Chinese I know I can't escape this time.

Or this is the retribution I took for deceiving Chen Xiang a few times ago, and it is impossible to hide it from the world again.

At that moment, I suddenly didn't even have the idea of defending myself.

I confessed frankly, and I didn't even say the reasons that seemed to excuse me. What is the reason, I understand, no amount of reason is enough to explain the mistake I made this time.

And after Chen Xiang accepts my reasons, will he wronged himself to tolerate me again?

Rather than that, why should I dare to do it again, I would rather she hate me happily and blame me, rather than want to blame and be reluctant to blame, want to hate and entangle.

After all, this thing is not a child's fight, no matter what the reason, it is impossible for her not to be uncomfortable and not care.

I just told Chen Xiang that I was indeed wrong some time ago, and I misunderstood her. I shouldn't have distrusted her, and I shouldn't have spied on her like a patient.

I also admit that my suspicion of her is entirely due to the knot in my heart that I have not had time to open.

I had already thought about it when I said these words, and if Chen Xiang forgave me, I would double down to make up for her. If she blames me and hates me, then I'll change it until she forgives me.

I don't want to get divorced, and I won't get divorced.

I even stubbornly and pathologically believe that even if I were to die, I would not get a divorce. This idea started when I was four years old when my mom told her she was going out to buy me chocolates and never came back.

No one knows, and I haven't eaten chocolate since that day and refuse anything that tastes that way.

In fact, I have always been a patient, and the domineering possession of Chen Xiang did not dare to promise her for fear of losing, and gave it, and at the same time brought it over, it was also a pressure that should not have been borne by her.

She could find someone who is 10,000 times better than me.

But forgive me, I really can't let go, I can't imagine the pain of losing her.

Later, Chen Xiang's decision was that we would live separately for a while. I knew that she had no way to face me, so I didn't force it, and I was both grateful and guilty the moment she didn't file for divorce.

Chen Xiang also said that she wanted to film.

In fact, I have always known that being an actor has been Chen Xiang's dream since she was a child, but I once opposed her filming because of my selfishness, and this time, I finally have no excuse to behave her again.

I nodded, just telling her to be careful and take care of herself.

But Chen Xiang smiled and said to me, "I'm really not that fragile. ”

yes, I don't really know anything about her.

Although I was going to move out, I didn't want to move too far, but fortunately, when I bought this house, I bought the upstairs and downstairs floors together because I liked to be quiet.

I moved downstairs to Chen Xiang so that I could hear any sound she made there, and then I went back in time.

Chen Xiang acquiesced to me doing this, and she was still so tolerant of me that she didn't even change the door lock.

She must not know that every night when I have insomnia, I lie on the bed and listen quietly to the sounds upstairs, she walks, and I am careful where she goes.

I'm so scared that one day she'll leave our home.

Later, Chen Xiang was really going to filming, and when I went back to S City, I suddenly heard the sound of something smashing on the ground upstairs that day, and when I rushed over, Chen Xiang told me that she was fine.

How can it be okay, there is a bleeding wound on the head.

My first thought was to take her to the hospital, but Chen Xiang told me that she was not so squeamish, and told me about the injuries she had suffered during filming before.

I never knew that, and even I'm ashamed that I didn't even think to know about it before

All along, it was too easy for me to get Chen Xiang, and when I missed her, she was in front of me and asked me to kiss and let me hug her. Even during the year of separation, I always blamed her and hated her.

But I never thought that Chen Xiang had actually filmed a lot of scenes, and I had only seen less than one-tenth of them.

This time Chen Xiang's departure really made me really start to miss me for a long time, because this is the first time, and I am really not sure if she will accept me.

After she left, I found the scenes she had filmed on the Internet, from when she was not in college and was dragged to be an extra, to later one by one, and then became the third female, the second female, and even the female number one.

The same person, the same face, but interprets so many different lives.

I have seen Chen Xiang who walked on the wall in ancient costumes, Chen Xiang who walked between good and evil in a cheongsam during the war years, Chen Xiang who secretly dated her boyfriend in a school uniform in her youthful years, and Chen Xiang who became someone else's wife gentle and virtuous.

At this time, I remembered the song: I still have to meet a few more of you before I can forget you, and I have to reject a few of you before I can't think of you.

And all I want to know is that I still have to meet a few more of you before I can recover my you. I'm going to dream about you a few more times so you won't miss it.

It turned out that Chen Xiang was like that when she was filming, she was really not as fragile as I thought, she even filmed the scene of jumping into the sea and jumping off a three-story high platform.

It is too difficult to know what such an unknown young actor has experienced, and even Xia Xia told me that she actually doesn't know what Chen Xiang is like in the crew.

By chance, at a dinner, I met an actor who had worked with Chen Xiang, when I mentioned Chen Xiang.

The actor said: "She, that little girl is really desperate." But she is not a brainless fight, in fact, she has practiced in advance every time and has consulted for guidance. However, I still suffered a lot of injuries. She used to have a scene where she was very dangerous and used as a stand-in for others, but when she heard that the other party was her classmate, she didn't know if she loved face or was afraid that her classmate would not go, so she kept it a secret from that classmate. Many people in the crew have insurance, but this kind of little actor doesn't have it, so she bought accident insurance for herself, was injured and went to the hospital, no one bothered, and the operation was signed by herself. You say she's too stubborn, I don't think so, she's really too sensible. And after getting along for a long time, you know that she didn't hold on to herself, maybe she survived, but now she does have that kind of ** ability, even we big men can't compare. ”

After saying this, the actor sighed again, "The little girl is also beautiful, if I don't have a daughter-in-law, I will chase her." Many young men in the crew are worried about her, she is like an insulator, and she is dedicated to filming, filming, filming, filming. ”

It seems that this actor doesn't pay much attention to gossip news, so he doesn't know the relationship between me and Chen Xiang.

But what I heard from him really made me want to get to know Chen Xiang again.

Originally, I had already bought a ticket and wanted to visit the class and see her filming, although I knew that she would not accept me so quickly, so I would just take a few silent glances secretly.

But at this time, there was an accident on one of the company's projects, and a worker fell from the building on the construction site, and I had to stay in Beijing to deal with the matter.

After such a delay, when I received a call from Chen Xiang again, she actually told me that Chang Cheng had gone to find her, and threatened to pour sulfuric acid on her.

It's impossible not to worry, but I still overestimated my influence on Chang Cheng, I thought that just like before, Chang Cheng would listen to me whatever I said.

But this time, when I called to find Chang Cheng, because I said a few heavy words, Chang Cheng was also anxious: "Jiang Hao, I have been your brother for more than 20 years, I have been calling you brother! What a fucking fuck, I'm not done with her!"

Not only did I not stop this, but because of my intervention, Chen Xiang was angered, and when I arrived in S City, she had already been sent to the hospital, and her whole body was either in a plaster cast or bandaged.

Even her face was so swollen that I couldn't recognize it.

Chen Xiang cried.

I asked her why she cried so much.

She said, "I hurt. ”

Just because of these two words, I almost cried, but I couldn't cry in front of her, and when I went out, I cried against the wall alone, it turned out that I was so incompetent and useless.

Chen Xiang hurts, I can't hurt for her.

If I could, cut off my hands and feet, and I would like to take her place. She hurts, I really can't do anything, so powerless, I feel like I might as well die.

When changing the dressing, Chen Xiang would also cry in pain. Only when the phone is in front of her parents will she disguise herself very well.

She's so sensible, I wish she could be willful for once.

If Lin Xia hadn't found out in time, I would have found out that I cut my hand with a fruit knife. It's not that I can't think about it, I know that I want to accompany Chen Xiang to hurt together.

I really, can't do anything for her.

In this matter, I can only force Lin Xia to promise not to tell Chen Xiang.

Later, I finally pulled Chang Cheng out, and I grabbed his clothes and beat him. Chang Cheng didn't fight back, probably the moment he saw me crazy, he really understood what Chen Xiang meant to me.

I told Chang Cheng that I couldn't treat him as a buddy in my life.

When he apologized behind me, I didn't even look back.

Chang Cheng's background is too strong, and even if he was imprisoned for three months later, it was partly because he volunteered. Of course, Chang Cheng's father is not easy to deal with, so I still invited the old man of our family out to force him to promise that he would not trouble Chen Xiang's family in the future.

I went back to the hospital to take care of Chen Xiang, help her take a bath, and accompany her all day long.

She had a few stitches in the corner of her eye, and I couldn't help myself from smashing the glass, so I accompanied her with a few stitches.

I half-jokingly told Chen Xiang that we were really a couple in this way, but she told me in the sun that she was not happy at all.

I looked down and caught a glimpse of half of the nails on her ring finger on which she was wearing.

Chen Xiang is really unhappy, so unhappy, since I gave her this marriage, she has lived in fear every day, she tolerates me and tolerates me, she doesn't even get a small wedding.

She didn't blame me for the miscarriage, she still forced herself to give me a chance after I did such a wrong thing.

And this time, although she said disappointment, I understood that this disappointment was not only for me, but also for this marriage, and for my love for her and her.

Even I felt that our beginning was a mistake, why, let me meet her in the first place, let me misunderstand her, let me accidentally change her life.

I just beg Chen Xiang not to divorce, give me another chance to make amends, I want to make up for it for the rest of my life.

But how can a sinner like me go unpunished?

I don't agree to the divorce, no matter how resolute Chen Xiang is, it's useless, I have pestered her for a few months, and I will never give up compromise when I look at her cold attitude.

I even replaced it when Xu Qianqian wanted Chen Xiang and Blu-ray to go to bed // instead.

I really couldn't control myself anymore, I just wanted to prove that Chen Xiang was still mine, but that morning, she hated me a little more.

On the same morning, Chang Cheng died.

Chang Cheng jumped off the building, I don't know if it's a coincidence, the place where he jumped off the building is the place where I hit him and told him that I was going to break off friendship with him, and I would never recognize this brother again in my life.

Jumping from such a high place, you can imagine what he will look like in the end.

To my lover, to my brother, sometimes I really don't want to give up any of them. In the eyes of others, it is not a pity to die, but to me, he is the one who saved my life, and the only person who reached out to me as a friend in my darkest childhood.

Without Chang Cheng, I don't deserve what my personality would be dark today.

What surprised me, Chen Xiang didn't show any emotion about Chang Cheng's death, and didn't take the opportunity to ridicule, she just stayed by my side quietly.

The lost brother also reminds me of the lost child.

I asked Chen Xiang if it would be okay for us to have two more children in the future, but Chen Xiang did not answer, and then she left.

I heard her tell Lin Xia that she shouldn't worry too much about me, and she said I would be fine.

It turns out that Chen Xiang knows me much more than I know her. It turns out that this is what it feels like to be trusted and believed. And the suspicion and suspicion I brought to Chen Xiang were exactly the opposite.

The same love, I gave her the worst, and she gave me the best.

It took me a long time to escape the pain of Chang Cheng's death. But Chen Xiang, I can't give up on her, I'm still learning to understand her, every time she films, I secretly watch from the side.

Sometimes she knows, sometimes she doesn't.

When she went to participate in the reality show, I also secretly watched, those scary projects, and several times I wanted to walk over and pull her away domineeringly, but I didn't.

Probably this is the respect that Chen Xiang wants, our lives can intersect and entangle, but they can't completely coincide.

Therefore, I have no right to decide and give up on her behalf.

During these times, I did nothing but learn to trust her, pray for her, and cheer her on.

I often take my camera to take photos of Chen Xiang, there are stills, there are also her drinking water when she is resting, and even making faces with other actors.

In fact, I hesitate at these times, it turns out that Chen Xiang was so happy when he was filming, so do I really want to tie her up again and force her to give up her dream and return to me again?

On the day Zheng Junxi was arrested, I had just had dinner with Chen Xiang, and my efforts seem to have improved these days, or it may be that Chen Xiang knows that I am too liar. But I know that even that proves that she doesn't reject me that much.

If there is no matter of Zheng Junxi being arrested, maybe Chen Xiang and I can really reconcile.

That day, I suddenly received a phone call telling me the true cause of Chang Cheng's death. It turned out that he jumped off the building not voluntarily, but because he had taken too many psychedelic drugs at the time and would fall from the building when he was unconscious.

is like those people in Hong Kong dramas who stand on the rooftop with their arms outstretched and shouting what I want to fly after taking medicine.

My mind is full of the last back that Chang Cheng left to this world.

What makes me even more unbelievable is that the person who asked Chang Cheng for it turned out to be Zheng Junxi. How could it be!?How could it be an accident?

So at first, Chang Cheng's father hid this matter for the sake of the family's reputation, but he still investigated the truth, and when I knew it, the police were already going to arrest Zheng Junxi.

Fortunately, at school or in the entertainment industry, the intersection of Chen Xiang and Zheng Junxi is not much in the eyes of outsiders. On the contrary, Lin Xia and Zheng Junxi are always misunderstood to have a relationship, but no one dares to touch Lin Xia. Of course, with me, no one will be able to touch Chen Xiang in the slightest.

I arranged for someone to ensure the safety of Chen Xiang's family, and also erased all the evidence that could prove that she was related to Jung Junxi.

But I know that it is almost impossible to save Jung Jun-hee.

I may not have that ability, and I can't do such a forgiving thing, because the one who dies is also my best brother.

It's just that I figured it out later, what's the use of letting Zheng Junxi accompany Chang Cheng to death? Chang Cheng still can't survive, looking at Chen Xiang, I can't bear not to help her save Zheng Junxi.

I know that Chang Cheng's father has always had an illegitimate child outside, so even if Chang Cheng dies, he still has a son. Since this is the case, you can force him to make concessions from the perspective of interests.

In the end, I promised to give him 51% of the real estate company's shares, as well as the land.

In fact, I lost not only the land and the company, but I also didn't know how to repay the bank loan from this day on. I didn't even dare to tell my dad about it, because he would definitely oppose it and even get in the way to stop me.

I thought at the time, even if I went bankrupt, I couldn't let Chen Xiang down.

Even if everything is gone, maybe she's still with me?

However, it turned out that I was deceived. Not only did I lose my company and owe huge debts, but what I rescued was not Jung Jun-hee's living people, but his ashes.

I didn't even see a whole person.

Xia Xia collapsed, and Chen Xiang also collapsed. And I, still can't do anything.

The more times like this, the more I felt that I really had nothing but Chen Xiang, so I began to be extreme again, and when Chen Xiang took Zheng Junxi's inheritance and her own hard-earned money to say that she would return it to me, I couldn't help but get angry with her.

I told her I wouldn't get a divorce, I wouldn't get a divorce, I wouldn't want a divorce.

I even gave Chang Cheng's father to him in front of Chen Xiang. Is he the only one who has died of his son? My son is also dead, he can kill Zheng Junxi and deceive my company, so who should I die? Chen Xi or Chang Cheng? Xu Qianqian or myself?

In the company that I worked so hard to build, I didn't even listen to a single security guard anymore, and since I was a child, I have always used my power to be unfair to others.

The first time, I lost to someone else's rights.

I was kicked out of the company, I was even detained for three days, before leaving, I was still thinking about Chen Xiang, I was afraid that she would be afraid, I was afraid that she would be worried, I asked her to go home and wait for me.

In the next three days, I was completely trampled under my feet, I was beaten, scolded, and splashed with water, and I knew that it was all Chang Cheng's father's masterpiece.

Even my dad was so angry that he didn't want to take care of me after he found out about it, and even I didn't know how many days I would be locked up.

Or, will it be locked up for a few years?

If there were really a few years, would Chen Xiang still wait for me? When I was most painful, my mind was full of her.

Does my mom love me? No matter how guilty she says she is now, she was the one who abandoned me when I was only four years old. Does my dad love me? He just loves a wonderful heir, right? Otherwise, when I was young, how could he have watched that woman trample on my dignity.

It turns out that in this world, there is only Chen Xiang who really loves me.

Without her, I will be left with nothing.

In this way, I finally took it to the detention center for three days, and when I went out, no one picked me up, I thought I would see Chen Xiang, but I didn't.

When I got home, I thought she would wait for me, but she didn't.

Only the babysitter at home told me something I didn't want to believe and didn't want to know. But the fact is that Chen Xiang really didn't return all night, and when she came back, she didn't even wear makeup.

There is also a photo of her hugging Blu-ray when I was detained, and the recording of Xu Qianqian.

All of them told me that my wife, the person I loved the most, and I thought that the only person in the world who loved me, had slept with someone else when I was almost in jail for her detention.

I don't believe it, I know Chen Xiang won't be like that, but when those descriptions become more and more realistic, I can't control my jealousy.

I'm afraid that Chen Xiang will leave me.

(The next update will be after the divorce.) ）

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