That night, Yuezi personally cooked and cooked a very hearty kaiseki meal for me and Xueqi, she said that she and I were going to Suzhou, so we would have to wronged Xueqi to stay at home for four days, so let Xueqi eat a good meal first, and let her eat enough, and she didn't have to eat for four consecutive days.

That night, Xue Qi really ate with a small stomach, and she almost couldn't walk.

After that, that night, Yuezi watched several cartoons with Xueqi, and then danced with me with great interest.

I don't know why, Yuezi seemed to be in a very good mood that night, she seemed to be very passionate about everything, washing dishes, washing clothes, cleaning, she didn't seem to be tired of anything. Yuezi even asked me what was the best way to dress for a long time, whether I wanted to wear sunglasses in a ponytail or my hair. She also went to the store to buy some dried fish as snacks on the road, and it seemed that she was really preparing for the next day's trip with great anticipation.

At least, that's what I thought at the time.

That night, the last scene I saw was Yuezi smiling and waving her hand, saying goodnight, and closing the door of my and Xueqi's bedroom room, and then, that bright smile completely disappeared the moment the door closed.

At that time, I didn't understand the meaning of the smile on the moon child.

Until the next day.

When I woke up the next day, it was already half past nine.

But the sky outside was still so dark, and the sky was still full of wind, lightning and thunder, like the end of the world.

However, that day, I didn't wake up naturally, but Xueqi woke me up.

That day, I was sleeping in a daze, hazy, suddenly heard Xue Qi calling me, I opened my eyes, but saw Xue Qi standing at the head of my bed with an anxious expression, and said to me:

"Papa, Sister Yuezi's room is empty. ”

"Huh?" Xue Qi's simple words completely dispelled all my sleepiness, and for a moment, a premonition of not wanting to envelop my whole body. I got up from the bed as fast as I could, and then rushed to the second floor where the confinement was located.

Xue Qi ran with me to the second floor.

When I stood in front of the door of the confinement bedroom, I couldn't move even a single moment.

When I saw the scene in the confinement bedroom, I felt that the whole world had turned into darkness.

The world is still.

The confinement room was empty.

The quilts were neatly stacked, and the decorations, clothes, pendants, and magazines that originally belonged to the confinement were also gone.

The only thing left was a room full of paintings and a violin on a cabinet.

Xueqi and I just stood at the door of the bedroom like that.

One stop is half a day.

The confinement is gone.

I suddenly realized.

She's gone.

Walked away last night.

And so she went.

In the end, I controlled my emotions and walked slowly, like a walking corpse, into the confinement bedroom.

On the bookshelf, there is the violin of the confinement period.

I stupidly walked to the violin of the confinement child, there was still a faint fragrance of the confinement on it, I gently stroked the strings, only to find a note on the strings.

I gently took the note down and found that it read:

"Give it to Sister Xueqi as a souvenir. ”

When I saw the words, I felt my heart start to tremble violently, like a broken pendulum clock, and I felt that I was about to start to lose control.

I know I can't help myself.

I don't know how much longer I can hold back.

Maybe a minute.

Perhaps, just the next second.

I should have expected that.

Yesterday, the confinement behavior had already begun to become strange.

I should have expected that.

I would be so stupid as to think that she would really go with me to Suzhou, to Qingdao, to go for a ride, to go to the movies.

"Papa, black girl......" Xueqi's voice suddenly came, waking me up, I sniffled, turned my head with wet eyes, and saw a black and white kitten lying quietly in a cardboard box at the head of the bed of the confinement child.

That's the black girl.

It's just that on the neck of the black girl, it seems, something is hanging.

Pink, thin, square-shaped pieces of paper.

I swallowed a mouthful of water, and like a lost person who had found a source of water, I walked forward slowly.

I gently lifted the black girl from the cardboard box, and the black girl wanted to resist, but despite its resistance, I had already taken off the pendant around its neck.

It was a handsome pink piece of paper.

When I saw the signature on the cover of the letter, I recognized it, it was the signature of the confinement child.

I've known Yuezi for so long, and I'm already very familiar with her signature.

With the envelope paper in my hand, I felt like time was turning back.

Everything seems to go back to five years ago.

Why......

Why did the same thing happen to me......

Exactly twice.

Why?!

Looking at the beautiful handwriting on it, I felt my heart being ruthlessly split by a knife saw, the corners of my eyes had begun to moisten, my nose had begun to sour, and I wondered if I still had the courage to open the letter.

I put my trembling fingers in the junction of the envelope.

Once......

Twice......

Three times......

I want to open it again and again, and finally I can't let it go.

But in the end, I hesitated, I didn't know where I got the courage, or maybe I was numb.

I opened it still trembling.

At that moment, I felt like I had opened the most precious treasure chest in the world.

Hidden in the treasure chest are treasures that I don't want to enjoy in my life.

Those are the words left to me by the confinement child, which are enough for me to reminisce and cherish for a lifetime, and at the same time, it is also painful for a lifetime.

Above, it reads:

Hi Adong.

Did you sleep well last night?

I really hope you sleep well, as usual, and then I feel more at ease.

I don't want to tell you that when you read this letter, I was already on the plane back to Yokohama.

I'm sorry I secretly bought a ticket back to Yokohama without telling you, and I wanted to say goodbye to you before leaving, but seeing that you and Xueqi slept so sweetly, I still can't bear to disturb you. In the end, he still walked away secretly.

That's stubbornness.

I know that saying goodbye is the most annoying.

However, this is already the best way I can think of. Forgive me, Adong, I really want to stay if I can. With you, and Xueqi. Every day is so happy, so comfortable, so leisurely.

In the days leading up to my departure, I often thought about how nice it would be if I could be with you like that for the rest of my life.

Perhaps there is no happiest thing in the world than this.

I don't want to leave you, I don't want to leave you and Xueqi, or the Yuhui senior sister who convinced me. I don't want to leave each of you, and this beautiful and magical country.

However, I still had to go.

Because I don't have a choice.

I remember that Adong said to me, let me stop keeping secrets from you.

At that time, I said to you, next time, next time, I will tell you all my secrets.

However, I have lied to you again and again, and each time I have not told you the secret.

I'm really ashamed.

But this time, I'm leaving.

If it weren't for the chance, we would all have an ocean across us in this life.

So, in this last moment, I am willing to tell you my secret. Adong.

I want to tell you.

Adong, I'm actually already engaged.

You don't know, I came to China a year ago just to escape marriage.

Ridiculous excuse.

I remember you asked me, who can be worthy of such an excellent girl as me.

At that time, I just laughed and said that the world is big and didn't tell you, now, let me tell you the answer. His name is Akiichi Kurosawa, and he is a friend of Yuichi Takagi. Also my fiancé. When we were 16 years old, my uncle betrothed me to save his group.

Maybe you think it's ridiculous, in this era of free marriage, there will still be such a thing as buying and selling marriage. But this thing is true. Even if I have deceived you and hidden many things from you, but Adong, please believe me, this matter is true. My mother raised me single-handedly, and she remarried when I was in junior high school, and since then, it has been my uncle who has cultivated me, and it was he who gave me and my mother many years of living expenses, and because of his help, we were able to survive in Japan, where women are low.

My uncle has helped our mother and son for so many years, and I have nothing to repay him, nor can I save his company, so, in order to repay him, I agreed to let him marry me to his rival company in order to seek cooperation.

But it's true.

Marrying a man she doesn't love at all or even know is the greatest sorrow in a woman's life. Hehe.

So sometimes, I really don't want to be a woman, I learn to dress up as a man, although the amount of alcohol is very small, I still force myself to learn to drink, obviously I like tranquility, but I also learn to flow with men naturally like men, I obviously like art, but I still force myself to exercise my physical strength and ability, all this, just want to make myself independent and no longer weak.

But that's not me.

You know, that's not who I really am.

So, I asked my uncle's colleague, Bao Zhi Shengping, to help me get a visa, so that I could come to China as a translator, to come to this foreign land that was not bound by the original order, and to find my true self.

I don't want my fate to be arranged.

I want to find myself again.

Find the self in me.

So I came to China.

And in the end, I think I found it.

Do you know, what day it is?

It's the day I met you.

Adong, do you know, in fact, I lied to you.

I don't know how to read minds at all, but the first time I saw you, it felt like fate. I can feel what you're thinking. I can feel your mood, your emotions.

From the initial curiosity, to the later contact, gradually, again and again, I discovered the advantages in you. You are gentle, you are friendly, you are upright, you are brave, and you are always able to burst out with an unexpected sense of security when it matters most.

You know, I don't know when it started, but I found that I already liked that feeling.

The feeling of being with you.

I found that that kind of feeling was what I was really looking for.

So I'm afraid. I was afraid that I would sink into the mire and I would not be able to extricate myself, and I was afraid that when I got too deep, I would never be able to get out of the quagmire again, like a butterfly entangled in cobwebs.

So, before I could extricate myself, I had to choose to leave.

I have to go back to where I need to be.

Just yesterday, Bao Zhi Shengping came to me, and he brought news from my uncle, urging me to go back and get married.

At that time, I knew that it was time for this exotic trip to end.

The judgment of my fate has come.

Hehe, actually, let's talk from the heart, the person I envy the most is still Xueqi, I am really envious of seeing her being able to be with you so happily every day. It's like seeing who you used to be. So I spared no effort to teach Xueqi and taught her everything I could. Although it was a short time, I tried my best to teach her a lot. When I watch her dance with you, sing with you, and be by your side, it's like she has fulfilled her wish. It's a really wonderful feeling.

I really don't want to go, hehe.

I'd love to be with you if I could.

To go lobster fishing, to go on a boat, to go for a ride, to travel, to walk everywhere, to see this country that I will never be able to finish in my life.

You know, that so-called Moon Shadow Breeze Project is just an excuse for me to force myself to stay. I said to myself again and again, when you help me fulfill those wishes, I can go. But I didn't expect you to be slow to do it...... I don't know if to rejoice or worry

In the end, though, that plan didn't come to fruition. But I think in your heart and I have already fulfilled that plan.

I really want to tell you how I feel at this time, but unfortunately my Chinese skills are like this. The words come to the mouth, a thousand words, but I don't know how to express them.

So, I'll not talk about it.

……

At this point on the letterhead, I saw that under this sentence, there was a thick bright red lip print, and the size and shape of the lip print were completely consistent with the lips of the confinement child. Underneath the red lip print, there is a faint line of words:

……

I still remember, Adong, you tried to kiss me twice.

However, at that time, I was very shameless and rejected you. Now that I think about it, I really regret it, and if I could turn back the clock, maybe I wouldn't have refused. I refuse, just because I'm not ready. I'm afraid I'm going to fall. I'm afraid that I may not have the courage to return to my country and face everything that lies ahead.

Now, I leave my first kiss to you, forever.

Cherish it.

Please also be sure to take care of the black girl, that is the testimony of our memories.

Although we can't be together, I still hope that Heimei can have a full house of children and grandchildren, give birth to a litter of kittens, and start a family happily, that is also my wish, please be sure to help me complete it.

Adong.

If one day, when you get old, but you still have this letter, I hope that when you read this letter, you will remember that there was a girl named Amano Tsukiko in your life. The happiest time of her life was the 180 days with you.

Goodbye, Adong.

If you have a fate, I hope you can see you again.

あいしてる。

A girl who loves you. I don't say names, how many years later, can you remember me?

……