Yes, I haven't taken birth control pills since we had sex, and I completely forgot about this possibility.

I've agreed to divorce him, and he seems to want to have nothing to do with me in the future, so this kid ......

"Fang Fang...... This kid, I ...... Not very much. "Before it takes shape, it may be too late to knock it out early.

Yuan Fang grabbed my hand and said angrily: "What are you talking about! Don't tell me you want to beat it?!"

"Well, Qin Jianghao and I are going to divorce, if we don't get rid of it, it will be terrible to give birth, right?" Qin Jianghao had made it clear to me before that he didn't want children, or that he didn't want to have children with me.

And I don't have a proper job now, and if I were born, I wouldn't be able to support him.

Moreover, if I divorce Qin Jianghao, I will definitely go back to my hometown, and my parents will definitely force him to remarry me because I have Qin Jianghao's children.

What is in the TV that leaves this city and this country to be born outside, and then returns domineeringly, it is all nonsense.

At least I can't, because I don't have the skills to support a child in an environment where I'm uprooted.

"What's so bad? You go to Qin Jianghao now, tell him about it, and if he still insists on divorcing you and letting you kill the child, my sister will go and beat him to death for you." ”

"What's the point of the two of them continuing to be together because of the child? Fangfang, I'm tired, maybe I've been pestering him for so many years, he must be very distressed. ”

I didn't have the courage to tell Qin Jianghao about this at all, because I completely felt that he didn't want this child, and I would rather kill it quietly by myself than be forced to be pulled over and beaten by him after telling him.

So that at least I can have some dignity.

And, even though I secretly gave birth, there was no father's child...... I don't want his childhood to be ridiculed and bullied like his father's, because there will definitely not be another Bai Luoluo who will be stupid with him.

"What kind of stupid thing to say, anyway, with me today, you don't want to kill this child. ”

So I was dragged out of the hospital by Yuan Fang, and along the way, she began to persuade me to give Qin Jianghao a showdown, maybe because of her repeated emphasis, or maybe it was a trace of hope left in my heart, I finally compromised.

Anyway, they are all going to get divorced, anyway, I'm ready not to have this child, so why don't I just go out once and see his attitude?

Yuan Fang promised me that she would not tell Qin Jianghao about this, and said that I would tell him myself.

When I got home, Qin Jianghao still hadn't come back, I went back to my room, only to find that my room was messy, I didn't even realize it these days, how bad is my life?

I cleaned up the room, sat on the bed and began to think about how to tell him about it, and also to imagine his attitude, and then make a response manual for each of the attitudes he would show, and finally, to emphasize that whether he wants it or not, I have to act like I don't care, at least to save the face of hypocrisy.

But the only thing I didn't expect was that as soon as he came back, he would bring me a "surprise." ”

He actually brought Qi Jing back.

When I saw the two of them sitting opposite each other on the sofa, all my hopes were finally disillusioned, and the indifferent back of him leaving with Qi Jing without even looking at me made my heart feel like ashes.

He doesn't even want to look at me now, which is enough to prove how he would react if I told him I was pregnant.

Oh, ridiculous, what am I struggling with and expecting? What can a storm be stirred up by a piece of unformed meat? I can't even feel it.

Qin Jianghao still didn't return all night this night, and I no longer thought about where he was, whether it was the question of sharing a bed with Qi Jing.

The next day I woke up with a terrible headache, and I suddenly felt as if I hadn't slept last night, and it seemed that I had squinted my eyes for a while at dawn.

I pulled the quilt and wanted to sleep for a while, but the two backs that left hand in hand suddenly jumped out of my mind, and a sense of loss arose in my heart, and I couldn't sleep anymore.

Qin Jianghao disappeared again, I don't know what he has been doing recently, whether he is with Qi Jing every day, maybe he just doesn't want to return to this home.

Of course, it is impossible for anything to happen to him, because every day I get news from Du Yuntong, he goes to work well, leaves on time after work, and looks normal and doesn't look like something is wrong at all.

This marriage, this unrequited love that has spanned more than ten years, should it also come to an end, continue to entangle, persist, and procrastinate, and there will be no good results.

I called my brother and told him that Qin Jianghao and I were going to divorce, just recently. Actually, I didn't have the courage to tell him, but it was a foregone conclusion, and only if it was solved early, there would be a past, otherwise it would only be torment to drag it out.

But fortunately, my brother did not reprimand me this time, but supported me very calmly, and said when I finished the divorce with Qin Jianghao, call him, and he will pick me up. I think maybe Yuan Fang helped me do ideological work for him.

But he didn't seem to know I was pregnant.

It's okay if I don't know, otherwise I will definitely stop me like Yuan Fang.

After talking to my brother on the phone, he hesitated, and his fingers turned out Qin Jianghao's name from the phone book, but he found that the phone was out of battery, and there was only two percent of the power left, so he put the phone on the sofa and called him with the landline in the living room. The phone rang for a long time before someone picked it up, and then I heard Qi Jing's voice.

"Hao, your phone. ”

Then Qin Jianghao's faint voice came, "Who hit it?"

Qi Jing said: "Well, there is no note, it's a landline number, maybe it's a salesperson, I'll pick it up for you." ”

"Hang up. ”

And then the phone was literally choked.

Something finally fell in my heart.

I put down the landline in the living room and turned to go upstairs.

packed himself, hid from Yuan Fang, went to the hospital by himself, registered, and then sat in front of the obstetrics and gynecology department and waited.

There are quite a few people who have aborted the baby, I smiled bitterly, it turned out that I was not the only one, and some even came with my boyfriend, and the remaining hesitation in my heart was finally let go.

Even if I tell Qin Jianghao, then the best result now is that he will personally accompany me to have a fetus.

There are two people in front of me, and when it was my turn, I was still a little nervous, after all, I was afraid of pain, but since I said that it was a painless abortion, then I must not feel pain?

The doctor told me to lie on the bed, and a huge lamp above my head turned on, which shook my eyes, and the doctors wearing masks had calm faces and cold eyes, and they looked like veterans, so it definitely didn't hurt.

I finally closed my eyes in peace.

When I came out of the obstetrics and gynecology department, I met a female employee of Qin Jianghao's company, and I have never been intimate with them, so I didn't greet her.

But some people just get bored enough to tell everyone about you, even if you don't take her seriously.

Not long after returning home, I received a call from Du Yuntong, saying that someone had met me outside the obstetrics and gynecology department and asked me if I was pregnant.

"What nonsense, I'm just my aunt is out of tune, just go and take a look. ”

"Oh, yes? I thought you and Mr. Qin had a result. ”

"Don't listen to nonsense. ”

After hanging up the phone, I went to the kitchen to get some food, and then went back to my room to sleep, feeling that my whole body was too weak.

I didn't know how long I slept, and when I heard the sound of the phone again, I got up, only to find that it was already dark, and it was Yuan Fang who called me and asked me if I had told Qin Jianghao about my pregnancy.

"Nope. I'll be honest.

Then she started to rant on the other side of the phone, and I calmly listened to her reprimand, a little thirsty, and poured a glass of water to drink.

After she finished growling, I said to her lightly: "Fangfang, you can help me get a divorce agreement." ”

She almost immediately refused, "No." ”

I sighed helplessly and said, "Okay, then I'll get it myself." ”

She was silent for a while and said, "Are you really going to divorce him? Are you willing to do it? You both have children, what should you do with the children, and who will give birth to them in the future?"

I was silent for a while, and then said to her, "I...... Have gone to do the abortion. ”

Yuan Fang's voice exploded in an instant, "What did you say?!"

The next day, Yuan Fang sent me two divorce agreements, and reprimanded me, "Didn't you say that you promised me that you wouldn't have an abortion?

I took the divorce agreement and looked at it, and said, "Well, on the spur of the moment." ”

"What's wrong with you?" she slapped away the paper blocking my face, held my face, and asked angrily, "Why did it become like this?" Even when you say these things, your face is as indifferent as Qin Jianghao, do you ...... Don't you feel sorry for your children at all? That's a life, but you and Qin Jianghao's children, how can you be willing to give it up? Even I am not willing to give it up!"

I was silent for a while, and then said, "Anyway...... I haven't seen it again. "Who would feel distressed if they haven't seen it.

"You ......"

"Smack. The door was suddenly pushed open, and Qin Jianghao, who had not been seen for a few days, appeared at the door.

He walked towards us with a gloomy face, looked at me, and asked, "You guys...... What did you just say, son, whose child?"

I looked at him lightly, didn't answer his question, raised the divorce agreement in my hand and said, "You came just in time, sign it." ”

One change today, and one more tomorrow. （●—●）