Xu Bin is still a primary school student after all, I was threatened by a few words, he was too scared to speak on the spot, he looked at me in a panic, with a little tears in the corners of his eyes, grabbed his schoolbag and walked out of the door of my house, and looked back at me a few times with complicated eyes before going out, but in the end he didn't dare to say anything, just ran away crying with his schoolbag on his back.

Watching Xu Bin walk away, I closed the door with one foot, and then walked back to the back room.

Xue Qi was standing in front of the sofa, her hands crossed over her pants, looking at me nervously, her eyes wide open, but she didn't dare to look at me, just looked at my feet.

When I saw Xue Qi, I had a feeling that I was not angry, this was the first time in 10 years that I was so angry with Xue Qi and hated her so much.

"Has Xu Bin touched you before?" I looked at Xue Qi condescendingly, Xue Qi looked at me a little overwhelmed, rubbing her little hands, after a while, Xue Qi's eyes finally oozed a little tears, she looked at me, shook her head suddenly, black hair flashed.

Seeing Xue Qi's actions, I picked her up without saying a word, forcibly carried her to the toilet, put her on the toilet like a doll, and then took off her pants for examination despite Xue Qi's weak resistance.

Xueqi is still a virgin, and it is as tight as a shell.

I breathed a sigh of relief, looked up, and looked at Xue Qi with relief.

Xue Qi was already crying with tears all over her face.

I stared into Xue Qi's eyes and said to her in a hoarse voice that I had never seen before:

"Qiqi, change schools for you. ”

Hearing my words, Xue Qi suddenly choked up, grabbed my hand and shook her head.

Black hair with tears, flickering constantly.

"You don't want to change schools?"

Xue Qi nodded, looking at me pitifully, but she didn't dare to speak.

"Then do you want to talk to Xu Bin again in the future? Do you want to play with him again?

"Say!"

As if frightened by my beast-like look and voice, Xueqi shook her head desperately and cried incessantly.

I glared at Xue Qi fiercely, then walked out of the toilet, slammed the toilet door shut, left Xue Qi alone in the toilet, and recognized her crying and called me papa.

Am I ruthless? maybe.

After all, I know that Xue Qi almost doesn't understand anything.

But I have to do that to her.

I have to give her a deep memory.

A deep memory that I haven't had in ten years.

lest she make another mistake.

I'm ruthless, because I can't bear it.

For the next few days, I didn't say a word to Xue Qi again. I adopted a Cold War tactic against her. I didn't say a word to her other than to cook for her and let her do her own laundry. Even when he sleeps, he has his back to her.

Xue Qi was also frightened by my indifferent strategy, as if she was really afraid that I would ignore her again, and for the next few days, Xue Qi followed me all the time, and when I was at home, she followed wherever I went, like a tail. Sometimes she would whisper to me in my ear that she would never go out again, and that I would look at her and talk to her.

But I deliberately didn't talk to her.

Xue Qi could only cry.

But even if I cried, I ignored her.

Because I have made up my mind to teach her a lesson that I will never forget.

On December 21st, it rained coldly, and the temperature plummeted, as if the whole world was frozen.

On the night of the cold rain, I still didn't pay much attention to Xue Qi, who called me papa all night, and used her childish methods to make me change my mind, but I couldn't help but not relent. That night, I even deliberately let Xue Qi and I sleep in two quilts.

Until then, we had all slept together.

It's just that what I didn't expect was that when I woke up the next morning, Xueqi suddenly caught a cold, and when I got up early in the morning, Xueqi said to me, papa, I'm so dizzy. And Xue Qi's eyes are still red, and her nose is also blocked.

It is indeed a symptom of a cold.

At that time, looking at Xueqi's cold, I finally softened my heart a little, took out the cold medicine from home, fed her to eat it, and changed her into new cotton clothes, comforted her a few words, and said that if I took the cold medicine, I would be fine, and I would go to school first. If it doesn't get better, Papa takes you to the hospital.

This is almost the first time I have spoken to Xue Qi in the past few days, at that time Xue Qi was very surprised, seeing that I was good to her again, she was willing to do whatever I said, Xue Qi obediently drank the most bitter medicine, and then obediently went to school.

That day, I personally took Xueqi to school, and when I got off the bus, I specially gave her an umbrella, and saw Xueqi smile faintly and wave to me at the school gate.

Seeing Xue Qi waving and smiling at me, I unconsciously waved at her and smiled slightly.

The thunderclouds that had been accumulating in my heart for a few days somehow dispersed a lot.

That sudden cold rain seemed to be a turning point for me and Xueqi to get back together.

But what we thought of was that the cold rain was not only a turning point in my relationship with Xueqi, but also a turning point in the fate of me and Xueqi.

In the next few days, my relationship with Xueqi finally improved a lot, and gradually returned to the previous state.

It's just that what worries me a little is that Xueqi's cold doesn't know what's going on, this time it's very stubborn, and it doesn't get better after taking medicine for several days, and the cough is getting worse day by day.

But Xue Qi has always insisted on taking medicine, insisting on going to class, and insisting on going to the rehearsal of the New Year's Day dance party for primary school students prepared by their school.

On the afternoon of December 24, 10, I was working in the office when I suddenly received a call from Xueqi's homeroom teacher, Mr. Xia, who said to me anxiously: "You said Chen Xueqi's father, right? Come to school quickly, your daughter has a fever and fainted!"

Xue Qi fainted?!

I felt thunder explode in my head at that time, and without saying a word, I hung up the phone and drove to Xueqi's elementary school as soon as possible, and I saw Xueqi lying on the hospital bed in the school infirmary.

Xue Qi was lying on the hospital bed, covered with a white quilt, covering her forehead, her eyes fascinated in pain, and her cheeks were red.

"Qiqi, Papa is here. I bypassed the doctor in the infirmary and walked to Xueqi's side, hearing my voice, Xueqi opened her eyes in a daze.

"Papa......" Xue Qi's long eyelashes showed black pupils, and she called me in a vague voice. "Papa, I'm not feeling well......"

"Papa is here and it's fine. I comforted Xueqi, then pulled her hand away from her forehead and touched her forehead.

I was shocked, Xue Qi's forehead was amazingly hot.

The doctor on the side told me that he had taken Xueqi's body temperature just now, 40 degrees, which was a high fever and had to be sent to the hospital immediately.

I nodded to the doctor, then picked up Xueqi, carried her on my back, and took her out of school.

When she was in the car, Xue Qi kept saying in a daze that her head was dizzy and her body was sore. Listening to Xueqi's moaning, I sped up.

After being sent to the hospital, I was taken aback by the long queue at the entrance of the hospital registration office, I didn't expect that there were so many people queuing up for registration today, it seems that because the weather is getting colder, there are many people who have caught a cold recently. But for the sake of Xue Qi, I still carried her hard into the crowd, halfway I relied on a little tip to let a few people give me a seat, it took about twenty minutes, I finally registered Xue Qi, and then took her to the respiratory department, and then there was a series of queues to take body temperature, allergy injections, blood test procedures, almost a full hour of busy Xue Qi finally admitted to the ward, was hung with salt water by the nurse.

At that time, seeing Xue Qi lying on the hospital bed with the infusion tape on her little hand, I was finally relieved.

"Qiqi, are you better?" I let Xueqi lean on the pillow, leaning her upper body slightly, and then covered her with a quilt to make her more comfortable.

Xue Qi opened her eyes and looked at me hazy, then nodded slightly.

“papa…… I'm so sour. Xue Qi muttered to me.

"It's okay, I'll get better when I hang up the salt water. I touched Xueqi's forehead and comforted her softly. "Qiqi, let's sleep first, Papa won't leave. ”

Xue Qi snorted, her body shrunk into the quilt, but she grabbed my hand.

“papa……”

"Huh?"

"Papa, it's good to be sick. ”

For no reason, Xue Qi suddenly said something to me.

I was shocked.

"What are you talking about stupidly again?" I smiled and touched Xueqi's little hand.

Xue Qi looked at me, and her big eyes turned red: "Papa, I thought you hated me Qi Qi......"

I felt my heart being scratched, I felt a little wetness in the corners of my eyes, I patted Xueqi's little hand, and said to her with a smile: "How can Papa hate Qiqi? Just like before. I grabbed Xueqi's little hand, put it in the palm of my hand and rubbed it gently.

“papa…… , I don't want to go to school anymore, I want to be with you. ”

After listening to Xue Qi's words, I comforted Xue Qi and said to her softly: "Qiqi, don't say stupid things, how can you not study? Go to bed early, and your body will be fine when you wake up." Then you can go to school again, and Papa is still waiting to see your dance performance. ”

"Hmm. Xue Qi hummed, then closed her eyes and fell into a deep sleep.

I grabbed Xueqi's hand and stroked it gently, but there was an indescribable taste in my heart, and the only feeling was that I wanted to cry.

Xue Qi still likes me after all.

Maybe she did something stupid because she was not sensible, but she is my Xueqi after all.

She was the little girl I picked up from the side of the road ten years ago.

It was I who taught her to call me papa, and it was I who taught her to walk, and I raised her day by day.

It didn't matter if it was ten years ago, or even today.

Xueqi has always had only me as a papa.

That afternoon, I sat on the edge of Xueqi's bed for a long time, and I also reflected a lot.

Looking at Xue Qi's cute sleeping position, I recalled a lot of things about Xue Qi when she was a child, I taught her to speak for the first time, I told her stories, I taught her to cook and wash her own dishes, I taught her to write...... Many memories that I didn't have time to savor because I was busy with secular work on weekdays slowly came to my mind at that moment.

At the end of the day, all I had in my heart was emotion.

I sighed, ten years have passed so quickly, I didn't expect that in a blink of an eye, Xueqi would be so big.

She was a baby that year.

I have to say, it's a miracle.

I sat beside Xueqi, thinking blankly, until the door to the ward was opened, and Xueqi's diagnostician walked in.

It was a middle-aged doctor, wearing glasses, with short black hair, holding a few documents in his hand, and when he saw Xueqi sleeping, he deliberately relaxed his steps and walked to me with a calm expression.

When I saw the diagnostician, I also stood up.

"You're her father...... Isn't it?" the diagnostician asked me with some confusion.

"Well, I am. What's wrong?"

"I have something I want to tell you, can you come out and get down?"

I nodded, but I was a little puzzled.

But I eventually followed him out of the room and out into the corridor.

Walking outside the corridor, the doctor immediately stopped. Turned to look at me.

And I stopped with him, looking at the diagnostician with some confusion, I don't know why he suddenly stopped.

But at that moment, I suddenly had a bad premonition in my heart.

"Are you really her father?" the diagnostician still didn't believe my identity.

"Yes, I am. What's wrong with my child?"

When I asked, the diagnostician's face was a little embarrassed, and his two thick eyebrows were furrowed.

"I have some not-so-good news for you. You'd better accept it. As he spoke, the diagnostician sighed, took out a document from his hand, and handed it to me.

Hearing the diagnostician's words, my heart sank, and my heartbeat began to accelerate, and my intuition told me that I was afraid that something really had to happen to Xue Qi. Because of this scene at this moment, I have seen it on TV too many times. Whenever a doctor speaks to you in such a tone on such an occasion, you can almost expect that what you will know next will be the most desperate piece of bad news.

At that moment, I almost didn't dare to take the information given to me by the diagnostician, but looking at the diagnostician's somewhat complicated eyes, I still took the information.

I read the information clearly.

It's Xueqi's blood test report.

I'm not a doctor, but I'm also from the pharmaceutical industry, and when I first saw the data on the report, I felt like I couldn't think or breathe anymore.

At that moment, I felt as if the corridor I was in had become a never-ending darkness, and the whole world had become an absolute abyss at that moment, quiet, yet still with people's ears ringing.

It was as if I was the only one left in the world.

In the darkness, I felt my feet trembling and I felt like I couldn't stand on my feet in battle.

My stomach churned, and something restless seemed to be jumping in my stomach, giving me a painful and itchy torment, not from the skin, but from the organs in my body, from the intestines, bones, and nerves.

It seemed like the next moment, I was going to vomit.

But I still held back, slowly raised my head, looked at the diagnostician, and the diagnostician also looked at me, looked heavy, sighed heavily, and then told me about Xueqi's condition. But I didn't listen to a word of the doctor's words.

"How so? This blood test report ...... Is there a mistake?" I just asked the diagnostician, in a trembling voice.

"You can try it a few more times...... But I reckon the result will be the same. It's just this disease, and you can't go wrong. With that, the doctor sighed again.

At that moment, I felt like the whole world was completely shattered.

I don't feel anything other than the world spinning.

I resisted the urge to break down, looked at the doctor, and asked him word by word:

"If that's the disease...... Is there any hope for recovery?"

"Can be treated...... But to recover, it's hard to say. I don't want to lie to you, I'll tell you the truth, there are many people who have had this disease, but it's getting better...... Seldom. "There were few words, the doctor said very softly, but to my ears, it sounded like a thunderclap.

How so?

Why is this happening?

At that moment, I almost wanted to tear up the blood test report and scream.

I didn't even want to believe the doctor's words at all, because just a few days ago, Xue Qi called me papa, why did the doctor suddenly tell me this bad news at this moment?

In any case, I can't accept such a sudden shift.

I simply can't accept this fact.

Or rather, don't want to.

Taking a deep breath, I mustered up the courage, looked the doctor in the eye, and asked him:

"That'...... If the best treatment is used, is there any hope for her?"

"This ...... Hard. There are examples of cures for this disease at home and abroad, but there are many failures...... It's really hard to say. ”

I swallowed, looked into the doctor's serious eyes, and I knew that he wasn't lying to me.

"And how long will she live if she starts treatment now?"

"It's not clear yet...... I can't say if I haven't had more diagnoses yet...... But if it's serious, I'm afraid that kid won't survive for a year......"

I felt like I was going to fall to the ground.

At that moment, I finally knew why Xueqi was abandoned in the first place. I can finally imagine what kind of family situation Xueqi's parents are.

Who would want to abandon their children if they didn't spend all their money on curing their illness?

It turned out that fate was already sealed ten years ago.

"So...... Is she really hopeless?" I asked, steady. At that moment, I couldn't believe I could hold on.

"There may be, or it may ......"

He didn't go on.

I know the answer.

……

Twenty minutes later, I returned to Xueqi's hospital room. As soon as I entered the ward, I saw that Xue Qi had woken up for some time, and she was lying on the hospital bed looking at me weakly.

"Papa, where have you been?" Xue Qi looked at me and asked me innocently.

Looking at Xue Qi, I felt that the whole person was stunned, at that moment, I felt that my heart was about to be torn apart, I had an urge to cry out loud, but I still held back, I gently closed the door, forced the mood swings churning in my heart, squeezed out a smile, and gently approached Xue Qi.

"Papa just went to the toilet, Papa didn't go anywhere, Papa won't leave Qiqi. I smiled at Xue Qi, and then slowly sat down on Xue Qi's bedside and grabbed her hand.

Although there is a smile on the face.

But my heart was dripping blood

Because of that secret in my heart, I will never tell Xueqi.

Xue Qi looked at me, and her faint eyebrows showed a little sadness.

“papa…… Aren't you cold?"

"Hmm, papa, it's not cold. ”

"That papa...... Why are your hands shaking?"

I froze and retracted my hand.

"Papa is a bit cold. But it won't be cold later. ”

Xue Qi snorted and nodded at me, her big black eyes showing a little weakness.

After being silent for a while, Xue Qi suddenly said to me, "Papa...... Can you tell me a story?"

I smiled and said, "How old is Qiqi, and you still want to listen to stories?"

"Hmm...... However, I want to hear the story you tell Papa......" Xue Qi looked at me pleadingly and whispered.

I forced a smile, grabbed Xueqi's hot hand, and said, "Okay, okay, Papa will tell you a story...... Papa tells you stories ......"

At that moment, I finally understood that Xueqi had never grown up.

She'll never be a child.

She didn't understand anything.

Just like when I first picked her up.

The heart is as white as paper.

What is the most beautiful thing in the world?

Some say it's a colorful world, some say it's a vivid and vivid portrait.

But for me, the most beautiful thing in the world is always the white paper that has not been infected.

Because no matter how beautiful a picture is, it is not as clean as a blank sheet of paper.