If I don't do this, a man like Zhou Yangzhou, who is circling around models all day long, will probably treat me as the same as those women who put a price tag. So when I found out that I was in love with him and wanted to be with him forever, I went and succeeded in convincing him.

I asked him what he loved about me, and he said that it was my ease that infected him, and that he admired his innate disdain. In fact, I don't know what this kind of free and easy attitude is. In short, we fell in love, and I gave him almost everything I could except that this membrane was fake. Yes, because I love him.

Everyone laughed at me for being a bitch and wanting to set up an archway, obviously for Zhou Yangzhou's status and money, but I just wanted to say that this was true love. Only Ding Qian believed me, this girl from a small city in another place, she said that I originally had a sense of superiority over childbirth, and I didn't want to be with others. She believes that I love Zhou Yangzhou, and she also believes that I am not for any money, so I am very good to Ding Xi, and I always want to pull her up if there is anything good.

After two years of love, I really have never reached out to Zhou Yangzhou to ask for anything except commercial performances, because the benefits brought to me by commercial performances alone are much more than what the fourth master gave me. In the second semester of the third year, everyone was busy signing with the brokerage company, Zhou Yangzhou told me not to worry, he married me when he came back from a trip abroad, and we went to live abroad after the marriage.

I said, are you asking me to wait for you?

He said yes.

I said okay.

Waiting is what I do best.

When I was a child, I waited for my parents, waited for those classmates who were robbed after being with Fang Liu, waited for her to pick me up from school and took me to the hotel, and waited for him to get me a little money after he advanced his pants.

So I waited for half a year, hoping that I could put on a wedding dress for him, and when I had to step out of the school gate, Zhou Yangzhou came back and got married, but the bride was not me.

The gossip of his classmates at school let me know the truth, Zhou Yangzhou arranged a girlfriend for him at home before he went abroad, but he was still studying abroad. And his family found out about us, so they let him go abroad as much as possible and return to China for a wedding with his girlfriend.

Ding Qian said that this is a very cliché story, Cinderella fell in love with Prince Charming, and the opposition of the family did not let us get married, and watched him marry another woman.

In fact, I don't know what it means to be played with, I just feel very sad, I feel that I didn't make it to the end, I regret, I am very disappointed, I am very confused, and I even feel very down.

At least when I'm with the fourth master, I won't think about it forever, as the so-called hopeless so I will never be disappointed. And Zhou Yangzhou gave me a lot of hope, because I never asked him if he would marry me, but he himself told me that he would marry me when he came back from abroad.

The hope of being deeply excavated was shattered by his own hands, I couldn't stay in school anymore, this is the fourth master let me go to school, and it was Zhou Yangzhou who gave me the opportunity to perform to support my studies. The fourth master was lost by me, Chen Yangzhou got married, and there was no point in learning.

So I dropped out of school and didn't hesitate.

Not long after, my grandmother came to the school to find me, learned the news of my withdrawal, and also learned about me and Zhou Yangzhou from my classmates. In fact, she had already been hit before she came, Fang Liu came out of prison and went to our house to look for me, he told my grandmother that he was my boyfriend, and my grandmother didn't believe that I would have a boyfriend with yellow hair and tattoos all over his body, because she didn't believe that I would fall in love at all.

To be precise, Fang Liu did it on purpose, when he gave me to the fourth master, he wanted to have a support in prison and after he was released from prison. It's just that after coming out, I went to find the fourth master, and the woman who appeared next to the fourth master changed to another vocational high school student. He only learned that I had left the fourth master.

From there, I was no longer the good granddaughter in front of her, and she was so angry that she fell ill in bed.

She said, Reich, your uninhibited is really inherited from your mother.

I still didn't think so, and I said grandma, I want to live my own life.

Grandma went away in tears, she was disappointed, thinking that the only thing she had been waiting for in her life was not going her way. She thought that the pride she had lost with my mother had been found in me, but she never thought that such pride was nothing more than a lie I had weaved.

At that time, I was very annoyed that my grandmother was disappointed in me, because the only hope turned into a disappointment in Zhou Yangzhou's place, so I just felt that my grandmother was sick and old, and it was time to leave. I have the capital to support myself, and I no longer need this home from my grandmother. Without her, without anyone, I, Reich, would still be living a great life.

Naturally, there was no way for me to survive in the modeling industry, and I fell in love with clubbing with my small savings. In the bar, I have a seductive look that can make a man fall for me, invite me to drink and invite me to supper, and ask me to sleep when I refuse to go.

This feeling is good, and the indulgence comes to an abrupt end at the last step, giving me the pleasure of transcending my body.

Yes, men are not to love, but to play with. Because at this time I began to understand the meaning of toying.

There are many opportunities in the bars of Houhai, not just the fourth master.

I got to know a lot of dancers in the bar, and the dance foundation of the art school was enough here. So I became one of the dancers, pulling Ding Qian and me together, performing in bars at night, and during the day, the company would take on some low-end commercial performances, similar to the opening of small real estate, similar to shopping mall activities.

I enjoyed dancing on stage, but I actually enjoyed being in the limelight. It's just that dancing is not destined to be a profession that will accompany me through my life, and I was injured, very seriously. The stage of the bar collapsed, and Ding Qian and I both fell off the stage and injured our feet. The road can still walk, but the dance can't be danced.

Fang Liu came to me and wanted me to go to Shenzhen with him. I asked him what he was going to do? He said to sit on the stage.

I started to annoy Fang Liu, he really could bear to share me with others, as long as he could be idle and have money to spend, I was not the point.

I left Beijing because I jumped off the train to Shenzhen and found Ding Qian and said that I have to leave immediately, Beijing can't stay. Ding Qian didn't ask me why, she just said come with me. So we bought the fastest flight, which happened to be the flight to City A.

I didn't understand why Ding Qian followed me so much, she could continue to be a model, or even stay in Beijing. Later, she said that many people in the school looked down on her from a small place, but I was very good to her, sharing everything with her, and pulling her along with commercial performances.

I thought, it's a vicious cycle, I'm isolated, she believes in me, I'm good to her, and we're all isolated.

Before I went to the Imperial Dynasty, I really felt that my life could be driven by my temperament, I could do whatever I wanted, I would quit if I didn't want to study, and I came to City A if I wanted to leave Beijing. After I got here, I learned that there would be constraints, and there were a lot of norms and requirements for drinking with guests on the catwalk.

I didn't like being asked, so I learned to use meth with the group of singers on stage.

The new type of drug, which is terrifying, allows me to regain the feeling of being the only dancer. In my hallucination, everyone is subservient to me, the whole world belongs to me, and even Zhou Yangzhou will kneel in front of me and beg me to forgive him. But when I woke up, the feeling would go away, and I would indulge myself in it again.

During the more than a year of the Imperial Dynasty, I had very few sober days, most of the time in a state of flux, and I could not remember what I had done or said during those days for a long time. But I remember that Ding Qian was always by my side, and I also remember that she met another good friend there, Ni Juan.

I know that Ni Juan is a very powerful woman, the dynasty we entered together, she became the manager of the model group, and she dominated the dynasty and even City A, and successfully captured the heart of the general manager. And I'm still nothing, going to work every day to drink and get tips, opening the room after work, skating and sleeping with people.

It wasn't until Zhang Nan appeared that my muddy life ended.

On the afternoon of the first time I met Zhang Nan, I had just gotten out of the bed of the stage host and singer, and we had played all night, and my hands and feet were sore. Before going to work, I took the opportunity to go backstage to take a few sips of ice to replenish some energy, which temporarily relieved my fatigue.

In the top VIP room, Zhang Nan was wearing a sportswear and blushing and nodded at me.

Drinking, singing, opening a room and sleeping, I serve one-stop.

The dynasty has rules that models can't be introduced, and I've always scoffed at such rules. The pleasing guest wanted to sleep with me, so I left a phone and asked him to go first, and then go after changing his clothes. It's not called a rollout, it's my private life. So Zhang Nan said that he wanted me to accompany him, and I still asked him to wait for me in the same way.

I went because I thought the boy was funny, like the kids we did well in high school. I didn't have much contact with my classmates with good grades, so I wanted to sleep with him.

The next morning I woke up to a lot of people in the room, the same ones who had been in the private room the night before. Zhang Nan put his arms around me naked, pointing to the filth in the trash can under the bed, proving to others that he slept with me last night.

Others laughed and said that they would be fellow travelers from then on.

I don't understand their mute, but I understand that they are betting, perhaps bet that Zhang Nan does not have the courage to sleep with women. Later, it turned out that my guess was correct, these were Zhang Nan's classmates at University, and they laughed at Zhang Nan for not sleeping with a woman when he was about to work. Zhang Nan was not convinced, followed them to the dynasty, and slept with me angrily.

It's not terrible to be angry, but it's terrible that Zhang Nan is deeply trapped.

At night, at my place.

I came to the private room on time every night, sometimes with others, sometimes by myself, I drank and sang with him and taught him to play games, and treated him completely as a guest, but he never treated me as a model.