xue endure pain by his side day by day, but he couldn't do anything, Wang Kai sometimes hated himself, a woman who was once so beautiful, but now she ....... Wang Kai still remembers the scene when he first met Wen Xue, it was raining very hard that day, Wen Xue stood in the rain and stood like that, letting the rain wet himself, at that moment Wang Kai felt that the scene was very beautiful, and the girl in the rain was very beautiful. Wang Kai walked over and covered Wen Xue with his umbrella, who knew that Wen Xue shook it off at once, and slapped himself by the way, Wang Kai was not angry at that moment, maybe it was that slap Wang Kai fell in love with Wen Xue. He accompanied Wen Xue to stand in the rain, watching Wen Xue cry in the rain until he fainted in his arms. But God is unfair to people, why should the girl he likes be like this.

"Wang Kai, I know my own situation, you just let me leave quietly, the last period of time with you with me, to be honest, I am very happy, you have accompanied me to the places I wanted to go to but have not been, walked through those places that he did not accompany me, at that moment I really hope that I have been with me for so many years is you, but my life is very thin, there is no blessing, my whole youth is with him, he has become the most important part of my life, but I can't accompany him to old age, and I also completely hurt him, I know him, at this moment he doesn't know what kind of decadence he hasHe didn't know what he was doing again. ”

Wen Xue began to cry as she spoke, lying in Wang Kai's arms, how she wished that she was accompanied by He Fei at this moment, but she couldn't do it, in the past ten years, she knew He Fei's feelings for herself, and with his character, he could definitely do something out of the ordinary, and it was possible that he would choose to commit suicide at the moment he left. This is the last thing I want to see, for so many years, I have been used to everything he has to him, and no matter how willful he has been for so many years, he has accompanied himself and tolerated himself. But I don't have the blessings to enjoy a lifetime, and I often wonder if I have enjoyed all the blessings of my life, so God wants to take me away. He Fei, are you okay? Where are you at this moment? Wen Xue was still thinking about He Fei in her heart at the moment, and Wen Xue's heart hurt like a knife.

"Don't cry Wen Xue, you can let me stay with you for so long, I'm really happy, doing so much with you during this period of time is also the happiest time I've had in so many years, I've never liked a girl myself, let alone falling in love, but I like you from the bottom of my heart and am willing to do anything with you, even if it's this, I have never regretted it." I think it's enough to have what you just said, it's better than any words of thanks, and I'm really happy to be your husband for a day better than any woman's perfunctory life. ”

Wang Kai hugged Wen Xue, he wanted to be able to hold her like this for a lifetime, but her time was running out, the situation was getting worse day by day, how much she envied He Fei only she knew, but she was also very satisfied, because Wen Xue was with her in the last time, Wang Kai didn't care that he was a chess piece in Wen Xue's feelings, as long as he could accompany her, he was very satisfied.

"Doctor, how much time do I have left?"

"If you do chemotherapy, you can continue for a year, and even the condition may get better, but if you continue now, it will take up to four months, and it may worsen during this time. ”

Wen Xue calculated her time, four months is enough, she can do what she wants to do in these four months, go to the places where she and He Fei have walked together, go to see the places that once had good memories, and finally take a quiet look at He Fei, and finally find a beautiful place to spend thanks. I am enough for myself in this life, I can leave happily, the most regrettable thing is that I did not accompany him into the marriage hall, and I have to watch him sad again and again in his lies, and despair for us for ten years.

"Doctor, what are the chances of getting better with chemotherapy?"

As soon as Wang Kai heard that there was a chance of improvement, he immediately asked the doctor how much he hoped that he could take Wen Xue back from the hands of death, but he couldn't resist Wen Xue, and Wang Kai also knew that the reason why Wen Xue didn't have chemotherapy was nothing more than that he didn't want others to see him lying on a hospital bed like a living dead, without his current long hair, and he didn't want to leave with ugliness when he left.

"It's hard to say this, it depends on the spread of cancer cells, you also know that there is a possibility that cancer cells will continue to spread during chemotherapy, like her, when she came, it was already at an advanced stage, and the cancer cells were already ....... ”

Wang Kai was anxious when he heard this, and rushed up and grabbed the doctor's neckline: "Just now I said that there is a possibility of improvement, but now you can't say it, there is a possibility of spreading, are you lying to us, isn't it, she is not cancer at all, it was you who misdiagnosed, you fucking said yes." ”

Wen Xue pulled Wang Kai away and dragged him to the corridor at the door, looking at Wang Kai squatting at the base of the wall with a sad face, Wen Xue squatted down and hugged Wang Kai.

"I know you're worried about me, but at first I went to a lot of hospitals, and they didn't misdiagnose me, and besides, I don't have four months left, and you take me with me in these four months, and I bring happiness to us to travel the world. We cherish these four months, I don't want to waste it in the hospital, even if I can live for a year under chemotherapy, what can I do, what do you want to face all day long, a bald woman, a pale face like a ghost, I don't want it, I want to accompany you beautifully. ”

Wen Xue actually wants chemotherapy and wants to live for one more year, because who wants to die early. But as soon as chemotherapy on his own long hair had to fall out, He Fei's favorite is his long hair, he also said at the time that it was not easy to do the bridal makeup hair when he got married, and at that time he still hugged himself and said that he would put his hair down, how beautiful it was. Now all I can do for him is to keep what he likes and take what he likes through the last moments.

Wang Kai was hugged by Wen Xue, listening to Wen Xue's words, he cried all of a sudden, looking at how much the girl in front of him hated herself, if she could, then she was willing to bear so much pain for her, let her accompany the person she likes in this world, accompany him to enter the palace of marriage, and accompany those who have always cared about her to grow old. Wang Kai lost his parents since he was a child, he has grown so much alone, he is already so unlucky, why can't he transfer the final misfortune to his head, let himself bear this, don't torture her, why God gives him a person he likes, and finally takes her away from himself. Wang Kai squatted in the corridor of the hospital with the girl in his arms and cried, which was to vent the remorse in his heart and protest against God's injustice.

But at this time, I am still warm in my other humble relationship, feeling Zhou Fang's tenderness, smelling Zhou Fang's body fragrance, and we are enjoying our last moments in our world. At this time, I didn't know that Wen Xue had cancer, and I didn't know that her time was running out at this time, Wen Xue at this moment was an emotional liar to me, who deceived me for ten years, I didn't even want to mention it, and even I felt that Wen Xue coming out of my mouth would be an insult to myself and a blasphemy against pure love.

But when I knew, all I was faced with was a pinch of loess, a cold tombstone. At that moment I had already taken over my whole heart with remorse and pain, I held her tombstone, and I hated her, more than I did when I knew the "lie" she had left me. I also hated myself, if I had insisted on it at that time, if I had cared for her well, and I had gone to her on that impulsive night, then I wouldn't have let her suffer so much. I slapped her tombstone as hard as I could, crying and shouting, and at that moment I really wanted to hear her call "Fei Fei" again. At that moment, I realized how inseparable I was from her. She left quietly, in pain, in grief, while I was still there talking to others. I sat weakly in front of her tombstone, slowly slitting my wrist, there was no pain at that moment, there was only joy and relief, at that moment I wanted her to look at the pain and remorse that I had lied to me for so long. I want to get revenge on her, and I also want to escape the world without her now.

"You leave and get free, I can't do anything about you, but don't you care about me, then you just look at me and wait for death to come like you, don't you care about me, then let me go over there to find you, and settle these accounts with you that you cheated on me, I want you to compensate me for a marriage with you." ”

I roared at her tombstone. Blood soaked my clothes, I grabbed her tombstone weakly, at that moment I felt her body temperature, I saw Wen Xue in a daze, she was still smiling so sweetly, her every move was so naughty, wearing the first dress I bought for her, holding me, shouting my name in my ear.

"Fei Fei, Fei Fei, am I beautiful?"

"Beautiful, beautiful, Xuexue I miss you. ”

When I woke up, I was lying in the hospital, and it was Li Yan who dragged me back from the hands of death, but someone pulled me back from the hands of death, but no one could pull Wen Xue back. Since then, I have started to be decadent, I have given up on myself, and I have lost everything, including Li Yan Zhoufang, and my children, they have all left, and I am the only one who wanders in this world to survive. Your lies have made me suffer greatly, guarding your tombstone, and I am alive in my memories.