I asked my grandmother to wait for me outside and followed the doctor into the office to inquire about the treatment.

The doctor was very good and said that my grandmother's physical condition did not allow for further surgery, and she could only be treated conservatively. He didn't even recommend chemotherapy, saying that in his grandmother's state, chemotherapy would only increase the pain, and it was better to go to the Chinese medicine hospital to grab some medicine to eat.

According to his words, if my grandmother still has any unfulfilled wishes, she will fulfill them as soon as possible, do whatever she wants, and eat whatever she wants. He said that according to the current situation, his grandmother may only have about three months to live.

I cried on the spot, and my tears fell down one by one, and I couldn't control it at all.

After tossing for so long, my grandmother will still be tortured by illness after all, and I can't accept this result. In fact, I should have noticed that something was wrong with her, she was so thin and her face was so yellow, how could I turn a blind eye? How could I not have imagined that she might not live long?

I would not have been able to bear this reality, otherwise I would not have tried my best to raise money for my grandmother's surgery. But now I seem to be a little more acceptable, after all, the doctor didn't say that I can rest easy after the surgery.

I took my grandmother to the Chinese medicine hospital to dispense medicine, and when I got home, I boiled it for her.

In those days, I lived like a walking corpse, and I didn't have the heart to study Zhuang Yan's affairs after work, so I went home early and changed my way to cook the meals that my grandmother might like to eat, and after eating, I walked and chatted with her every step of the way.

She said that she couldn't worry about me the most, but fortunately, Zhuang Yan now takes care of me.

But how did she know that if I didn't take the initiative to contact Zhuang Yan now, he would keep holding back and not contacting me.

One night, when I woke up from a nightmare, I impulsively wanted to tell him that my grandmother was no longer good, but I deleted it after typing a paragraph, and finally only sent three words: I miss you.

He's not a god, and there's nothing he can do about his grandmother's illness, and I don't want him to add a few more gray hairs. He has been sending money to my card regularly, and he doesn't pay too much every time, about 10,000, but after accumulating for so long, it is already a huge amount of money for me. I hadn't used the money before, but I think I'll be using it soon.

I thought about quitting my job before, but I never thought about it again.

On weekends, I didn't rush to find Zhuang Yan anymore, and spent all the time I could squeeze out every day to spend with my grandmother.

Bao Yuanyuan was the first to know about my grandmother's condition, and I asked her to help me keep it a secret, and she agreed.

The winter vacation came soon, I took the time to go back to my hometown to make up for the household registration book, and I heard from the people in the village that my uncle-in-law is now beautiful, and the last time I came back, I actually wore a big gold chain around my neck. I don't feel it at all, he is already a stranger to me, and if he spits on me and violates my interests in the future, I will definitely not be soft-hearted. If he was really deceived by Zhao Yaru and them, he would definitely not end well in the future.

I have never dared to inquire about the situation in Zhuang Yan's company, I don't know how far the matter has been remedied, and whether I want to go to jail, but he has not taken the initiative to contact me, which proves that the matter has not been resolved.

Before the Chinese New Year holiday, a very coincidental thing happened when I was doing telemarketing, and there was a counselor in my list of phone numbers. When I introduced the company's financial plan to him in the gentlest voice, he couldn't help but interrupt me: "Xixi, is that you?"

I panicked and took the initiative to cut off the phone.

He quickly called back, and this time he didn't talk to me again, and directly began to ask about our company's situation, and said that he wanted to ask me for financial management.

"Teacher, you don't have to take care of me like this, you better know more about the situation. ”

He probably didn't expect me to be so straightforward, paused for two seconds, and said a little angrily: "Xixi, I didn't take the civil service exam, I'm still working in an advertising company, I'm already making a profit, I want to save some money to buy a house and get married in the future." I originally wanted to manage money, don't always reject me, I don't want to find someone else to manage money, it's better to find you at ease. ”

As he spoke, he also asked Boss Xiao to help him testify, and I couldn't help laughing, I always felt that he was very simple.

Later, the intersection with him all started again from this telemarketing.

I was already able to grasp the balance very well at that time, and I didn't take it to heart after being polite to him very officially, after all, I didn't even tell him the address of the store department of the company where I and Bao Yuanyuan worked.

The company was only on holiday on my birthday, and it had been more than half a month since my grandmother was diagnosed with a recurrence of stomach cancer, and I suddenly didn't want to go home so early, sitting on the bench on the pedestrian street blowing the cold wind, and looking through the photos of Lele on my phone over and over again.

I miss her very much, and I miss her dad even more, but I'm helpless now, and I want to throw myself into his arms and cry, but I can't do anything. He was right, if I found out that he was "betraying" me, I would probably only hate him, and I would have called him unscrupulously when I was in a bad mood. But now I have a lot of worries, and in the end, I was defeated by the word "reluctant".

I feel that I am bitter, how can he not be bitter?

When my grandmother called me to urge me to go back, it was already dark.

The snow on the ground creaked under my feet, like the loneliness in my heart, rushing into my ears and shaking my soul.

I called my uncle and wanted to ask him if he could bring his grandmother over for a reunion after the New Year, but he was a little embarrassed: "Xixi, I want to go to your aunt's house for the New Year, and I don't know when I will be back after the New Year...... On the fifteenth day of the first month, when the time comes, I will go to my mother to pay a farewell to her old age. ”

"Uncle, my grandmother's stomach cancer has recurred, if you can, please take the time to see her, thank you." There was silence on the other end of the phone for a long time, and I knew that he might be thinking in a complicated direction, so I quickly said to him, "Grandma's body can't be operated on anymore, I have enough money on hand to take care of her, you don't have to worry about this." ”

Probably because I was too blunt, he laughed awkwardly twice before saying that he would arrange a time to come over as soon as possible......

When I entered the door, I smelled the fragrance of flowers, a large bouquet of roses moved towards me as if they had long legs, and from under the flowers came the little milk voice that I thought about: "Happy birthday, Mom......!"

The key of the birthday song she sings remains the same, and it all loops in the key of the first line.

I glanced up in surprise, and Zhuang Yan, who was wearing my apron, came out of the kitchen: "Back?"

It was like a dream, and I didn't know how to respond for a long time. He didn't say that he would come to celebrate my birthday this year, let alone bring Lele over. So I feel in a trance, if it weren't for Lele holding flowers to my arms all the time, I would definitely have to be stunned for a while.

"Why are you here?" I was calm on the surface, but my mood was already turbulent.

Zhuang Yan smiled faintly and pointed to the cake on the table: "Your birthday, how can you not come?"

That night was the happiest time I have ever had in this time, because Bao Yuanyuan hadn't gone home yet, so I asked her to come over that night to help take care of Lele, and willfully dragged Zhuang Yan out on a date.

There were a lot of snacks on the pedestrian street, and I asked him to buy them for me, and he looked at me dotingly as before, frowning and smiling: "It's unhygienic, eat less." ”

I didn't follow, shaking his arm and coquettishly: "I just want to eat, it's my birthday today, you still want to take care of me?"

If you want to manage it, you can manage it for a lifetime, anyway, I'll wait for you. I said this in silence in my heart, and when I saw his emaciated face, I couldn't say anything.

He nodded helplessly, rubbed my hair and said "yes" again and again.

When I ate the octopus balls, it was a little hot inside, and I almost vomited after taking half of it, but he kissed it in time and ate the remaining half into his mouth. Our lips finally met again after more than half a month, and although they were like dragonflies touching water, they stirred the ripples in my heart.

I looked at him stupidly and took the initiative to say, "If you don't go back tonight, let's open a room." ”

There was an inexplicable emotion in his eyes that began to float, and I knew that he wanted me too, because I was afraid that he would regret it, so I quickly took the initiative to close his mouth and kissed him again: "It's my birthday today, you have to listen to me." ”

He smiled: "Okay, listen to you. I felt as if he had suddenly made some kind of decision, and suddenly lowered his head and said affectionately in my ear, "Hehi, you are not ashamed of Allah now?"

It was cold outside, and the hot air he was blowing was itching in my ears. I was still very calm, but when he teased me like this, the heat on my face immediately rose, and soon it was as hot as a piping hot roasted sweet potato.

After opening the room, I took a shower first, and while he was taking a shower, I quietly pierced the newly bought condom, using very thin sewing needles, and the condom I bought was also transparent, I believe he would not notice.

I knew it was despicable, but I was just afraid that he would really leave me, so I wanted to get pregnant with a child so that he could dispel that idea completely. I didn't get pregnant this time, and I hope I can make it this time.

He was very gentle tonight, all his actions were based on my feelings, and the feeling of being treated as a treasure by him was so happy that I wanted to melt into his arms, and I would never be separated from him again. As I made the final sprint, he whispered in my ear, "Hee, I really want to rub you into my bones." ”

We did it tirelessly many times that night, and when we finally didn't want to move, I lay on him and kissed his chest from time to time: "Zhuang Yan, you go abroad to rest and recuperate, I'll wait for you." ”

During this time, I never mentioned this topic to him, and persuading him to go abroad was to let him leave his father alone, which was a very selfish choice, but his father also urged me several times, so I still spoke out selfishly.

I didn't even expect to hear his reply, but when I was about to fall asleep, a low voice suddenly floated above my head: "Okay." ”

I woke up suddenly, and when I looked up, there was a serious light bursting out of those bloodshot eyes.

"Really?

"Hmm. He was silent for a few moments before speaking again, "Heexi, you promise me one thing before leaving. ”