A bowl of water is uneven!

It's never been fair for my mom to share food. Once, my mom bought a seedless watermelon, and the first time we saw each other, it was a novelty. Not only does this watermelon not have a seed, but it is also yellow, and we are waiting for our mother to wield a kitchen knife.

Who knows, my mother deliberately deflected the knife and cut it into two pieces, one large and one small, and handed my brother a large one, and the smaller one was naturally mine.

I was so angry that my eyes were full, remembering that since I was a child, I had to let my brother do everything, and then looked at the contrasting watermelon in front of me, and in a fit of anger, I dropped the small melon and ran out of the house crying. I remember my mother chasing after me with a kitchen knife all the way and shouting: "You dead girl, you don't know how difficult it is to make money, waste food, see if I don't kill you! My brother is younger than you, don't you know how to let him?"

Our family meal is also very interesting, a family of four eats around the table, and the dishes on the table are also divided into ABCD area. Zone A is meat and vegetables in front of my brother, Zone B is half meat and half vegetarian in front of my dad, Zone C is vegetables and is in front of me, and Zone D is leftovers in front of my mom.

My dad and I eat fast, and the chopsticks are called "fine, accurate, and ruthless", and we can always catch lean meat, fish belly, and chicken thighs with chopsticks......

My brother eats slowly, and sometimes in order to eat a few more pieces of braised pork, he will dig a hole in his rice, first hide a few pieces of lean meat in the rice, and then continue to enjoy his food slowly.

Of course I'm not happy in my heart, I don't eat as fast as others, and I don't want to play this trick, it's damaged. So I sped up and stuffed the meat into my mouth piece by piece, and my mother was as anxious as an ant on a hot pot, urging my brother to eat a piece, but my brother is a slow man, and he is slow to do anything. Soon, under my mother's regulations, the dishes on the dinner table were quickly divided into ABCD areas.

When I was in junior high school, it was already popular to wear Adi and Nike sneakers, my mother bought sneakers for my dad and my brother, and Qian'er 800 never relented, and when I came here, it became one or two hundred Anta, Xtep, and Li Ning, seeing that I looked unhappy, she always said: "Jingjing, your teacher is not educating you to support domestic products, you look at the style of this shoe is not worse than Adi and Nike......

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Probably since I was in high school, I seemed to be dead, I no longer wanted to be hard at it, I wanted to get the recognition, attention and love of my parents, and I no longer wanted to constantly prove how good, sensible and capable I was than my younger brother. Maybe it's because of desperation! Maybe it's because of the distraction!

When I was a child, I was "black, yellow, and thin", and I didn't look good. Unexpectedly, the eighteenth change of the female college, since high school, my appearance is more and more delicate and moving, the alabaster is used for two yuan a pack of "Yu Meijing" brand, and my face is as delicate and smooth as snow, my dad said, "Jingjing's skin is like a shelled egg, it is really the eighteenth change of the female college, and my daughter is getting better and better!".

Although my status at home is still not high, my parents' attitude towards me at that time has obviously improved a lot, every time the family goes out to eat, relatives and friends will praise me for my good looks, and my parents' faces will suddenly be brighter.

At that time, I also reached the age of ignorance. No bragging, the boys who liked me for three years in high school had a football team.

I grew up in that kind of family environment, and there was a lack of love in my heart. I remember Christmas in my freshman year of high school, a boy kept vigil until 12 p.m. on Christmas Eve, and handed me a big bear that was taller than me on the balcony across the wall of the boys' dormitory, and then the boy chased me for seven years!

In the third year of high school, for my sake, he invited other boys to dinner and persuaded him not to pursue me. If the boy doesn't agree, they have a duel between the men, and the other person is tall and can win every time. When all obstacles were removed, he began a fierce pursuit.

He would write a love letter for me every day, using nice letterhead that he had bought specially. To be honest, his writing is average, but he can write down every day of my daily life.

When I was scratching my ears and cheeks for the math exam exercises, he would always sneak the answers to me in advance by handing in the test papers. When I was in class, I couldn't answer the teacher's questions, and he would remind me in the back with a muffled voice.

He knows that I like jewelry and always saves money to buy me all kinds of gifts. Once I happened to pass by the downstairs of the boys' dormitory, I found that he was eating instant noodles, and the boy next to him spoke for him, "Your Zhao Jun has been eating instant noodles for a month." "Under my desk, there are Dove chocolates, Master Pan's chicken thighs, and Li Zi chestnuts every day...... It's all something I love to eat.

For a while, I thought I was in love with him too. Later, when he tried to kiss me, I resisted. It turned out that what I had been coveting was the love he gave me. Because no one has ever loved me like him, so crazy, like a raging fire, slowly melting my cold and lonely heart to warm it.

Later, I determined that I regarded him as an older brother, and for this, he suffered for a long time, languished in class, and stopped playing basketball on the playground after class. But during the ten-minute campus song ordering time between classes, he would ask the teacher who played the music to play the song "The First Time" by Guangliang, which I loved the most.

During that time, the girls in the class were upset about him, and even for a while, the girls in the class isolated me.

"Wang Jing is too scumbag, I don't like people to accept gifts from others and eat other people's things, why is this so?"

"yes, I've never seen anyone like this!"

"Zhao Jun is really pitiful, how can he fall in love with this cold-blooded animal. ”

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Yes, since I don't like Zhao Jun, why can I eat the snacks he prepared for me with peace of mind, receive the love letters he gave me every day, and take the gifts he saved money to buy?

During that time I hated myself so much, am I a greedy person for money and good food?

Later I realized that I was wishful thinking about him as my brother, but he didn't mean to treat me as a sister, he wanted a girlfriend.

We both failed in our studies, and in the end we were both admitted to a pheasant university. Originally, my mother didn't plan to let me continue to go to college, thinking that I would take a shop and open my own store, but my father was reluctant to let me go out of society early.

"Ah Hua, let's go to college quietly, even if we complete our obligations as parents after we finish studying, there is nothing to be sorry for her. ”

My mother hesitated for a while, "Okay, after graduation, I will help her find someone to marry, and I will do my duty in this life." ”

During the four years of college, Zhao Jun kept pestering me and calling me every day. He knew that I didn't have him in my heart, so naturally I couldn't remember his mobile phone number, so he wrote his phone number on a cardboard and sealed it tightly with plastic paper, like a business card, telling me to keep it away, and he would not turn off the phone for me for 24 hours.

When I was in college, I left that loveless family, like a wild horse on the leash. At that time, my suitors were still able to form a football team. Unlike high school, I finally got my head up and learned about the love of men and women.

During college, I talked to a person, 183 tall, deep and good-looking, high nose bridge, thin and moderate lips, I didn't expect me to be a beauty control.

I told Zhao Jun about this, but the next day he took a car from another place to the city where I went to college.

The three of us met, and they both had a fire in their hearts, and it wasn't long before the two of us scuffled together. In the end, of course, I chose 183, and Zhao Jun was like a lonely bereaved dog, his eyes were full of tears, "Jingjing, you don't know love at all, you won't last long!", leaving this cruel sentence, Zhao Jun turned around lonely and lonely, and gradually disappeared from my sight.

To this day, I still owe Zhao Jun a formal apology. I'm sorry! I met you at my most helpless and lonely age, you warmed me with a true heart, and you were the first person to make me feel loved. I'm sorry, I've always relied on your love and enjoyed your love, but I never loved you!

Zhao Jun, forgive me for not knowing love that year. I'm sorry!!!