Pei Shaobei didn't accompany the bed, found a special nurse, and looked at me 24 hours a day, as if he was afraid that I would do something out of the ordinary again. And he was really angry, for three days in a row, no phone, didn't come to see me.

I felt as if I was in a cage, and the nurse seemed to know the cause of my illness from the doctor, and when he looked at me, he had a prickly look in his eyes. I don't know how Pei Zile is now, whether he has started to go through the transfer procedures, in the past three days, I haven't received any news, I deliberately didn't call to ask for leave, and the school even pretended not to know, no one contacted me, and even Sister Yu didn't send me a word.

It was as if overnight, I had been abandoned by the whole world. At this moment, what I miss most is no longer Pei Shaobei, but my parents. It seems that he has suddenly become a fragile little child, and what he wants most is to throw himself into the arms of his parents, because I know that they are always the ones who love me the most in this world.

But I didn't dare call them, let alone tell them what I had done. I was so frustrated that I could barely eat, and the special care did not persuade me, as if he had grasped my weakness, and only talked about the child.

After being depressed for three days, the emotions were accumulated to the extreme, and finally completely exploded when Pei Shaobei came over that night.

I know how ugly I look, I can't sleep for days on end, and a woman will be emaciated and ghostly. I couldn't care about my own image, so I just stared at him straight like that, and walked away with a special care, Pei Shaobei closed the door of the ward, and didn't come close, just stood by the door and looked at me, looking indifferently and calmly.

"I'm going to be discharged!"

"No, the doctor said, you have already shown signs of miscarriage, if you still want this child, you will obediently stay in the hospital for half a month!" Pei Shaobei's tone was very calm, wearing a silver suit, it seemed that he was in high spirits, without any haggard or worry.

I suddenly felt that we didn't look like a husband and wife at all, nor like a couple, as if all of a sudden, the only thing that could maintain our relationship was my belly. The uncertainty, the grievance, the panic that I knew the other party was betraying but didn't know how to deal with it, made me a little hysterical.

"Pei Shaobei, is this child the only thing you care about? When you were with me and said you wanted to marry me, was it also because of this child? So what am I? Pei Shaobei, what am I in your heart? Your nanny, sexual partner, or an experiment to experience folk life?" I looked at Pei Shaobei's gradually gloomy face, my heart was extremely comfortable, and I couldn't help but sneer and continued, "Looking at your appearance, it seems that I have wronged you?" Then you dare to say that you went out to dinner with that woman that night really just for business? Do you dare to say that you really have the heart to persuade your parents, to persuade the Pei family, and to let me in? Do you dare to say that you don't care at all about my last marriage? You dare to say that you have made so many compromises, not because of your children? Pei Shaobei, all lies have been exposed, and now, what's the point of you still hiding it from me?"

"What do you want to know?" Pei Shaobei finally frowned, no longer like the indifferent appearance when he first came in, this change in mood made me feel slightly relieved.

"I want to know everything, everything you're hiding from me!" I suddenly calmed down, as if the hysteria I had just had not seen, and at this moment, I really wanted to know, and I really wanted to turn all uncertainty into certainty, whether it was good or bad.

Pei Shaobei smiled lowly, "Gu Wan, you say that I am cheating, you say that I am making lies, then, no matter what I say now, in your eyes and in your heart, am I still a liar? I can't figure it out, why did you become like this!"

"I'm the way I am, I'm cautious, I'm contrived, I'm paranoid, I'm sensitive. You knew me on the first day, didn't you? You said I had changed, who was that person?"

"I haven't changed!" Pei Shaobei sighed softly, "I once told you, no matter what I do, you have to believe in me, believe me, I will give you and this child a home." Gu Wan, I am a man, I have responsibilities that I have to shoulder, I don't need you to share them for me, but I hope to get your understanding!"

"Understand?" I laughed at myself, I couldn't hide my tears, and my face flowed, "What do you understand? Understand that you are hiding from me to go on a blind date? Understand that your intimate conversation with other women is regarded as business cooperation? Pei Shaobei, what do you want me to understand? You know the reason why my last marriage ended, you know all the unbearable past I experienced, but you, why do you still hold the same knife and stab me in the heart!"

"You compare me with Lin Dong? Gu Wan, it is always you who have not forgotten the past, it is always you who have not come out openly, and it is always you who has dodged our relationship. Pei Shaobei was also angry, his voice was raised, and his eyebrows were furrowed.

"Let's break up!" I don't want to listen to his quibbles anymore, the only thing I have figured out in the past three days of depression is to separate from Pei Shaobei, because only in this way can I get away from my cage and return to peace. Only by no longer provoking the Pei family can I not have to see my own humility and embarrassment over and over again.

"What did you say?" Pei Shaobei suddenly stopped all his movements and looked at me coldly, "Gu Wan, you say it again!"

"Pei Shaobei, let's break up! I'm tired and don't want to play anymore!" I raised my eyes to look at him, tears blurred my eyes, I couldn't really see it, Pei Shaobei's shadow seemed to disappear in my field of vision, or rather, in life.

I subconsciously raised my hand to touch it, and in the blink of an eye, tears flowed down my face, and I was the only one left in the hospital room. If it weren't for the door that was still shaking, I would almost have thought that Pei Shaobei's appearance just now was just an illusion after I was tired for the past few days.

Silence does not mean agreement, I don't know if this sentence can be applied to Pei Shaobei's body, I only know that my heart is empty, my head is empty, but my stomach is slow, as if all the food in the past few days has been piled up there, along with my sadness, it is constantly tumbling and burning, I climbed down from the bed, I was so weak that I could barely stand, and I moved to the bathroom with difficulty, but I couldn't stand it for a moment, and I vomited wildly at the washbasin, and only vomited everything I had eaten in the past few days.

Sure enough, the human heart can dominate the entire body, including the stomach on which you live. You can't accept it, even if you force yourself to stuff it into your stomach, you won't be able to turn it into nutrients, you can't nourish your body, your flesh and blood. I raised my head and looked at myself in the mirror, haggard, pale, heavy dark circles, godless eyes, almost shriveled face, if I were Pei Shaobei, when I saw such a woman, I am afraid that what I want to do most is to get rid of it quickly.

It's ugly!

I smiled softly and said to myself in the mirror.

That breakup seemed to dig out all my tangled places, and made my body and mind feel uncontrollably relaxed, although I was still weak, although I was still tired, but that spirit was enough to support me and get back up.

I washed my face, cleaned myself up, opened the door and went back to the hospital bed, I was tired and wanted to sleep, more than ever.

Almost as soon as I touched my pillow, I fell asleep, my consciousness went dark, and everything outside was no longer relevant to me. I cleared the clouds in my dreams and walked all the way, with all the tears and sorrows behind me, but there was light ahead. I feel like I've done the smartest thing in the world to take my life off the rails.

The surrounding seasons are like spring, I am dressed in white, as if I have returned to a long time ago, at that time, I was still a girl who was not involved in the world, holding the whole English, in the sun, in the spring, I looked fascinated and quiet, I feel that I have not been so quiet for many years, since I met Lin Dong, contact with feelings, my heart has never been so quiet.

This kind of dream is really good, I even want to stay here forever, never go out again, don't face the unbearable and cruel reality, don't think about the future, don't hurt, don't be hurt.

I am a cowardly snail, I would rather lock myself in my shell, not see anyone, not experience wind and rain, not bask in the sun, and just like that, from birth to death, my body is shriveled and smelly, and finally dissipates in the wind, leaving no trace.

"Late, late, late!"

Someone was calling me, I waved my hand in annoyance, but I felt that this action was not really done, as if my consciousness could not control my body, but I felt that it was enough to express my meaning, and I didn't want to pay attention to it anymore.

But the voice kept going, full of anxiety, full of tenderness, and full of love.

Who is it and why?

A face appeared in his mind, his eyebrows were slightly wrinkled, stiff and cold. I really want to ask him, why did you lie to me? I really want to ask him, do you love me? I really want to ask him, are you still complaining, complaining about my vexatiousness, complaining about my harm to Pei Zile.

But I couldn't open my mouth, the flowers and plants around me began to wither, and the gentle and drizzly spring seemed to be gradually leaving me, I don't want this, I don't want to listen anymore, don't go back.

But at this time, there was a sharp pain in the stomach, as if something wanted to be stripped from it. That feeling gave birth to a great fear in me, more than the fear that the gentle spring was about to disappear, and the instinctive fear that was connected to life made me struggle and start crying.

The surrounding environment is changing rapidly, Lin Dong, Liu Juan, Zhang Jiajia, my parents, Sister Yu, Pei Zile, the appearance of these people suddenly all came up, and the noise of chirping, accompanied by the pain all over my body, made me open my eyes suddenly and breathe heavily.

Hot book recommendation: The new work of the catty god ", the new book of the god of forgetting, the new book of Chen Fengxiao, the new book of the god of taste