I never knew what Pei Shaobei was like in front of other women, and I couldn't even imagine what kind of state he would be in when he was in love with someone when he was young. In my eyes, Pei Shaobei has always been calm, decisive and indifferent, and very few mood swings will return to normal in a short time.

This is the first time I have seen a different Pei Shaobei.

Dressed in a dark gray suit, he outlined a perfectly proportioned figure, his arms were held by a woman, and his smile was uninhibited, without the slightest hint of the light and gentleness of his time with me.

I watched them get out of Pei Shaobei's car, and walked to the western restaurant next door with a smile. I don't know, whether the Pei Shaobei who is with me is the real Pei Shaobei, or rather, the man in front of me is the real him, the ghost makes the gods, I paid, and my steps are like being guided to the Western restaurant.

On the large transparent glass window, the reflection of a woman is reflected. Red and swollen cheeks, mottled makeup, light gray sweater, coffee-colored skirt, and long hair are messy.

I stopped in a daze, staring blankly at the reflection, I recognized, it was me, a woman who had been married, divorced, pregnant with a child, and scandals were flying all over the sky, I ate and laughed, and my eyes could no longer fall on Pei Shaobei, who was facing away from me and talking and laughing with the woman at the table.

I almost ran away in a hurry, if it weren't for the fear of the child in my belly, I think, I would have run away on the road, crazy and hideous.

I finally knew that Pei Zile wanted to stop talking, and finally believed how much face Shao Ling had left me. I wanted to cry, but I found I couldn't. The numb heart that hurt because of hurting Pei Zile seemed to have entered a dormant period, and he didn't feel the slightest pain, some were just ridiculed, just unwilling, just cowardly.

Lying alone on the bed, the makeup on his face has been washed off, leaving a pale and haggard face, and the appearance in the mirror is still shaking in his mind repeatedly, telling you over and over again that your embarrassment is humble.

When Pei Shaobei came back, it was already nine o'clock at night, he turned on the bedroom light, and when he saw me lying on the bed with his eyes open, he instantly exclaimed, "Gu Wan, are you back? Why don't you turn on the light? I was still thinking just now, it's nine o'clock, why haven't you come back yet!"

"yes, it's nine o'clock, why did you come back!" I replied dumbfoundedly, a little incoherently.

Pei Shaobei quickly noticed my abnormality, leaned over to look at me, and stroked my forehead with a warm palm, "No fever, what's wrong with you? Why is your face so ugly?"

Ugly? I smiled bitterly in my heart, yes, it's really ugly, I think it's ugly, not to mention Pei Shaobei, who is so good, those women around him, pull out one of them is a thousand times better than me.

"Are you uncomfortable? Do you want me to take you to the hospital?" Pei Shaobei saw that I didn't speak, and reached out to pull me. I was pulled up by him, and I smelled a faint smell of red wine on the tip of my nose, and I didn't know why in my mind, so I wondered if Pei Shaobei had also hugged someone else in such a posture tonight.

Once this paranoid thought is generated, it is like a weed in spring, and it cannot be curbed even if it is tried to be contained.

"Where have you been, who are you with?" I raised my voice instantly, and asked Pei Shaobei coldly.

Pei Shaobei frowned at me, but still patiently explained, "I'm going to accompany the customer!"

Pei Shaobei's answer made me laugh, I really want to say that I saw you and a woman having an intimate meal in a Western restaurant, I really want to ask, what is the relationship between you and that woman, are you also the same as Lin Dong, betrayed marriage and betrayed love.

But I can't ask, betrayal? Where did Pei Shaobei come from?

"Pei Shaobei, let's get married, okay, now, right away, get married, okay?" I suddenly gave birth to a kind of timidity, to Pei Shaobei, to the future.

"Gu Wan, what's wrong with you? What's wrong, are you still not feeling well? It's already nine o'clock in the evening, why did you suddenly say that you want to get married?" Pei Shaobei's brows furrowed even tighter.

I didn't give up, stretched out my hand and pulled his arm, and asked again urgently, "Not tonight, then tomorrow, tomorrow, okay, I ask for leave, you also ask for leave, let's go to the Civil Affairs Bureau together, can we register our marriage?"

Pei Shaobei looked at me, as if he wanted to see some clues from my eyes. I became more and more afraid, even afraid of his next question, or answer. I didn't think about it, but suddenly I jumped up and hugged him and kissed him on the lips.

The taste of the red wine becomes more and more intense, lingering between the lips and teeth. I closed my eyes, I didn't want to let myself think about what Pei Shaobei and that woman did tonight, I hugged Pei Shaobei to death, but my heart became more and more hollow.

Pei Shaobei pushed me away and asked with some breath, "Gu Wan, what's wrong with you? Your current state is very wrong, tell me, what's going on?"

"Don't you want me?" I was pushed down on the bed by Pei Shaobei, and asked with a smile, "Pei Shaobei, do you finally don't want me?"

Pei Shaobei paused, as if he had guessed the reason why I had become so neurotic.

"You saw me today, didn't you?"

Pei Shaobei took the initiative to talk about this matter, this was what I hoped for, I knew that he would definitely give me a perfect explanation, so perfect that I would never doubt him, and I would definitely feel that I was going crazy with a nervous texture.

"The person who is having dinner with me today is my ......" I pounced again, pressed Pei Shaobei on the bed at once, and kissed him while pulling his clothes regardless of it.

"Gu Wan, you, don't be like this, calm down!" Pei Shaobei eagerly stopped me, with some impatience in his words.

Where am I willing to listen, I don't know what else I can think in my head, now, what I want to do most is to hold him, let my body really feel that this man is mine, I want to let his body lose control, to prove that I still have an irresistible charm with Pei Shaobei.

Pei Shaobei stopped me from taking off his shirt, so I went to pull his pants. Pei Shaobei hurriedly stopped it, but because of my stomach, he didn't dare to get too excited, but his words turned to drinking, "Gu Wan, you stop me, can you calm down your head?"

"No, no!" I shouted angrily, but I had already ripped off his belt, Pei Shaobei was also angry, turned over and pressed me on the bed, and ripped my shirt open, "Isn't that the case, you can feel secure, okay, since that's the case, I'll give it to you!"

Pei Shaobei said and pulled my skirt without being gentle at all, I felt that his words were completely giving me charity, and there was no trace of the feeling I wanted, the feeling of being out of control and being controlled by desire.

I can't take it, I can't accept sex like this.

Without waiting for Pei Shaobei to make a move, I supported my body, forcefully pushed him back, and sat directly on him, male and female, such a posture made a love affair with unknown meaning extremely intense and long-lasting. In the middle, I already felt uncomfortable, but that breath was still there, and I always refused to admit defeat.

Tossed until midnight, fell asleep, but at six o'clock the next morning, he was woken up by a stomachache.

At first, I endured it, but then I really couldn't get out of bed, Pei Shaobei directly called an ambulance, tossed all the way to the hospital, when the doctor finally said the cause of the disease, he looked at Pei Shaobei with a very strange gaze, but with a little reproach, "Lawyer Pei, pregnant women are not suitable for too intense posture, if you still want this child, it is best to restrain it." ”

I looked at Pei Shaobei's gloomy face, ashamed and embarrassed.

I don't know for what reason, Pei Shaobei chose a single VIP ward this time, I didn't refuse, and quietly let the nurse push me in and place me on the bed. From beginning to end, there was no speech.

I feel very ashamed, not only my own face but also Pei Shaobei's face.

Pei Shaobei sat on the edge of the bed and didn't speak, looked at me for a while, stood up and walked to the window, his fingers subconsciously reached into his pocket, touched it for a long time and pulled it back.

I half-squinted, couldn't pretend to be asleep, and blushed and almost burned myself to ashes.

"I'm sorry!" I said after a long time. "I didn't know things would turn out like this, Pei Shaobei, you ......"

"Gu Wan, every time you do something wrong, you will say something, I didn't know that things would turn out like this?" Pei Shaobei replied coldly, "I thought that we had experienced so many things, and we could already have a good heart and trust each other, but it turned out that we didn't have that kind of trust foundation, in your eyes, in your heart, what kind of person am I?"

"No, Pei Shaobei, you listen to my explanation, I, I just, I was just ...... last night" I didn't know what to say, how to explain, the guilt and grievances in my heart swelled up, and tears flowed all over my face very unhappily.

I knew that all the quarrels between me and Pei Shaobei would eventually become my fault and make me feel guilty. Every time, I'm apologizing, I'm trying to make things right, but at the end of the day, it's not me who did the wrong thing, right?

"What are you? You just saw me having a meal with a woman, but you made such a fuss, do you think, this is very existential, do you think, if you are sick or hospitalized, everyone else can revolve around you, and you will no longer care about your willfulness and your nonsense?"

Pei Shaobei turned his head to look at me, his eyebrows were furrowed, and his eyes were full of impatience, "Gu Wan, you are not a child anymore, shouldn't your life experience make you grow up? Why, you would make such a wrong judgment about marriage, feelings, and even the responsibilities of a mother? Gu Wan, this time, I can't understand or forgive!"

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