Chinese I listened to my mom and promised her that I wouldn't do anything more extreme.

In fact, including myself, I don't think that Si Chen and I will have any possibility of emotional development, so as long as I adjust my mentality, I will look down and forget.

can forget that a person is so simple, when you listen to songs, you will think of him, you will think of him when you read music, and when you pass by the piano shop and see the little boy playing the piano, your mind is full of little Si Chen being forced to learn the piano by his mother.

In order to give myself no time to think cranky, I went to get a fitness card, soaked in the gym from morning to night, and did not ask a coach, so I tried every equipment by myself, and finally fainted with low blood sugar and hit my head on the climbing machine and was sent to the hospital.

I was barely awake during the examination, my mother came in a hurry and didn't know what to say to the doctor, I only heard the doctor tell her to go to the hospital.

Then I fell asleep on a drip, the hospital did not allow escorts, and I had no major problems, my mother left after the visit time. I slept intermittently for a while and woke up for a while, my whole body had no strength, and I still felt tired after lying all night.

When I was half asleep and half awake, I noticed something strange, obviously my whole body was cold and I wanted to shiver, but my hands were warm because they were held.

I was almost about to call out Si Chen's name, my eyes were closed, my mind was full of his appearance, I thought it was a dream, I dreamed that he came to see me, and then held my hand, but Si Chen's hand was injured in order to save me in front of the car and let people hit it, that hand can no longer play the piano.

This dream couldn't be more real, those images that I didn't witness were completely replayed in my dream, it turned out that someone really died for me.

So I started crying, and I woke up crying. The person I woke up to see was not Si Chen.

Qi Xiang kept calling my name and gently holding my hand, "Have a nightmare?"

I gasped for breath, calmed down after a long time, nodded at him, and then looked at him in surprise, "Why are you here?"

Isn't Qi Xiang in the United States, even if he heard that I was hospitalized, he wouldn't be able to fly over in a few hours.

He said: "When I went home for the New Year, I came to see you by the way, and I heard that you were sick when I first arrived." ”

This greeting is very common, but I feel uncomfortable when I see that I am being held by Qi Xiang's hand, I pulled out my hand and seemed to be stunned by Qi Xiang, and then I still cooperated and let go.

I smiled at him and touched my head, "It's nothing, it's just a low blood sugar fall, maybe a little concussion." ”

Then I looked around, I was in a single room and there was no problem of disturbing others, but it was not yet dawn, and it was definitely not time to visit.

Qi Xiang raised his eyebrows, "I climbed the stairs to come up, and I begged the nurse for a long time to let me in." ”

The single wards are on the top floor, and the height of the hospital is similar to that of a school, with 20 floors and 30 floors. Sure enough, I saw the neckline of Qi Xiang's shirt and traces of sweat, he was still wearing the pair of glasses I gave, maybe because he was still a teenager in his dream, now looking at Qi Xiang, he will inevitably feel that he is a lot more mature, and he is only twenty-four this year.

It stands to reason that Qi Xiang came all the way to see me, and I should entertain me, but I'm not a patient, and at this time, Qi Xiang helped me cover the quilt and said, "Sleep, don't be afraid." ”

I closed my eyes but didn't feel sleepy, and suddenly I seemed to have figured something out.

Why should I hate Si Chen, why do I hate him even more when I know that he didn't do those things, and on the contrary, he almost died to save me. At the end of the day, it's all because I'm afraid I'll fall into it again.

A person who has lied to me and hurt me, no matter what the reason is, even if it can be forgiven, I dare not love again. But I can't forget it, so I can only force myself to hate.

After dawn, my mother also came, I had a needle buried in my arm and hung six or seven bags of water in the morning, Qi Xiang didn't leave, he didn't sleep all night or stared at the drip, and frowned when he was a little faster and a little slower.

My mom was chatting with the doctor outside the door when the phone she was holding suddenly fell to the ground.

When she came back, I asked, "Mom, can I be discharged from the hospital today?"

My mother's expression was very stiff, and her smile was a little reluctant, "It's still a week before school starts, so let's rest for a few days." ”

I raised my arm, "This is not rest, it's low blood sugar, and if you pour so much water into your body in a day, you're going to explode." ”

My mom kept a straight face, "Do you have someone to take care of you when you go home? I still have to go to work." ”

"But ......"

Qi Xiang interrupted me, "Forget it, listen to Auntie, I'm here to accompany you." ”

I looked at him and didn't know how to refuse the offer.

I slept in the hospital for another day, and I didn't feel sick before I came here, but I felt weak and weak all day long.

My mom does have a lot of work to deal with, staying in the hospital with me is Qi Xiang, in the evening I found a way to let him go back to the hotel to take a shower and come back tomorrow morning, before leaving he left the computer, saying that I was bored and went online by myself.

Originally, I didn't want to touch Qi Xiang's computer, and when I was in the UK, I never allowed others to touch my mobile phone and computer, but Qi Xiang never had any defense against me, and in front of me, he was like he had no secrets.

Aside from the computer, the only thing I could see in the whole ward was the medical records and check-up sheets in the drawer.

I couldn't understand the doctor's words, and I looked at the other lists that had already paid the fee and were waiting for tomorrow's examination, only to find that the examination fee was nearly 2,000 yuan. When I entered the hospital, I had already done a routine check-up, and I really couldn't figure out what else I was going to do. I don't understand those special terms, and when I was about to put them back, I saw the computer left by Qi Xiang.

People are like this, when they are sick, they are afraid of big and small examinations, and they always feel that they will be found out if there is no major problem.

Me too, so I went online and looked up what those tests were looking for.

It turned out to be a bolt from the blue.

All the examination items point to the same disease, ALS, commonly known as ALS, and to put it bluntly, a well-known example is Hawking, who cannot move, speak, or eat, and only his eyes can move all over his body.

More people who have this disease have been ...... long before they become like that

Although I repeatedly told myself that it might just be a misunderstanding, when I thought about the fact that I couldn't be discharged from the hospital after a fall, and my mother's abnormal behavior, I realized that it wasn't going to be too simple.

I packed up the checklist and put it back in its place, stared at the computer screen for a while, and finally deleted all my browsing history before dawn.

Maybe it's because I'm in a hurry to surf the Internet just now, I didn't notice that there is a folder on the desktop, and the name of the folder is Xiangxiang.

Qi Xiang wouldn't be so careless, he should have left this on purpose, he wanted to show me, but now I really don't have that mind. After closing the computer and putting it back away, I changed my clothes and ran away from the hospital overnight.

I still didn't dare to do those tests, as if I was still healthy if I didn't go to them.

I simply carry my documents with me, but I don't have much money, not enough to buy a plane ticket. It was not enough to stay in a hotel for a few days in S city, and finally I walked to the train station before I knew it.

The train station where I ran away from home in my sophomore year of high school, Si Chen accompanied me to the train station where I ran away from home.

I lowered my head and smiled, what a coincidence, even the train to Beijing was about to leave.

I bought a ticket to Beijing, six years, the same train, the same destination, but unfortunately I am the only one, but unfortunately I seem to be sick.

The girl sitting next to me was watching Korean dramas with a big screen mp4, watching a handful of snot and tears, I handed a tissue over, she caught it, and then turned her head to look at me, "Have you watched "Blue Life and Death Love"? ”

In recent years, what Korean dramas, Japanese dramas, and Taiwanese dramas are all in this tune, what a beautiful life, blue life and death love, lavender, just count a lot, it seems that you have to live and die to be considered true love.

Even my nightmare was a dream that Si Chen died.

But now, think about it, what if the person who is dying is myself?

I'll admit, I'm scared. I'm afraid of death, I'm afraid that there will be nothing after I die, and I'm afraid that after I die, I don't know if he will cry for me again.

(Sick or something.,It must be a false alarm.。。 Don't worry~)

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