(Cat flutter Chinese) I have assumed countless possibilities in my heart for me and Si Chen's future, but none of them is that he will go, go alone, and completely leave me behind.

I'm not sure where Si Chen is going, I just know that he is leaving, going abroad. I ran through all the check-in counters but couldn't find him, and when I headed west, I still couldn't find him.

From morning to noon to night, I almost thought that Si Chen had already left, and the mobile phone to the west couldn't get through.

Later, I saw a large crowd of people gathered outside the border checkpoint, surrounded by several floors inside and out.

I ran over, and sure enough, I saw Xiangxi fall to the ground on the outside, and his hand was still tightly holding Si Chen to tell him not to go.

Si Chen finally stopped, and Xiang Xi also let go of his hand.

But just as I was struggling to squeeze through the crowd layer by layer and was about to walk to them, Si Chen suddenly picked up his suitcase again and disappeared into the border inspection channel with his mother.

I chased it in and was kicked out.

"Si Chen, I curse you for the plane to fall!" I shouted at his back, and it took a long time to react, he really didn't even want to answer a word of why, and he didn't want to say goodbye.

I stayed at the airport for a long time, and in order to help me keep Si Chen, he pushed him to the ground and twisted his foot, and limped when he walked, I said sorry to her, and then lowered my head and silently shed tears.

I really don't know why he gave up all of a sudden. It's been almost two months since that incident, and every day when I wake up I think he'll answer my phone soon, but he's gone, and he's gone, and he's gone, and if it weren't for someone telling me, I'd probably be imagining that he'd show up out of nowhere.

Probably really, the heart died for a moment.

The people in the company knew that I had come to Beijing and called me and said they wanted to pick me up.

I looked at Xiangxi, and she shook her head at me, "I'm fine, I'll take a taxi back to school by myself later, and so will you, I'll go and play with you during the holidays." ”

Sending me out to the west and watching me get in the car, I told her I was fine and didn't have to worry.

Actually, the moment the window closed, I buried my head and started crying, and I cried for as long as the car was driving and no one talked to me, so I felt a little better.

A red light stopped for a long time, I thought I had arrived, and when I looked up, I found that the street was still full of traffic outside.

I asked the agent who came to me: "Sister Zhang, can you help me get a U.S. visa?"

Sister Zhang was stunned and patted my head, "I'll talk about this in a few days." ”

I sniffed and was about to continue crying when I realized that the car was wrong. The company's cars are all commercial vehicles, but it wasn't the one who came to pick me up today, and at this moment, the person in the driver's seat looked up at me through the rearview mirror.

I was stunned, it turned out to be Qi Xiang.

Sister Zhang said: "I saw you disappear in the morning, and I rushed over to find out that you bought a ticket to Beijing, and the people who can come out of the company are looking for you everywhere, Qi Xiang is I asked him if he has seen you, and he came out to look for it with me." ”

I finally realized how much trouble I caused to the people around me this time, not just a sorry or thank you, and I didn't expect so many people to care about me.

I promised, "I'll be fine." ”

The car didn't go in the direction of the apartment I lived in before, Sister Zhang's house was in Beijing, so Qi Xiang sent me to the hotel first, and then sent Sister Zhang home after opening the room.

I didn't even have a change of clothes, I didn't take a shower, I took off my shoes and lay on the bed and started texting to Si Chen.

After sending a few messages, I remembered that his number had long been down, and I started emailing him again, sending QQ, asking him how long he was going to go and how long he would be back, asking where he lived, and telling him that I wanted to go to him.

I've sent him countless messages before that, though not a single one has been answered.

I grabbed my phone and said to myself, what should I do, I can't find Si Chen, what should I do. I used to be willful and go, but for the first time, I began to worry that I would really not find him.

The only thing echoing in the room was my sigh, a bit of a lingering breath.

The next day, there was still no response to those messages, so I put on a mask to cover my haggard face and went to check out and take a taxi back to my apartment.

I haven't been back to this place for a long time, and Si Chen has been living here with me since then, so this small twenty square meters is actually full of traces of our lives together.

A pair of couple's slippers, a couple's toothbrush that I couldn't afford to change, half of the boiled water I drank, and the lipstick marks left over from a few months ago were still printed on the rim of the cup.

When it's sweet, we also use the same cup, two ice creams, and Si Chen will also say that he is going to eat what I have bitten.

I washed his underwear, he took care of everything for me when my eldest aunt was upset, we cooked together, chopped vegetables with four clumsy hands, used the lid of the pot as a shield and used the spatula as a weapon, he always picked up the broken glass because I was too careless, made a photo of the group photo and pasted it on the side of the dining table, only one of the two pillows was more obviously dented, because I had to sleep in his arms every day, the slippers were the same, the fluffy places on Si Chen's pair had collapsed, the kind of game of dancing on the feet we had played many times, and in the drawer were his tools for repairing the discs, I had studied for a long time, I just can't learn his kind of technique, I don't know how many dishes he ruined, and then we secretly beat the ones that Chen Zhi recorded by himself and then repaired them ourselves.

There was half a box of instant noodles in the cupboard, which Si Chen ate by himself when I couldn't come back from work too late; there was a song he wrote for me on the desk, and every time he asked me which one I preferred, I would open the door in a hurry and go out and say that I was going to be late; there were many rented DVDs next to the DVD, and I hadn't seen a single one.

As far as I can remember, this house was more of a two-person voice.

For Si Chen, there may be many, many more backs for me to leave.

The relationship is like this, it's so strange, after the breakup, all I think of is the sweetness of the past, and the reflection is that I don't have the opportunity to cherish it anymore. So the one who pays more can go a little more freely, and he tried his best.

And I deserve to eat the bitter fruit?

When I remembered the knock on the door, I wiped a handful of tears and ran over to open the door, thinking if Si Chen forgot to bring the key, and when I opened the door, I saw Qi Xiang appear in front of me.

"The hotel said you checked out, I'll come and have a look. ”

I pulled out a laugh, "It's not like I don't have a place to stay, the hotel is too wasteful." ”

He hummed and glanced at the room.

I was still in the way, "Let's go out to dinner, I'm in for a treat." ”

Subconsciously, I still don't want anyone to enter the small space that belongs to me and Si Chen, and I don't want to leave.

I'm the kind of person who doesn't have swollen eyes no matter how much I cry, just very red and very red, like a bad cold, and wearing a mask is more like a patient. In fact, I didn't have much heart to eat, and not long after I sat down, I asked Qi Xiang: "Si Chen went to the United States, do you know?"

Qi Xiang studied in the United States for two years, and I thought that Si Chen would find Qi Xiang when he decided to go to the United States.

He lowered his head and patiently picked up the green peppers on his plate.

I asked again: "He hasn't looked for you again, so let you arrange it for him?"

Qi Xiang raised his eyelids and glanced at me, and pushed the plate of fried rice with green peppers in front of me, "Do you think I will help Si Chen hide it from you?"

I didn't speak.

Qi Xiang continued: "The U.S. visa is not so easy to get, the situation of the Si Chen family, plus the fucking situation. Even if you could, do you think you don't need time to prepare?"

This time I panicked.

Therefore, Si Chen's departure was not a sudden decision.

"Two months is not enough. ”

When Qi Xiang finished saying these words, I completely understood that he was already preparing to go to the United States before I was stabbed by Si Chen's mother on the day of canvassing.

I lowered my head, and the seafood fried rice turned into tears fried rice again.

In addition, the month when he told me that the music store was transferred and said that the breakup was not enough, it turned out that he was ready to leave me at that time, and he may have been planning this since I was discharged from the hospital.

Or, earlier, earlier.

It's impossible not to hate him and not blame him, maybe more hated than in high school, at that young age or really didn't understand what love was, I fell in love with my boss, more and more, it was the accumulation of these two years.

I couldn't eat anymore, I resisted the urge to cry and told Qi Xiang that I would go back immediately, but he caught up a few steps or gave up.

I covered my nose and mouth, turned around and said to him, "If Si Chen looks for you, or if you can contact him, tell him, I want to ...... See him, talk to him......"

Qi Xiang asked me, "Does it still make sense?"

I didn't know, I used my embarrassed back to disappear in front of Qi Xiang as quickly as I could.

Now, it turns out that I can't walk alone, I can't be strong, I'm not a stone, I'm just a hollow brick, and it will be broken all of a sudden.

I followed the news for the past two days, and I was relieved to know that there was no unexpected air crash or anything, after all, the sentence that the plane fell down was also casually said.

I think of Jiang Tong again, Jiang Tong is also in the United States.

I called Jiang Hao, and he knew that Si Chen was not very happy after going to the United States, and then told me that he would ask Jiang Tong. Ten minutes later, Jiang Hao called me back, he said that Jiang Tong didn't know, and he also said, "My sister won't lie." ”

"yes, I see. ”

I shouldn't have doubted that Si Chen would go to Jiang Tong.

The days are still passing day by day, I still have to work, and I have to leave this sad place, I asked Sister Zhang and my mother to help me prepare the materials for the US visa, and I have to send an email or QQ message to Si Chen every day.

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(Si Chen broke up suddenly and went to the United States, Chen Xiang was also in a state of blindness, not that I didn't write, but because the "I" in the story didn't know what was going on.) Chen Xiang will not mention Si Chen from the perspective of the earthquake, and will explain what happened in the United States from Si Chen's perspective after the end, as well as what happened before the earthquake. ）

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