I feel that I can no longer dwell on this issue, and I found that it is impossible to make it clear to Pei Zile on this issue.

I slowly calmed down, looked at Pei Zile, who was already excited, and said, "Zile, I asked you over today to talk to you about your future!"

"What will happen in the future?" Pei Zile asked rhetorically, "Isn't my future already decided? I don't think I have any ability to resist my parents' decision!"

"But, haven't you already rejected your mother's decision to send you abroad?" I couldn't help but retort, and I felt that something was wrong as soon as the words came out, and sure enough, I saw that the smile on Pei Zile's face had plummeted, and it had become a look similar to Pei Shaobei's overly calm and indifferent.

"That," I was a little embarrassed, but there was no need to hide it when it came to this, so I directly said my purpose, "Pei Zile, I asked you out today not to catch up with you or to tell you about the things between us, I am persuading you to go abroad!"

"Why?" Pei Zile looked at me coldly, his face calm.

I was resistant to his reaction, "What is why? Do you know how many people's dreams are to study abroad, the world is so big, if you go out and see, you will find a different world." And going abroad to gild is also a good help for your future development. I can't figure out why you shouldn't be, and if it's me, then you don't have to!"

"Since you think it's good to go abroad, then, you go with me!" Pei Zile suddenly leaned forward, grabbed my hand on the table, the warm and humid palm made me extremely uncomfortable, and immediately broke free, and smiled a little stiffly, "Why do you go abroad?"

"Hmph, you are the same as my mother, flying the flag of good for me, but is it really good for me?" Pei Zile laughed a little self-deprecatingly, "My mother wants me to go abroad to win glory for her, and you want me to go abroad just to get rid of my entanglement." Gu Wan, do you hate me so much?"

"Yes!" I suddenly interrupted Pei Zile's words through gritted teeth, stared at him and said, "Yes, I hate you very much, and I can't wait for you to leave now!"

Pei Zile was frightened by my expression, looked at me blankly, and didn't say anything for a long time with his mouth open.

I suppressed the unbearability in my heart, and said even more desperately, "Do you know how much your existence has affected me, my work, my life, have become so unbearable because of your participation." Didn't you read Lin Dong's post on the campus network at that time? Do you still want me to continue to be troubled like this? Is this the way you love me, and this is the happiness you want to give me?"

"But can my brother give you happiness? Do you know that he is carrying you behind your back......" Pei Zile almost slapped the table excitedly.

"I don't care what he did behind my back, I just know that I am pregnant with his child in my belly, and I have agreed to his marriage proposal, no matter what the result is, it has nothing to do with you!" I interrupted Pei Zile in a cold voice, Pei Zile looked at me with sarcasm in his eyes.

At this time, the waiter brought up the things that Pei Zile had ordered just now, and neither me nor he moved, just looked at each other like that, I tried my best to let my eyes reveal absolute and disdain, and the only way was to make Pei Zile hate me.

"Do you think that a child can let you walk into the door of the Pei family?" Pei Zile hooked his lips and smiled, "Do you think my brother can really give you the life you want?"

"What can you give me?" I followed his example, and also hooked my lips and smiled, extremely sarcastic, "You keep saying that you love me and say that you will give me happiness, then I ask you, what can you give me? money, power, protection? Pei Zile, you tell me, what do you have? Compared to Pei Shaobei, what do you have?"

Pei Zile's eyes were slightly red, but his face was becoming more and more gloomy, he was still staring at me, his lips were pursed, and he didn't say a word.

I looked at him and felt uncomfortable, feeling that I had become the same person as Shao Ling, who had driven away his favorite little nanny.

"You can't tell it, can you? You yourself know that you can't give me anything, you're just a sophomore, and the flowers are all the things of the Pei family, and you yourself have nothing and nothing good!"

"You're enough!" Pei Zile suddenly slapped the table, and the people around him looked over instantly, my face was a little burning, but I still pretended to stare at him calmly, and continued, "It's a childish sign of being embarrassed and angry, if the person sitting opposite me and listening to me say these words at this time is Pei Shaobei, he will definitely not have an expression like you." You are worse, more than a star and a half, and I, for a long time, have long been disgusted with you to the extreme. If it weren't for the sake of giving your brother face, I would have been reluctant to entangle with you for a long time, and now, you are still holding the reason why you don't go abroad on my head, do you just think about it, completely pull me and Pei Shaobei apart, do you just think that if you continue to entangle endlessly, sooner or later the Pei family and Pei Shaobei will despair of me. Pei Zile, your intentions are really poisonous!"

Pei Zile's tears almost fell, he stared at me, and suddenly reached out and slapped me hard, it was very loud and painful.

My face was crooked, and I instantly tasted the fishy sweetness in my mouth.

"Gu Wan, are you lying to me?" Pei Zile seemed to immediately regret his actions, he leaned over in a pleading tone, stretched out his hand to grab me, I immediately avoided it, and didn't care how embarrassed I was at the moment, turned my head to look at him, and said word by word, "Pei Zile, you are in my way!"

Pei Zile looked at me in a daze, and suddenly laughed, the people around him who were watching the excitement had begun to whisper, and the waiter came over hesitantly and persuaded me in a low voice, "Miss, this is a public place, please keep quiet with this gentleman, okay?"

I didn't apologize to the waiter, but still looked straight at Pei Zile.

"Okay, very good, Gu Wan, I'll wait to see how you go this way!" Pei Zile pointed at me and said such a sentence, then turned around and kicked the chair behind him fiercely, and walked away without looking back.

My tears flowed almost instantly, and the waiter panicked a little and asked nervously, "Miss, are you okay?"

"What can I do?" I asked, looking up at her with tears on her face, but smiling, like a madman, "what do you think I will do? I was going to drive him away, and in what way, what does it matter to you?"

The waiter was stunned by my question, she looked at the things Pei Zile ordered on the table, and hesitated and whispered, "That, the meal we ordered here is only exchanged and not refunded, so ......"

"I'll pay!" I didn't want to pay any more attention to the other person, so I turned my head to look outside. The sad emotion in my heart has indeed swept over like a wave, and my whole body has fallen into a kind of indifference that I can't break free, staring blankly, looking outside, bustling streets.

I don't know how Pei Zile will choose after listening to my words, and I don't know if I have done what Li Gang and Shao Ling want me to do, I only know that my heart hurts a lot, the pain of being hurt and betrayed, as if it was cut on my heart instead of Pei Zile.

I once said to that paranoid and withdrawn teenager that we would become good friends, and no matter what the outcome of Pei Shaobei and I was, it would not change this fact.

But what did I do?

I smiled bitterly in my heart, this kind of stabbing in the face, this is the first time for me, but I have done it so skillfully, is it as Sister Yu said, people's subconscious is often what they want to do but dare not do in their hearts.

Maybe what I just said was all the subconscious hidden in the deepest part of my heart, which existed when Pei Zile first expressed that feeling to me, and accompanied by his entanglement, until today, I found a righteous and bright reason from Li Gang, found a reason to be fearless and not to worry about the consequences, and blurted out these words.

Actually, that's my truest thought, isn't it?

But what's the matter with the tears on his face?

Are you moved by yourself, self-hypnosis, self-compassion?

Human beings are really a strange species, in the midst of contradictions, but unable to face the core of contradictions, always trying to find a favorable rhetoric for themselves, and taking the fear and panic of the core of the contradiction for granted.

I raised my hand to wipe away my tears, looked at the untouched food on the table, picked up a fork, and took a bite.

The people who watched the excitement around them, after Pei Zile left, whispered for a while and then regained their quietness, but the eyes that occasionally floated over were full of inquiry and suspicion.

I didn't pay attention to it, and I didn't mean to get up and leave.

I don't know why I'd put myself in such an awkward situation and still be able to sit calmly instead of running away with my tail between my legs. It seems that in order to show that I really don't have anything, I took small bites to gobble up, as if I had to swallow all the dishes on this table into my stomach, so that I could swallow the tears that had been rolling in my eyes, so that I could pretend that I didn't know anything and go home to face Pei Shaobei.

I don't know how long I've been eating, but I still can't stop crying, I almost collapsed, I couldn't care about the eyes of others anymore, I put my hands on my face, and whimpered lowly.

People around me came and went, almost everyone glanced at me as they passed by, and I slowly regained my composure in this occasional noise, and the wave-like emotion was interrupted again and again, and finally I could no longer connect.

I took out my wallet, waved to the counter, and while waiting, I turned my head to look out the window, only to see a very familiar car.

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